im at a very young age and constantly find myself thinking about suicide not only do i have suicidal thoughts i self harm and have a eating disorder. sometimes life can be great and then all of a sudden i feel alone and nothing can lift my mood and i start thinking the only way i can be at piece is if the person i love the most gets in his car and runs me over
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Suicide
It’s something I use to think of a lot.
Sometimes I still do.
I met this boy, in one of my classes, and we were just talking. Somehow suicide etched its words into our conversation. He told me, “If you tell someone, you want to be stopped.” For me..that was true. I told my Dad. I cried in the car and told him everything.
When I was a kid, there are some things I can’t remember. I was crazy..wild. My Mom let me do whatever I wanted. I had a little sister. She suffered from a severe case of asthma. My mom did drugs..all kinds […]
If I choose to end it all, I guess I should leave some parting words somewhere, and I suppose this is the place to do it.
Goodbye everyone, I probably won’t miss you as much as you’ll miss me. There’s no one that can help me now. I’m too much of a failure and a piece of shit to be helped. There was no hope for me. This was the only option. Please don’t think it was your fault, especially you Mom and Dad. It was my fault and my fault alone. If suicide is the cowards way out, then I am a coward. I have […]
Suicide, suicide
Your presence is near
Suicide, suicide
I wish you were here
Suicide, suicide
Take me away
Suicide, suicide
Please make it today
Suicide, suicide
An answer, for me
Suicide, suicide
I need to escape, be free
Suicide, suicide
I’ve had too much
Suicide, suicide
Take me, do your touch
Suicide, suicide
Leave the rest behind
Suicide, suicide
You’re all over my mind
Suicide, suicide
Let me pass in peace
Suicide, suicide
I need to release
Hello, I’m a 21 year old male who has been struggling to find a reason to live. I’ve thought about suicide quite a few times but deep down, I know I am not capable of it. Instead, I suffer through deep depression, which is always sparked by the simple question of ‘Why?’ I know this answer is unique to every individual, but I was wondering, as an individual yourself, what is your reason to live?
As you may have noticed, I write a lot. I came across this website in an effort to find some research for a very large essay I’m writing. Needless to say, your stories and poems moved me to tears. I know where most of you are coming from and I too often contemplated suicide. But I made the decision to share the times in my life when I believed I couldn’t move on. That is why these stories are here. My hope is that someone will be able to read my story, relate to it and realize they’ re not alone. You can do this, […]
I have fucked so much shit up. I deserve to die. My parents fight because of me….my dad gave me a black eye today. My mom tried to to stop him from wailing on me…..and it was my fault. Why couldn’t I just shut my damn mouth? Even though i was in the right, why couldn’t i just swallow my pride, shut my damn mouth, and say i was wrong?
I want to cut so bad. I just want to feel something other than this pain inside. This sense of worthlessness, and being completely alone. Here Is my advice to you ( I don’t even know […]
The world seems to evolve around money. I hate it so much but i cant stop feeling that i dont have it and that i need it or i dont have a reason to live. Yeah, maybe there might be more to the world than money, but that just isnt the case for many people, like me. Honestly, i like money. Who dosent though? I hate seeing my parents struggle for money. I hate that they have to work so hard and i have to suffer from the lack of money. I dont have anything left for me exept school and my brain. I want […]
I want to die. I want to go to heaven. I want to believe in God. I want, but never get.
written by BlueBlackButterfly
This note is really long, so only read if you’re prepared. This is my story and how I feel. If you have something negative to say, please don’t say it. I’m not really sure what exactly I put in this note because i wrote it on a different site a few days ago, but I still feel the same. Sorry if there is any cussing and just to let ya know… This note wasn’t finished. I have many other things that trouble me daily, but I got tired of writing…
I don’t see the point in life anymore. I’m not even sure if i’m Christian anymore. […]
1. What is your job?
or what do you study?
2. Do you like it? or hate it? or fucking hate it, but have little to no choice?
3. And is you’re feeling suicidal also related with your job/working life?
perhaps feeling meaningless, and hate life?
4. Last but not least, why don’t you pursue your dreams, or your dream-job, or what makes you happy?
What makes you hesitate?
thanks.
I think people often only look at the ‘good’ sides of the money system, but overlooking (or even neglecting) many ‘bad’ sides, in fact perhaps much more than the ‘good/positive’ of the money system! that is IMHO where lies the main problem of all the constant debates & misunderstandings.
