I’ve come to realize that when someone asks any variation of “how are you?” They don’t want to hear the truth. They want to hear something along the lines of “I’m good, thanks.” So they can go on and not feel guilty about not having asked why you’re sad. If you didn’t admit it, you’re not right?
The same goes for when they do actually ask if you’re upset about something. They don’t want to hear that you feel like your entire life is crumbling around you, they just want to look like a caring person for five seconds.
So you hide behind “I’m fine” […]
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So this is my letter… I don’t know when exactly I’m going to do it, but hopefully by next spring. PLEASE help me proofread this! I want to make sure my relatives understand my decision and can go on without me. I’m 21.
Dear mom,
I know this will hurt you for as long as you live. I don’t know what to say to ease the pain I’m going to cause, but I know that ‘sorry’ changes little. Though I will tell you why I did this, I know you’ll still be overwhelmed, confused, and hurt. Everything that was going through my head before I did […]
Reality is boring & LIMITED !!
Real life is boring & LIMITED !!
Real world is boring & LIMITED !!
I also hate this life, I hate people / humans (well.. MOST/90% of them), I hate reality, I hate this world.
its very BORING !! and especially nowadays become ONLY very materialistic, money / profits driven only, all about money, money, money, & image, image, image! ; it’s very superficial, shallow, and mundane boring!
Why movies, video games, comics, books, novels, anime/manga, creative Art, basically human’s IMAGINATION & fantasy is often/always a hundred times FAR much more interesting & better than this sad, mundane, boring, superficial, […]
The police turn up at your house. Even when they don’t know where you live.
I called an urgent mental care health line trying to get some help with not hurting myself. The nurse quizzed me on my address because it might affect where I have my CBT. I felt like he wasn’t trying to talk sense into me and was instead just trying to fill out a form. I shouted at him asking him whether he was going to help me right now or not, and he said he needed my address for my long term care. I put the phone down on him. […]
I found this site last night when I was in a bad state. I haven’t been suicidal since I was 19 and am now 22, but came here looking for a supportive voice because even though I’ve escaped my battles I still feel the after effects (details in my earlier post). After reading some posts I’m concerned. Remember I have been there and I know how it is. I am being very honest and my comments on how to go, how to not go, motivation and survival preparation are towards the end.
Suicide:
1. If you want to kill yourself that is your choice. Please keep in mind though, death […]
fuck Reality ! Reality sucks ! Real world sucks ! Real life sucks ! Reality boring ! Real life boring ! Real world boring ! movies, novels books, comics, games, manga/anime are better than Reality !!
by niki
written by niki
fuck Reality ! fuck real life ! fuck real world !
Reality sucks ! Real world sucks ! Real life sucks !
Reality boring ! Real life boring ! Real world boring !
movies, novels, comics, games, manga/anime are better than Reality !!
there is no MAGIC, no SUPERPOWER , no ‘cool, magical’ SUPERHERO / SUPERHEROES like in those movie , novel , comics , game / games , manga / anime , etc etc !
FUCKING BORING real world / real life / reality !!!
I also hate this life, I hate people / humans, I hate reality, I hate this world.
its very BORING […]
I really need to let my story. I can’t tell anyone and I won’t tell anyone most of this. I’m going to go in order of events, and you tell me if I have a right to kill myself.
I was born in Iraq, during the war. It was horrible. I was never able to have a good night’s sleep. I always thought I was going to get murdered, bombed, raped. I was so scared. I was only 5. When I was 6, a week or two after my birthday, my dad went to work, like usual. On the way there, he got shot twice in […]
Well i almost succeeded in dying. I was so close i could feel myself slipping away and then i could hear them. my ex-best friend finding me, the paramedics coming in and then the hospital. in the end i guess i survived. I’m still dead inside and have no reason to live. I just need to get out of this life i can’t do it anymore.
im not sure if this is a hello or a goodbye but i need feedback pleaseeeee!!!
by oncehaditall
written by oncehaditall
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hello there fellow SP readers im in need of some advice or guidance im so lost right now and for months the only solution to my problems is suicide.
