I guess it all started when I was sixteen; funny thinking how long ago it seems even though I’m only 20 now, Or maybe before. I was never happy as a kid, dad never around, mom always at work, an abusive grandfather. It was when I was sixteen that I decided to do something about it. I ran away. I ran away from Arizona and took the greyhound to long beach. I don’t know what my actual plan was once I got there but regardless everything went wrong. I ended up having to get surgery to save my life and spent almost the whole month […]
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Born at zero, learnt to walk at one, learnt to talk at two, got friends at three, learnt to draw at four, learnt to count at five, learnt to spell at six, parents divorced at seven, depressed at eight, confused at nine, alone at ten, procrastinating at eleven, drinking at twelve, cutting at thirteen, loved at fourteen, almost had a child at fifteen, started drugs at sixteen, lost everything at seventeen, dead at eighteen
What are your guys’ thoughts on all the teenagers and young kids on here? I’m one of those. I’m sixteen. But I want to know your guys’ thoughts. Do you think they’re stupid or overreacting or something?
I didn’t see any age restrictions so, I turn sixteen in a month. I promised myself when I turned fifteen that I wouldn’t live to be sixteen, that I had to kill myself before that. But I am a coward, so I just pray every single day to God to just let me die. Car accident, burglary-gone-wrong, give me cancer for fucks sake. But nothing. I’m still here for some reason, maybe. I don’t even know why I’m posting here, I just got bored and decided to ask Google why I was still alive. It didn’t give me an answer, but I found this site. […]
I find it odd that I’m unhappy with my life and that I feal useless. I have a place to live, a family l, and a girlfriend that I love. Why do I feal like this? I just doesn’t match up maybe its just the pills talking or the razor….not like I would know. I cant take it much longer…. My girlfriend shes messed up like me she has a special friend made of metal and so do I. We got into this argument yesterday about it I pulled out mine a told her if she continues to call herself things that arnt her ill […]
Throughout my life, I’ve been torn down, thrown to the side, laughed at, tortured, and just been made out to be a vulnerable girl. In Elementary school, I was bullied about my weight and appearance. In Middle school, I was cyberbullied and forced to have intimacy at 13. When I got to high school, I lost someone I prayed I wouldn’t lose; my own mother. I watched her become diagnosed with colon cancer and heard it spread to her liver. She hung on until I was almost sixteen. With hospice by her side and my family, I watched her pass away. I still have the […]
I honestly don’t know what to do. Everything’s slowly coming apart at the seams. I’m falling behind in all of my classes and hardly paying attention to my parents. I’m unattractive and most of the people that I hang out with just think of me as really annoying. I bet there’s a line of people waiting to try and kill me. Hell, I’ve even stopped reading books as much as i used to. And it’s not just that I feel unmotivated. I just don’t know what to do anymore. I suppose that’s what it’s like when you live your whole life doing what people tell […]
I was married for sixteen years. I have three sons. I have three degrees. I have also lost everything in this world that mattered to me. I can’t see or visit my sons because I can’t afford it. I am in constant pain with a bad neck and back. The most painful thing is that I lost the only woman I ever truly loved nearly 30 years ago. I lost the second woman I loved two years ago. Without love, what is a person? I keep dragging this reminder of the thin edge of life and death across my wrists every day or so. One […]
I’m sixteen and just recently got caught shoplifting. I’m so stupid. I have one of the highest gpas in my school, play a varsity sport, and successfully take the hardest APs at my school but I threw everything away with this one mistake. My parents blame themselves when it’s all my fault not theirs. They barely make enough to support our family yet I selfishly cost them more so that I can get an attorney in hopes that this won’t remain on my record. If this stays on my record I don’t have any chance of going anywhere in life and all that stress and […]
I might kill myself. I think I am going to use the “exit” bag method with helium as my choice of gas. I can’t take the constant pain, guilt, worry, and sadness anymore. My parents are so disappointed in me. I am everything they never wanted. Unlike my younger sister, my grades are poor, I’m a drug addict, an overall failure. My dad constantly reminds me about how he refuses to pay for my college expenses since I am such a bad student. Constantly asking me, “Which college do you think you will be accepted into?”, in a rude tone. My dad always makes snarky […]