After I lost my friend, I didn’t know what to do or who to turn to, I wound up joining the wrong crowd. I was always a little bit of a drinker, I mean I liked the taste. But I got a little too tipsy one night, and I wound up sleeping with this guy whose last name I still don’t even know. I wound up getting pregnant after that, but I tragically lost the baby before I could even tell anyone, including my family. I wound up spiraling down into depression and “cutting” and I was just in a funk. As soon as I […]
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In 3rd grade, I was told by my doctor that I had anxieties. I was going home from school everyday sick to my stomach due to my constant worrying. My father hadn’t contacted me in awhile and it was the first thing that had me worried so bad at a young age. I was making myself really sick and I’d have panic attacks. As I got older, I struggled with more teenage problems. My anxieties were at an ultimate high. I’m sixteen years old and can barely drive a car because I get worried about everything I’m doing and I have a panic attack and […]
Does anyone know a good website that can help me plan my funeral so my family wont be left with so much burden. Â Please do not respond with stupid stuff that is not helpful. this is a serious matter and getting dumb replies just verifies my need to be done with the stupid ass people here on earth.
So lately I’ve been feeling like I’m useless..it feels like everything I do is not good enough. I just want to leave this world. I think It would be better without me here. I need someone to talk to but I have a hard time opening up to people. Last time I opened up to someone they showed me why I don’t open up to people. I’m tired of crying every night. I just want to end the pain. I’m hurt, depressed, angry. I just want it to all go away. Everything is tooo much. I’m 15 in highschool and im failing all my […]
Sooo, I have a new crush. His name is Austin. God, he is so cute. He has blonde hair, a six pack, braces (I like braces, for some reason), and I think he has blue eyes. I went to my friend’s house yesterday, and it was her brother’s birthday. He had some friends over, and Austin was one of them. We played football, did random stupid stuff, and I had a lot of fun with him. I swear he was flirting. He insulted my favorite video game, started to tease me slightly, and then ran away. I chased him around, too. I can run a […]
All my life I’ve been bullied. My parents don’t give a shit about me. I’ve been told, and now thoroughly believe, that if i killed myself, no one would give a single fuck. Now, I’m not going to run out in the middle of the street and jump in front of a car going 80, but say I were, for some reason, laying in the street, and a car were coming, I wouldn’t move. Growing up, I was afraid to go to school. I would play hookie because I didn’t want to be spit at by the popular kids. I was beaten and made fun […]
Besides what’s going on in my life
I had a bad day at school..
I was teased in every class…
For stupid stuf..
like for example I was called myrightnut
My names Myra…
And I was during about this in my notebook and someone tried to take it from me and I smacked their hand..
Then people started calling me a cat..
Calling me names..
And ECT… I’ve had two people say stop she’s gonna go sit somplace cry..
Wait keep talking maybe shell die if she does..
Stupid stuff…. And I only have one real friend thirbfor me …
Her names saveena..
She helps me…
I dont get the sence in cutting…
But for everytime im bullied ima keep […]
why must i always do stupid stuff… i seem to not have a conscience…..i wonder why i do it…
I keep lying to myself saying everything is okay, but in reality I know it’s not. I cannot go through the day wondering if I will be better off dead. I keep loosing my friends over stupid stuff. I cannot trust a single soul. I keep breaking out even worse because I am so stressed out on life. I wish life could be over as simple as just pressing a button. But, it’s not. I really have no friends I can speak to about my life and why I am so depressed all the time. All I have is Tumblr. I just need someone […]
I dont know what to write. I have no clue, Ive never done this before.
I have severe depression, and have for years. Because of this, I have done so much stupid stuff, pushed so many people away. I have nobody. And I mean nobody. Not my father, my mother passed away, my now ex boyfriend left me for my ‘bestfriend’, and every one of my friends have ditched me. I have nobody.
The school is aware of the suicidal thoughts, and they tried to help for a few weeks, but after I left the school to throw myself in front of a train and was caught, […]
My mom and I just got in another fight. It’s always about stupid stuff. I just can’t do this anymore. She treats me like such a child and all I want to do is leave but, not enough money..
Between my parents, school, and just feeling awful in general all I want to do is just slice my arms up til I can’t feel anymore. But I work the weekend and I don’t want anyone to see them. I know it’s bad and I know I shouldni’t do it, but cuttings the only thing that helps anymore. For even just a little bit it makes me […]
it all started in 6th grade. i was bullied, my grandpa died, and other stupid stuff. im now in 8th grade, and i have strongly considered suicide around 11 times. couldnt God give me a break?!!?!?!? im only 14!!!!!!!!!! when your heart just feels so overwhelmed that you cant bare it any longer. i put a smile on my face everyday at school. thats just not something you want people to go around knowing. i got two really close friends. i just always felt guilty, them thinking they knew me, but they didn’t at all. they thought i was always happy and bubbly. guilt built up inside […]