No more tomorrows

I was married for sixteen years. I have three sons. I have three degrees. I have also lost everything in this world that mattered to me. I can’t see or visit my sons because I can’t afford it. I am in constant pain with a bad neck and back. The most painful thing is that I lost the only woman I ever truly loved nearly 30 years ago. I lost the second woman I loved two years ago.  Without love, what is a person? I keep dragging this reminder of the thin edge of life and death across my wrists every day or so. One day I may just press a little too much and won’t be able to stop the bleeding. That may be a blessing. No more pain, no more fighting… just stillness. To sleep…