You know its been a long time since I last smiled.I’m not talking about a casual smile…I’m talking about a real smile, a smile that actually means something.sure when I watch comedies I sometimes laugh, and that intern produces a smile.but these days my laughs and smiles feel more forced than anything.it gets tiring having to put on this mask of mine.its hard and it only serves to make me feel much more alone than I already am.im tired.I would love to sleep.I wish I could just go to bed and never wake up.i wish that I could dream a good dream and never wake […]
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Hello, sorry to bother you all but I am in need of advice. I honestly don’t know what to do do anymore. I am personally just tired of everything. I do not wish to go on living. I have actually felt this way for multiple years now. I even made a post on here a few years ago. People tried comforting me and saying it would all get better soon. A few years later and I’m still contemplating the same decision.
I’ve been struggling to find a stable job with a reliable source of income. I do not usually feel any emotion. I don’t want to […]
Heart Broken peoples please Try to live, change your life style if not you will die mentally or may be you’ll commit suicide like my friend did.
I prefer dont do it just dont PLEASE DONT LISTEN these tracks, they are really killing depressping suicidial song.
Radiohead-
CREEP
MOTION PICTURE
LAST FLOWER
NO SURPRISES
My friend use to listen this song when he got depressed.
One day the girl he loved he lose her he loved her like mad, she was really everything for him. She was the reason he was living, totally broken without her, girl was in love with another boy, but he […]
“Away From The Sun”
by 3 Doors Down
It’s down to this
I’ve got to make this life make sense
Can anyone tell what I’ve done
I miss the life
I miss the colours of the world
Can anyone tell where I am
‘Cause now again I’ve found myself
So far down, away from the sun
That shines into the darkest place
I’m so far down, away from the sun again
Away from the sun again
I’m over this
I’m tired of living in the dark
Can anyone see me down here
The feeling’s gone
There’s nothing left to lift me up
Back into the world I […]
I’m not sure why. I just feel so surrounded by death. why are people in my family dying but not me? I know I’m fucked when I die, God will be so disappointed.. but why am I still alive? I have a good family, a few good friends. I’m not ill. I’m just so worn out and depressed I don’t see the point in life. it’s all so temporary.
used to ask God every single day for 38 months straight in jail to just kill me. lost who I thought was the love of my life. but I got past it and felt better. now I […]
Everything is the same every day.
It’s just the same thing over and over again.
No one is theirselves we all belong to the system
slowly were all dying.
The only thing that keeps me going
Is that maybe one day I’ll find peace
theres nothing I want more than to live in the forest
Leave this pathetic way of life behind, sitting our life away one day at a time, I really love those of you that are reading this right now whatever you may be going through
im so tired of living so mindlessly
I’m 19 years old and have had enough of this game.
I could sing, or hit the gym and […]
I’m fucking tired of living like this. I hate not being able to do anything about it. Can’t you see that you’re hurting me? Can’t you understand that the things you say tear me apart? Why does everything hurt so much? I’m blinded by all of these things you throw at me. I’m suffocating from all this pressure. I can’t help but think of all of the most painful ways to die, and how I would perform them on myself. I can’t breathe, I can’t think. I fucking hate myself. I’m so useless; I can’t do anything right. I do everything I possibly can to […]
Lost all hope, lost all light.
Tired of living, lets end this fight.
I gather myself for my last stride,
I have no regrets, my sweet suicide.
Lately i haven’t been able to keep a good morale at home with my parents. Ever since I have started trailing of in school my parents have done nothing but tear me down. I tend to forget the last time I heard something positive from them. I have attempted suicide twice during the moments my grades have been going down. No one is here for me. I have lately even began questioning my religion. Whats the point of living if there is nothing to live for? What is there to look forward to tomorrow? More depression? Or nothing at all? I’m just tired of living […]
I’m not sure if I really want to die.
I think about it. Killing myself, I mean. It’s not healthy. I know that, but I still do it. I hurt myself, even though the logical part of me says, “Stop!”. That part of me tells me to get help, to talk to someone. But, the other parts of me, the scared, lonely, and tired parts of me, they say not to. That it’s better that they don’t know.
I don’t want to hurt the people I care about by showing them all the messed up screws in me.
I don’t want them to see all […]
I’m really just tired of living… I constantly mess things up, I have no motivation anymore the only reason I’m still alive is because of music but now a days that doesn’t even help. I’m a constant disappointment to my parents… I’m three years ahead of my actual grade in school. And it’s still not enough. My mother thinks I’m a disappointment just because I listen to rock music and she’s constantly saying how I’m her mess up. I just simply don’t care about life anymore. And I know it would be cruel to my friends and family to do this but it’s the only […]
Can you hear me? Not many can. A year ago, I became depressed. Life just doesn’t  make sense anymore. I could hear the whispers behind my back, and I saw the looks I got. I got pretty nervous; I was always checking my back. I stayed up for hours at night, writing letters and wanting the courage to do it. I wanted to kill myself.
I lived in fear. I wanted to leave this world; I was so tired of living. But I was scared of the consequences. I hated my mother, we always fought and I did not believe she loved me. I don’t think […]
I’m tired of people lying
I’m tired of people hurting me
I’m tired of getting caught in this mess
I’m tired of crying
I’m tired of being broken
I’m tired of people breaking me
I’m tired of people saying hurtful things
I’m tired of living
Nothing good ever stays with me, it’s as simple as that. If by chance that something does come into my life that can be viewed as good, it is taken away from me a short while after. Every single thing that I do is a mistake, I guess that I myself am a mistake. I can’t even do something as simple as killing myself right, every single time I always end up failing. Why can’t I just die?  I’m tired of living, and experiencing everything that is apart of this world. All of the good is overtaken by the bad in this world, and i’m completely […]
I silently slip out of bed and turn on the light, I creep over to the bench and grab my lighter and pack of cigarettes and shove them into my pocket. I walk over to my bedroom window and slide it open, the cold mist outside creeps It’s way inside sending a chill down my back. I look up into the night sky and wonder what time it is. I open the door of my room and close it quietly hoping my mum dosn’t wake up. IÂ walk down the creaking old stairs. Downstairs I go into the dining room and look up at the […]
A friend of mine told me something exstremly offencive. She said” Depresssed people are kinda stupid like if you want to be happy then just put a smile on your face and stop moping around like if you have an uncorible deseise”. I need to know if that is how most people feel about depression beause that is not at all how i see it. My mother smoked cocain her entire life. She smoked until she litterlly lost the “happy part of her brain” (im not sure what its medical name is). She smoked once when pregnant with me and I was born with no […]
I have been wishing this life would end since I was very young…12. I was convinced I would be dead by 30, but 30 came and went and I’m still here.
For the last 8 years, my thoughts of suicide have been infrequent and I thought maybe I had grown out of it. I was fooling myself, its always there, like a shadow in the back of my mind.I wouldn’t say I was depressed, I’ve just always felt tired of living and tired of praying not to wake up.
Taking one’s own life is called the cowards way out, but I believe ending one’s life […]
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