I’d love to hear some real life experiences from folks who’ve called suicide hotlines…
How do they start off the conversation?
How do they continue it or keep you engaged (if they do)?
Have you ever called for a friend, and if so, what was that like?
This is mainly to get a quick sample of how people perceive them and whether they are seen as helpful, or not of much help….
Thanks for anything you may want to share.
Well, i’ve been on a diet and daily exercise since more than 4 months. Didn’t work.
I’
m gonna start college soon and i’m tired. I struggle with this since I can remember. I just want to know how it feels to be fit, confident and such…
I hate my body image and wake up every day just to see it and feel it again and being watched by others too.
I just don’t know what to do anymore.
Also maybe my ex bf and I will meet again this year and I just wanted to give him a surprise.
Damn it.
If you are at the point when suicide is inevitable – it is not a matter of IF but WHEN – does it make sense to start distancing yourself from family and friends? Not sure if it would help but I have to believe it is easier to miss someone you remember as a jerk. I have intentionally not responded to calls and texts from my kids and a very good friend in hopes that maybe it will make them not care so much about me dying. I know it’s stupid but I’m going to do it any way.
Hello everyone. I am here to ask for your council. All I want to do is die. Today, I have the means to possibly accomplish this but I don’t know if I should try. There are so many factors. First problem is, I’m supposed to work tonight and all weekend. If I carry out my plan, if I were to fail, I’d be completely out of it for days. That’s another problem; failing. If I fail I’d be sent to a behavioral health unit. There are two reasons I don’t want this. One: I’ve been in them before and they don’t work (plus I work […]
Well, it looks like my psychiatrist is going out of business, as if mental health wasn’t already underfunded enough. I don’t know if anyone who worked at the place will start up a business here. I guess wealth and a great education go hand in hand, so maybe those doctors can form a new business, or maybe I’ll just be on my own from here on out. At any rate, nothing has really changed. I’m still bitter and I barely leave my room. I still have no friends because people make me contemplate the ultimate futility and disillusionment I feel when pursuing relationships. Plus, another […]
I know it’s a bit late to start a new years resolution. But I decided the other day that I should start writing one or two good things that happen each day for a year and at the end read them all. Sounds like a good idea right? Sounds like it will make you notice the positive things in life, help become a more positive person. Not for me. It’s done exactly the opposite. I’ve realised what a miserable life I have, how cynical and negative I am. I can barely find a good thing that’s happened today and for me it was a busy […]
I can not see myself living a long life based on what has occurred for the past 21 years. I feel like an embarrassment because the only thing I did was screw up things myself by allowing others to treat me like shit and go along with certain bullshit to feel accepted. I’ve developed a state of partial isolation because my lack of social interaction has resulted from be being afraid to become close to anyone and whenever I try to people think I am weird or mean because I am so timid to continue a conversation. When you have experienced sexual, physical, and mental […]
If it all worked out we would live in a different house.
We would live in a different town.
This is a brand new start; clear body, broken heart.
I’ll come visit you when I get the chance.
Breathing’s not easy when you’re underwater.
I am drowning and you’re keeping me under.
Close your eyes, sleep outside. it’s warmer than in here.
I’ll be fine, I’ll run and hide. I wish I could stay here.
You’re still in my head. my mind’s convinced that you never left.
I’m counting down till I see you next.
I still compare everything to your silhouette.
How can I forget what is […]
Let me tell you about a pathetic loser
Who is on their way out
Cause life’s gone and shown them what its all about
It isn’t happiness and it isn’t smiles
Its misery and choking on bile
But don’t cry, don’t have fear
Cause when this losers end is near
They won’t cry, they’ll laugh
Cause an ends better than half
A life, suffocating underneath
The weight of the thief
Who stole their happiness
And replaced it with this crappiness
And the worst part?