The fall of U.S & Europe financial crisis (and soon perhaps the world’s economic collapse, in 2012) have somewhat really proved about this.
People need to seriously look at the Bigger Picture of things, to be very objective, of what Money (system) also caused to humanity.
Out of curiosity, have any of you here ever heard of: […]
That’s how i feel 99 percent of the time. I feel so alone. I hate bein alone. I hate it because I can think. And its bad when I think. Nothing good ever comes out of that, only scars and tears and bad thoughts. I feel like everyone is forgetting me. Why can’t I be normal and loved? Why did God have to put me in this place? I hate living and I wish I was dead. Nothing good ever happens so there is no point to it then. Why hurt when freedom is just on the other side? It doesn’t cost to die. And […]
Humans, humanity, and this (earthly) world/life is not/never a perfect place..
sometimes it even can be ‘blamed’ because of our human’s hard-wired Nature. ie: the way we’re ‘created’.
A famous atheist literature Christopher Hitchens who just passed away ironically few days before Christmas, he said this: “Evolution has meant that our prefrontal lobes are too small, our adrenal glands are too big, and our reproductive organs apparently designed by committee; a recipe which, alone or in combination, is very certain to lead to some unhappiness and disorder.”
think about that, really…and this is even still just ONE factor (ie: I’m still not talking about other ‘imperfections’ nature […]
http://www.ocregister.com/news/naked-332844-hit-killed.html
Just goes to show, it CAN happen to you.
Forgive yourself & other humans,..because this *earthly* life is not perfect…and we’re all only humans…we made mistakes.
and besides, we all live only ONCE in this earthly life, so that’s why many people made mistakes in their life, because you can’t simply turn back time and repeat life..
So forgive yourself (& others), free yourself from all the restricting guilts,
keep learning,
and keep doing the Best & worthwhile while you’re still given a chance to exist and alive here in this physical world…
My mom can get cancer again, and my dad left us without a home or money…I have no friends, my family wants me to go die…they all call me a demon…FUCK LIFE! I’m SICK of getting tortured and neglected by people who say they “love” me…WHATS THE MEANING OF LOVE??? LIFE??? I can’t live with this anymore…I”m DONE being the punching bag…I HAVE ATTEMPTED SUICIDE BEFORE…EVERYONE thinks I’m doing it for attention…EVEN MY THERIPIST…They tell me I’m a lying piece of shit…FUCK YOU! I’m only struggling! Why in the HELL would I fake this?! IT’S CALLED PAIN. My STEPDAD don’t give a FUCK about me…he […]
I’ve never liked needles. I’ve never liked knives. Despite my tattoos, I’ve never been a ‘pierce the flesh’ kind of person. Blood makes me squirm. I’ve always wanted to go peacefully, with dignity, not writhing around in pain during an exit or leaving a mess for someone to clean up.
So I guess after the first failed attempt when I was 15 years old chugging down pills, I realised that just popping pills isn’t exactly a peaceful death. The stomach cramps are the worst. But it seemed like the easiest, least messy, readily available way to go at the time.
There have been a few semi-attempts since then, […]
One week ago, a close family member of mine took her life. She didn’t “commit” anything, she had a great life until about age 30 when all hell broke loose in her brain. Her quality of life for the last two decades was terrible. I cannot imagine what it is like to have actual “voices” in one’s head, or to sleep twelve hours at night, wake up, eat too much, watch TV, never go outside….you get the idea. However, she had a boyfriend of 17 years, who found her. He loved her dearly. He has been there for her no matter what. She had a […]
I wake up. I look at the clock. It’s 5:30 AM. My wife is asleep. My daughter has, at some time during the night, crawled into bed with us. My mother is out asleep on the couch. My head is ringing slightly, my neck and shoulders are tight, my stomach is tight to the point of nausea. I stare at the ceiling trying not to move. How can I get out of this bed without waking anyone, and slip downstairs to the garage? I know there’s a heavy duty extension cord sitting on the workbench. Nobody has picked it up and hidden it away yet. […]
I’ve heard this a few times from people now. “Suicide is the most selfish thing you can do.” It always comes from non-suicidal people, though. My sister popped that infamous line during my phone conversation with her last night, when I finally told her what I’d done Friday night.
I don’t see it. I see all of the miserable things here that drive people to suicide, and nobody cared when those people were being selfless or self-sacrificing, or just trying to please them. If it’s selfish, then it appears to be the one time in their existence when they thought of themselves. That’s not selfishness, that’s […]