Blood: mine and everyone else’s. It becomes an obsession. I love to see it. The very thing that keeps us alive. Available in large or small quantities. In small portions it can be a necessity, yet deadly to someone else! And in large it can drain you of the essence of life. It oozes from a cut as a throbbing life form becoming free. Entering the real world and clinging hopelessly to the skin only to be brushed off and thrust into a hostile environment. Drying and dying, the blood and its gift of live wither away into a dark, hard shell of its former […]
We know what suicide is and we know that it’s a fact and it’s real. What we don’t know is WHY people kill themselves. As for myself, I know why I haven’t killed myself. Death is messy. I am somewhat of a neat freak and that’s the main reason why so far I have refrained from the act. Who is going to dispose of my stinky cadaver? I guess it could be organized but not without causing someone else a lot of trouble and I don’t want to make any trouble–which brings me to why I want to be dead and why in general people […]
life is boring , boring life. why movies , games , anime / manga, & fantasy / imagination is better than life / real life / real world / reality ?
everyday life is the same : wake up, eat, go to school/work, boring, then go back home, eat, then sleep, then repeat again.
but movie / game / anime / manga / comics / books are much more exciting & interesting than this boring life !
for example: like in the world / universe of Harry Potter, Avatar, Lord of the Rings, Narnia, Marvel / Marvels, Avengers, X-Men, Divergent / Insurgent , Star Wars, The […]
I have been thinking about ending my life for a while now. I guess I have been too much of a chicken to finally do it. My mom told me that is a cowardly thing to do and that if something like that were to happen, it will break her heart. I love my family above everything and everyone. They are all I have.
If end up doing it, I know I will make them sad…but I guess this is my last selfish wish.
Usually, thinking about my family keeps me going. But I managed to destroy that one thing.
I am an awful being. I am a tired. […]
I couldn’t do what you said
This is a death note instead
There’s these voices in my head
Just wanna put them to bed
They’ve been screaming ’bout the pain
That’s been coursing through each vein
I’ve been trying to hit reset
This is all such a mess
They said suicide is a sin
But this game I cannot win
I don’t understand how any of this works. Why do I feel such disdain for society? Why don’t I have drive or motivation to find a career and start a life of my own? I hate where I am now but I hate all other possibilities as well. For me, the only option I can see is purely opting out. But with that comes the intense guilt tripping of suicidal thoughts.
I feel like I’m only here to exist for family members and friends, like knowing I’m alive despite my obvious depression and complete failure in life is somehow better than me saying goodbye and leaving […]
okay, so i was just writing a post that gave everyone all the information that could possibly need and then some about any reason I may have for feeling blue. I had to stop myself mid way because I realized it wasn’t even helping me out. I was boring myself! Instead, what I am going to try to do here is just blurt it all out. Say what I’m feeling, maybe add a reason or two, and then move on to the next whatever comes to mind. I’m hoping this does at least a little something for someone if not for me.
3………………3………………….2………………………………….2……………………………………2……………………………..1…………..GO!
worthless. I […]
There are over seven billion people living on Earth, and I am just one person. I did some math and realized that one person makes up less than 0.0000000143 (one hundred forty-three ten billionths) of a percent of the entire population. One percent of 7 billion is 70 million. That’s 70 million people with names, feelings, personalities, beliefs, moms, dads, and problems. If they all just died, then the world would’ve only just lost one percent of its entire population. I don’t know more than a handful of people. Really just looking at the numbers you can see that a life isn’t worth much. What’s […]
I tried to commit suicide 3 months ago. I survived. I hated the fact that I couldn’t get it right. Now 3 months later I am more excited about my life and the future than I have ever been before. I booked myself into a mental health institute for 2 weeks after my suicide attempt and I learned more than I can imagine about myself…and more importantly how to cope. My situation has worsened in the past 3 months yet I no longer feel the urge to end it all. I have a strong urge to survive and put my experience to good use.
You know that feeling you get, when the air feels so thick it’s hard to breath?
When if feels like what’s going on is just a dream?