My problems: Legal issues- im looking at some serious time for a crime im innocent in
Because of my legal issues im out of a really good job and i cant afford my bills and have missed many payments now
Im gonna be paying for my lawyer for the next 10 years for something i didnt do
everyone in my town hates me because of the way the media portrayed me and i cant leave […]
I don’t want to be here.
No not at all.
Not in this place.
Not with all I must face.
Not on this earth.
Not having any worth.
I don’t want to be here.
No not at all.
My whole life is a downfall.
Hello,
I’ve been on this site a few times to ease my sadness. (I read posts that were close to what I felt, and regained hope from users’ comments.) After 3 years of discovering this place, I finally decided to create an account and tell my story.
I’m almost 20 now and I’ve been sad or depressed since I was 10. I don’t quite know if it was depression all this time with all the ups and downs in my life, but it sure took a toll on who I am today. (My parents don’t know about my “depression” if it is one…) Due to certain things that happened […]
Hey there. Did you miss me? Probably not.
A friend of mine convinced me to talk to him rather than post stuff here… That worked out for about a day.. and then I realised that I had too much shit and too many problems to just dump it all on him. The offer was nice at first, but.. I don’t even know how to begin talking to him.
I don’t know how to talk to anyone any more.
I don’t know how to begin telling my story, or even where to. I don’t know who’d care enough to listen or who’d just laugh in my face. I don’t […]
I’ve lived the last 5 years with severe depression and I’m sick of everything. Why should I bother anymore? To quote Macbeth; “I am in blood stepped in so far that should I wade no more, returning were as tedious as to go on.” My life is miserable at the moment, has been for a long time, and likely will be for alot longer. I’ve even found that I’m too useless to even help myself; when I make commitments to myself to make a change for the better I always break it and find that I’ll always be the coward I swore I’d never become. […]
I just discovered this site. I don’t know if I have the energy to go through the full story, but this is where I am in brief –
38, male, below average appearance. Weak chin, skinny upper body, with a belly. I don’t work out because I want to think about my physical self as little as possible.
No college degree. I’ve started and dropped so many times it’s absurd. I was in school off and on from the age of 18 until 35. Changed majors 4 times. Every emotional setback and I dropped classes – I have almost as many W’s on my transcipt as actual […]
That’s how I feel at the moment. If anybody could see who I truly was, I’d be finally, truly alone. Maybe that’s what it will take to get the courage to end everything. I’m stuck in this fucking hole, and when being myself leads to pain, what else have I got than to lie, or to give up the act and let everything fall apart?
Nobody will ever understand who I am and what I still think about doing… if it gives any perspective, I’ve had dreams of killing people and watching them choke on their own blood. That was when I was eight, and the […]
It was the supreme power, matrix or whatever it is called wanted me to suffer. That’s why all those escape routes I could have were brutally eliminated. I am made to loose and suffer. Family is one big cause of this mess but there were other reasons too. No matter how much I try, the supreme power will always derail it. May my life end quickly. Hopefully today. On this auspicious occasion of Ganesh Puja, a religious Hindu festival I want to finish this mess called life.
This is probably going to be long. I just needed somewhere to write out what has happened these last few years so I can get my thoughts in order. I’m sorry.
I first noticed that I was apathetic with my emotions when I was 10. I didn’t think much of it then – only wondered for a little while as to why I was different to the rest of my classmates. It never really bothered me much, that is, until I got to high school. I suppose that I should mention that I’m an introvert. I don’t have very many close friends, and none that I […]
I’ve already had mine kissed. I wish everyone who has scars know how it feels to have someone who loves you kiss your scars, and promising you with their lips, that they’ll never let you do it again.
It doesn’t seem like such a bad thing now. I thought it was. It is not. Suicide is still an option. Not a crazy one. So many other people feel the same way. I don’t feel like it is a bad thing any more. I felt ashamed for it. I probably won’t go screaming it from the roof tops, but it is not abnormal, exactly. Why are so many opposed? The same people that think about it themselves? I have heard that it is selfish. Maybe they just haven’t felt what I feel, what I’ve felt before.