It was like this from the start
Cause the thief’s name was the loser
And the loser was just a forgotten cur
Who could have moved forward with life
But instead drowned in their own strife
And wasted time writing […]
A long time ago I used to count down the days until stupid things like when school would start again, or when I would finally move out of the house. Now that I’m a sort of adult those things are just ridiculous. I count down to something much more important. To the day that I will attempt suicide again and I will succeed. It’s scary that I’m writing this down publicly because it’s been a secret I’ve kept to myself for so long now. I’m not looking for a way out, I’m not looking to change my mind, I’ve tried all that and it’s exhausting, […]
I’m ok…well, sort of. I think i’ve moved on from kicking myself for ruining our relationship. Well..mentally. I can look at couples and not have an overwhelming urge to vomit. I can go outside, breathe, smile, laugh and be over all happy. What I don’t understand is the nausea and loss of appetite. It’s been forever. You’d think after a week or so, you’d start having some type of appetite. I have nothing. Every time I eat, I get really nauseous and need to sit very still for a long period of time. I then, go to the bathroom, and wait to throw up. I’m […]
“Happiness can be found, Even in the darkest of times , If one only remembers to turn on the light.”
I thought I would start off my update with one of my all time favorite quotes. Well I’m still breathing for one. I just started at my new college 2 weeks ago. Things have definitely been getting better for me. Though I’ve had a few bad moments including clawing and slitting my arms to the point that probably be marked for a good while. I could never handle stress well. My depressive thoughts have decreased though, Though I haven’t felt more alone in a long time […]
No Glory In The Process.
Idk, its just a phrase thats plays alot on my mind when i start to get down. Im not sure what it means to me, or if its helping or not. Its just there.
My life feels like a story, but i havent gotten my happy ending yet so far things have being going wrong for me. I’ve always wanted to write a book about my life, but i dont know where to start. You think you guys can help me out? I think it would help me get things off my mind by not hurting myself. I think it would be better to write about my life then hurt it. Anyways just let me know if you want to help me out
Liz, are you there
When did I ever ask you back, of anything
Oh, my companion
But you, and your spirits, we can
In the night, I light one-up and start to cry
Oblivion, my beautiful mother screams in hers
And we don’t speak of the seismic that we both feel
Underground, do you know, of a continuum of a
I haven’t slept, now that I realize, since the beginning
Therefore, I do not have dreams, anymore
You know of my ail, and thus, I arrive
Please, I need your help
So far today I’ve almost beat the hell out of my *****-in-law…
Then they left to do things.
They came back with alcohol… wonderful…
So, I guess the wait for an argument to start is underway.
Let’s hope this doesn’t get nasty.
I’m not feeling very strong today. I want to say so much but who cares enough to listen? And what does it matter anyway? I don’t know how to give my feelings any value anymore. I’m going to try this to see if it helps but in my mind I think I have already made the decision to end my life. There is just too much hatred and shame and I’m tired of all the wanting I have. To many needs never able to be satisfied. This is going to take time to write out so I will start with something short. This.
Maybe this will […]
I can’t kill myself because it would destroy my family, but I don’t want to live. My mother died 6 weeks ago. It occurred to me then that I might be free to end my life, as I have thought about doing for a long time. She was the main reason I could not kill myself, because I believed that doing so might literally kill her as well. Now that she’s gone, though, I look at my sisters and see how much they depend on me and each other, and I still can’t do it. I have a good family. I can’t act on these […]
It was hard then to get out of that mental state. I don’t want it to come back. It feels like it’ll overwhelm me completely, this time with newer with harder demons, more temptations.
It is after all, just the circle of life aye ?
So, do I risk everything thus far and let go of the grip keeping my head above the waters?
Sigh.
Nobody said it was easy, no one ever said it’ll be this hard, I’m going back to the start.
Despair is repressed, only for a short-while, It cannot be hidden for too long. People start seeing it. It eagerly reveals its existence, like a child wanting to reveal his talents, in a school- play. Just like a play, despair is viewed as “fictitious”; in they’re mind, it’s only in your mind. Some believe it’s the lack of gratitude and love you show towards ’em; some, simply, enjoy your despair, it makes them feel better. In either case, their ego is the window in which, they view your despair. All this happens, as if they’ve never felt sad; as if they suddenly developed a relative […]
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