I’ve been so focused on trying to be successful that I haven’t really been depressed as usual.Ever since my friend has came from jail he feels like I owe him.(long story)?The thing Is I’m a different person from a year ago.A year ago I was still lost,I didn’t know how to go on when my ex left me.Today,I just want to retire my mom & be successful.Its kinda Ironic that I’m In ?the life Insurance business but there’s times when I want to take my life.I cant kill myself now.Even after these past couple of months working 8 commission jobs & I have nothing […]
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I recently watched the documentary, The Bridge; it was about suicides from the Golden Gate Bridge in San Francisco over about a year. The film has been both praised as illuminating and criticized as exploitative. The only thing I know is that, as effective suicide rates go, jumping from a great height (“from a greeaaaaattttteeee height”, as Radiohead would put it) is highly successful. We have a local bridge in PA that has a higher clearance the the GGB. Now more than ever I want to jump from it.
Thank you guys to support me.. But i couldn’t help myself and i am ending with all hopes with my life..
Just need some courage. I am shivering with sweat on whole body. The cutter in hand falling down. I wish i will get successful on the way of hell or heaven. I wish i would have live more with my love. I really wish. Please god make me die in his arms.
OK so today the voices were on and on about shit. Then this entity began making shit funny. It makes light of the dark shit that can surround my soul sometimes.
They modify words get carried away with songs, make me hear shit that ain’t there but sounds like it is. But I’m too smart for the voices I know its them. I have at least 6 or 7 different characters that come and go. Everything from little girls to evil entities that curse and swear and crack me up. That’s when they’re not trying to make me suicidal.
I’m trying to find successful stories of Schizo’s […]
I used to think that the tears would never stop, the urges would never cease, and the thoughts of suicide would only grow stronger. I am here, two years suicide-thought free to tell each and everyone of you, this too shall pass. It takes time, so much time. I was lucky to be able to say “I need help” and I got it.
I never looked in the mirror and thought of something that I liked about myself. Never. I began thinking that this was how I would always feel. Never pretty, or skinny, or good enough. I was feeling this way and just assumed it was […]
Ive recently been diagnosed with manic depression. I’ve been reading the posts on here for the last few months. About 2 years ago I tried to kill myself by hanging and was nearly successful. I was unconscious and found by paramedics which is unfortunate. I’ve been battling with my depression for some time now and have had a partner on and off for the last 4 years. The support I’ve received from my friends and so called partner is diabolical. I know my parents will miss me especially my mum and I am so sorry and love you with all my heart. I just can’t […]
Maybe I should just give it one more shot. My last time I was successful, well a combo of drugs and the lq withdrawls, either way, it did work, so it’s my time.
The other day some dude was talking about jumping, he had rented a room. I am super afraid of heights, but I hate wasting money, so I would just HAVE TO JUMP. Vodka will give me courage, unless it makes me sick, or worse I just fall asleep. I have the money right now to get a room and alcohol. I pray, many times a day, I pray for others and that I’m […]
My cat is my best friend and my mother, my children are awesome but live with their mom, big accomplishment from a 37 year old male! Been completely alone for a few days and have spent much time pondering the remainder of my crippled life. I survived a motorcycle accident in 2011, have T.B.I. that has affected motor skills on my right side. I can go on about how drastically my life has changed in what seems a blink of an eye but who really gives a fuck! I do not want this existence, I’m %100 cognitive, very intelligent but everyday I stare down the […]
So I am new at this site and am seeking advice. I am in my mid twenties and am a relatively successful individual. About 6 months ago my life turned upside down when I was diagnosed with a cosmetic skin condition call fordyce spots on my lips. The problem with this condition is that it is progressive meaning it gets worse with time and that there is currently no cure out on the market. Over the past few months I have quit my job lost most of my friends and have detached from family, religion, and basically anything else that requires social interaction. I have […]
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I have been in this place one to many times. I have been in the deep dark depths of my mind and I can’t seem to escape from my sadness. I have been able to recover and travel a long way in my life and saying FUCK YOU to those who have fucked me over and choose to bully me and beat me down. I come here out of all places to receive love and support not to be bullied. I have been beaten down so many times and I have been pushed to the ground. I don’t want to be here anymore and I […]
Does anyone feel like that people who say that “talent has nothing to do with success if you keep practicing” or “don’t give up your dream! :3” or something to that effect are only people who have been so far successful therefore wouldn’t know what the fuck they are talking about? The notion that everything can be that easy if you have the passion for it or the drive and you work diligently? ANYONE can have those things! but is what gives other people the edge is something genetic? sure someone can study techniques and maybe learn to use a new tool. but guess what?! someone […]
“Sometimes I feel like people dont understand me.
