I’am tired of everything, of the night, of the day, of myself, of other people, of things that I have to do, I just wanna end my life, but I fear the pain, I want to find a way to die at minimum pain, I find that there’s nothing in this world that interests my anymore, I’ve seen much things if not all, anyway inside my(in my soul) I feel a void, an emptyness, I can’t feel emoutions anymore, I feel like a zombie, I don’t understand what I’am doing here on this planet earth, I think that it was an error that I was […]
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Tired
I think the time to go is getting closer.
I can feel my will to do… anything… slipping out of me, draining away like water.
I used to be energetic but now I’m becoming more and more lethargic.
There just doesn’t seem to be anything worthwhile any more, nothing I can bring myself to do, even people who I would call my friends – It seems as if I can only see them as hollow shells. I don’t think I have any true friends any more.
Very few people can feel the same way I do now, it’s as if I’ve snapped my link with the rest of the […]
I am a 21 year old girl and people always like to hang out with me cause of my looks. When I tell people I’m depressed they don’t believe me cause they think I’m pretty and can have everything in the world I want. I am depressed since I was 13. I have always been nice towards everyone in my life and somehow people made use of it.
I don’t feel like I have anything or anyone to live for and don’t find anything to do I really like.
I go to University and am doing my Bachelor in IT but it gets harder and harder everyday […]
So where to start-almost 60 yrs old, would be considered successful by most, I guess. But I feel it’s all a lie. I’m not as good as people think I am at my job- if I do something praiseworthy it’s more by accident than skill. Most of my life has been like that. I’m really not that good at anything! I have a family, very proud of my son, but I think everyone else in the family just looks at me as a paycheck. Every day I stress about letting them down somehow, or disappointing them, which according to my wife I do on regular […]
Whenever my boyfriend doesn’t text me back because of his internet I get depressed really easy. It’s been a day and a few hours since the last time I spoke with him. He told me if I ever felt the need to cut myself again to message him. I did and he never answered back because of his internet. So I broke my promise again and I cut myself for the first time in 2 weeks. I miss him so much, I’m in love with him. I don’t want to loose him, I don’t want him running off because of me. I know I’m annoying, […]
there’s a different kind of tired
not the kind when you haven’t slept
or you’ve run two miles
or you haven’t eaten in hours
it’s the kind you can feel
behind your eyes
your neck
your shoulders
your chest
your knees
everywhere
when you’ve just had enough of being knocked down by it all
and the only cure is sleep
but not even that cures
because you know when you wake
you’ll be tired all over again
so you just drift through everything
tired.
I gave myself one week for me to change my mind, and to not execute my plan to attempt suicide. The day that I planned to execute my plan, and end my life was Friday. I told myself that if anyone showed that they actually cared about me, or if someone gave me a reason to live that I wouldn’t end my life. One of my ex-college professors called my cell phone this weekend. He asked if I was okay, and said that I seemed troubled the last time that he talked to me. I immediately tried to reassure him […]
I have set a new termination date, and I plan to depart next week. Hopefully this time I do not screw up and end up still alive. I feel trapped, and that I have to make this decision. Although I have been depressed and suicidal for the past seven years, I feel as though my feelings have catalyzed within the past few weeks. I’m sick and tired of always being sick and tired. Sick and tired of being a stupid, worthless,and hated burden on those that are around me. I am nothing more than a failure. I don’t […]
It’s getting to the point where I’m just tired of existing again. Like many times before, though I have never shared these times; I don’t know why I suddenly feel like posting this now. I’m tired of doing all this pointless work, I’m tired of pretending to my family that I care at all about getting some kind of “job” (which I never have and likely never will care about), I’m tired of spending all my savings to live comfortably and go to school when I never had any intention of living that long in the first place and there are people who actually want […]
I know there are a few people who would miss me for a time, but in all honesty I’m not really apart of any ones life enough to warrant prolonged grief, I can imagine what it would be like for a little while people would ask where I am and someone would say “he killed himself” and they’d say “that’s so horrible he seemed so nice” and then they would change topic because they realise that they didn’t really know me, so few seem to.
Not that long ago my friend’s girlfriend was going on about what good friends we were and how she had […]
Well, its been a while. A long time since I’ve been viewing the stories here, an even longer time since I bothered to write; truth being I’ve haven’t been able to write (the one think I was once able to do well, now diminished). I guess you find that time of night on that particular day when you feel its about time you came back to just have a look, see how terrible it is that there are some many more people feeling that suicidal depressed way.
I’ve started intense studying. How fantastic (it isn’t). I never knew I tired like this. I’ve always been tired, […]
I can’t do this anymore, I really truly can’t. The stress is too much. The pressure is too much. Everyone expects too much from me, when I can barely even get out of bed in the morning anymore. To my family I am just a failure because I can never meet their expectations. To my friends, I am a burden to have around because I suck the life out of anyone who is near me. I ruin everything that I touch beyond repair, and I am nothing more than a pathetic waste of space. I shouldn’t be on […]
iam tired of being on this earth…is anyone else?
Why do we continue the empty eternal struggle. Knowing there is nothing at the end.
who else ?????? so tired … i slept in the afternoon, i washed a lot of clothes today, im not depressed, im good right now, but i want to kill myself, but i have everyone around me, and i live on the third floor, so cannot jump. im safe.
From the beginning, there was always something that didn’t feel right. That I was missing some kind of feeling everyone around me always seemed to have. My biological father had fucking issues, and I never got to know how it felt to have a father. Sure, it sounds like it isn’t something big, but it’s what followed that only made the situation worse. Thankfully my mom and grandparents were saints, but then she met someone else after the divorce. He acted all nice and caring and ‘father like’ in the beginning to get to my mom’s heart, then they got married and he made my […]
Just done tryin,
Tired of cryin.
Got nothing to give,
Got no reason to live.
No one will care,
No one will be there.
Just me all alone,
Just want to go home.
Walk into the sea,
Let it swallow me.
Become one with the deep.
Eternal sleep.
I’m 14. I wanna die. This isn’t some “oh my mom took my Xbox I’m so fuckin depressed” . No. Im not like that. I’ve been battling depression for about 8 months. And im just done. Im tired. I wish nobody would care about me so I could just go. But people do care. My adopted family. Aka my friends. One is basically my sister. The other is my homie. They care. They’re only ones. They’d miss me, but wouldn’t be too hurt, I think. They’d move on. They’re all I got, but im not all they got.
I simply don’t want to continue living. There […]
How sick does one have to be in order to qualify for assisted suicide medications. I really have nothing to live for and am basically a log in my bed. I don’t want to die in pain. I want to be at peace when I go. I was planning on getting Helium tomorrow but I have read that that method fails if not done right. I want it to be successful the first time around and dont want to survive the attempt only to be sick and have an excruciating headache. This isn’t a cry for help or an attempt at getting sympathy. I just […]
I am not done or anything, I think I don’t really want to kill myself, I just find it soothing to have the posibility at hand and I know I would be brave enough to do it. I guess I’ve always been addicted to something, whether it’s a person or a drug or a thought or a fantasie or an action. I’ve had a lot of best friends and I have been addicted to self-harming and alcohol and weed and I just can’t seem to land on reality because I am always daydreaming. Reality has always been a burden to me partly I guess because […]