A nightmare?
When you don’t feel like living or leaving your room?
When society is the enemy?
How about when you feel like crying for hours upon hours; but you can’t cause tears won’t form?
When you feel dead, like a walking corps?
When you feel that SUICIDE is the only way to fix it; but you are scared of death?
No?
How about when you feel like the world has betray you?
When you feel everyone hates you?
Like your alone?
When you are desperate for someone, anyone to […]
I think I want to try and kill myself again, but I have a boyfriend and I don’t want to hurt him by leaving, I think he would kill himself as well if I did. I don’t think I can talk to him about it either, he tends to turn my issues when brought up to him being a bad boyfriend who can’t keep me happy. I can’t really talk to him about things and it irritates me that I can’t, because I know all it’ll do is push me closer to an edge I wish not to look over.
I’m 14, and I like to write, and dye my hair. Then there’s play video games, watch movies, chat online with my.. friends. I like lots of things. Then there’s my blades, the only thing I seem to look forward to; my birthday is in 9 days, and all I can think about is concealing my cuts; just like Christmas, Halloween, Easter, Summer break.. It’s all the same day in and day out.
“Can they see them?”
I’m terrified, I really am, having to hide things from my family, it eats at you. It’s a good thing I left school.. Right? I mean, no teachers, no homework, no […]
i never thought the day would come that oomf wouldn’t love me anymore. It’s hard every night knowing that yeah yall go together , but they still do everything that makes you mad. They don’t care anymore to see what’s wrong with you, even if you do tell them they’re not gonna listen. Suicide is the best way to stop the pain, right?
I’ve been depressed for quite a while now and I’ve been fighting it for far too long. Hurting myself is not helping anymore and I’m just getting worse. I just need someone to tell me the best way to ensure death. Please this is not a cry for help, I’m just really too tired to live.
I’m new here, I was searching around to find answers and I found this website
read some of the posts and I’m glad I found this. you can call me kei uses this name for a lot of games.
I just wanna share what i thought, What I feel. I don’t know how to start but I guess I’ll start with I feel sad about everything in my life I feel so useless, I failed so much ,I don’t know where and how to catch up, I feel like it was a mistake that I exist in this universe, I don’t want anyone to be near […]
Throughout my life I’ve frequently imagined myself as various characters, versions of my persona with certain traits accentuated. Bravery. Romance. Intelligence. Strength. You name it, I dreamt it. Well, there’s no need to be anyone else anymore, so here’s the concluding paragraphs to the story of my life;
He finished typing on the laptop and slowly exhaled, he was finally done with this life. And that was okay. To his left the belt was already tied around the bedpost. It scared him to look at it, how something so ordinary was about to unravel his entire world. He pressed play on the song and left the […]
my mind really meant to me. I spent the majority of my teen and adolecent years concerned with how I looked, what I wore, who I spent time with and so on. My educaiton was never a really huge concern of mine (although I did care if I was able to get the higher marks on my sudies along with my peers) but I did okay as far as all of that went. Even into my 20’s I wasn’t as concerned with what I knew as much as I was with what I was doing at the time.
Now, here I am in my late […]
I love it when you
Curl your arms around my neck
And sink your teeth into my shoulder
And twist my heart to bloody ribbons
Snapping.
I love it when you
Kill me in every way possible
And suffocate me under your breathless thoughts
And line-dance across my skin
Crimson.
I love it when you
Press on me like a weight
And hollow me out like a hole
And twirl me along the edge of the roof
Dangling.
I love it when you
Whisper dark nothings into my ear
And make my heart beat faster
And kiss my hand goodbye
Fallen.
But I love it most when you
Leave me alone with the crowd
And hide yourself away somewhere lost
And forget about me
Please.
I hate it when […]
People believe that im strong. even my boyfriend believes so. Why? why do they think that? Im not strong. I’ve tried so hard for so long and i’m tired of trying. I’m tired of fighting the waves of misery and sadness. I’m ready to let them pull me under and drown me in sorrow.