But maybe its me who doesn’t understand myself
I struggle day by day,looking for a reason to keep living
By the end of every night, I never find anything
Worthy of a life in this world
So,why am I still alive and havent killed myself yet
The answer is I dont know
My mom, I am sure would be fine if I took my life
She still has my brother, who unlike me is perfect
He isnt a broken down car, waiting for the smallest of things to break down
My brother is smart,good-looking,successful and is very worthy of life
And I have no friends or talents to […]
I believe I have served my purpose. Natural death is just that, natural. It would be romantic if we died after having served our purpose so we could go peacefully knowing the suffering will end. However, because death can happen at anytime we could serve our purpose and suffer worthlessly for years only to die unhappy and confused. Some people are destined to be great and lead wonderful successful lives, not all of us are that privileged.
After having been medically discharged from the military just short of completing basic training due to an eye disease I cant control I no longer have anything to push […]
I’m a relatively successful woman–if by successful you mean I have great friends, supportive family, enough money to get by. I may not have a ludicrous career at 32 years old, but I’d like to think I’m okay even if I get jealous over younger, more successful people all the time.
But I hate myself. I go out and have a fun time, I think I look pretty at times, there are also times I think I’m on the top of the world.
I’ve always hated myself for as long as I remember. I remember being 10 years old, thinking that I should be killing myself because […]
what happens after the end?
I have been suicidal since I can remember. The only thing that has stopped me from attempting (in recent years) is the fear of what will happen after I catch the bus. What if I am successful in my endeavor, only to end up in the same position again?
I have the means. I have the will. Now I just need the courage to take my final step.
Don’t tell your talent to anyone until you become very successful person, they will keep an evil eye on your talent and they will destroy your talent. I was very talented/creative person created so many video games, art, pencil sketches, poems but I was not allowed to tell what I was doing. So everyone thought I was very dumb . I had the talent to become best student of my university but I end up being a dumb alone person who was blacklisted from college.When I realized it was very stupid advice, it was too late. Now I have lost all the interest in […]
Hello,
Thank you for taking the time to read my story. My upbringing was not the best. My childhood consist of homelessness, molestation and verbal abuse. I fought very hard in my childhood, as well as my teenage years to become successful. I kept telling myself, if I worked hard one day I would have a family of my own. Deep down, I knew that I had depression and anxiety. I thought that I would have time to address these concerns at a later date.
I managed to make my way through college. Still living in isolated life and fearful of relationships with others.
Over this last year, […]
Thanks for your comments; as usual I decided to postpone my decision for a night. But I know it can not work. I am 23 but I really I feel that the future does not need me and I don’t need it. The worst thing is I lost all my believes even in God. I am in middle of nowhere. I am studying in a foreign country, even I cannot see my close friends and family. Nothing good is not happening around me. I think the time is coming but not to heal my wound but to create a worsen one……………………………………………………………………
Thanks for your reading.. I […]
I don’t even know what to say. But, I do believe that it wouldn’t matter even if I did know what to say.
I am surrounded by people, but I am alone. I have to bear the unbearable psychic pain with no relief in sight.
I am so terribly sad. I don’t understand this world. I don’t fit in here or anywhere. I am a freak.
I attempted suicide a few years ago. What brought me to that attempt was that my soul died and all that was left of me was my fleshy shell. Suicide seemed to be only the next step; kill the body that used […]
I feel guilty hating my life like I do. I’m what most people would consider successful, but what I consider a complete and utter failure.
All I’ve ever wanted to be is a wife and mother, yet at almost 35, I’ve never even had a boyfriend. I’ve failed at what’s supposed to be the most natural thing of all, love. I have no one to talk to about this, because no one would understand. I think about killing myself most hours of the day, and no one I know would believe me if I told them that. I’ve become very good at faking my life, so […]