Its Always There.

I have been wishing this life would end since I was very young…12. I was convinced I would be dead by 30, but 30 came and went and I’m still here.
For the last 8 years, my thoughts of suicide have been infrequent and I thought maybe I had grown out of it. I was fooling myself, its always there, like a shadow in the back of my mind.I wouldn’t say I was depressed, I’ve just always felt tired of living and tired of praying not to wake up.
Taking one’s own life is called the cowards way out, but I believe ending one’s life is one of the bravest acts a person can commit. You are going into the unknown.
Over the years I’ve come to the conclusion that there is no such thing as right and wrong…the path we choose and the way we die was decided by us before we were born. We have all come here to experience. Some of us have come here to experience taking our own life.
After we have passed on there will be no judgment, no hell or purgatory; just us looking back at our life and thinking, What an experience that was.
These are just my own ideas and I’m sorry if I rambled.