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Dissociation

by Trix 10/5/2015

written by Trix

This site has been helping me so much. Thank you all again. I don’t want I’m trying to say in this post. I just want to post. I’m finding writing difficult today, so it might not make much sense.

I feel like I’m breaking. I don’t want to keep saying the same things over and over. Things are just worse right now. Depression is agony. Any coping tips you use, relaxation videos, $10,000 treatment programs you’re selling, etc, would be greatly appreciated. I’m still practicing meditation and it’s been helping more and more, but these past few days have been so painful. Any addition to what […]

10/5/2015 15 comments

Need encouragement for suicide

by imgonnadietoday 10/4/2015

written by imgonnadietoday

please just encourage me to do it because you can’t stop me. Just tell me why I will be better I guess. I don’t need your sympathy, I just need encouragement to do it. Please, thanks. I’m going to do it today.

10/4/2015 5 comments

Protected: I was looking for a job, and then I found a job…

by Tristeza 10/3/2015

written by Tristeza

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10/3/2015 22 comments

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by bubbles1128 10/1/2015

written by bubbles1128

I cut myself knowing fully I want attention. Not just for that though. To release that endorphin to feel calm and relaxed and at peace with the world. I cut today to push on them through out the next few days to remember how little I’m loved. If I remember no one loves me then I wont ever get my hopes up to have them crushed

10/1/2015 2 comments

Aloha

by darkwillow 9/30/2015

written by darkwillow

Cutting myself feels very weird. I don’t do it often, but days like today remind me of what it feels like. and I’m sorry for everyone here who does it on a regular basis. You’re strong for holding on.

9/30/2015 1 comment

by TheLoner2 9/30/2015

written by TheLoner2

I almost got a blessing today, but that almost blessing went away fast. I’m going to go to jail today most likely. I’m in a really bad spot and no one is going to help me I’m on my own. I have no choice. I’m going to be alone. I just have one more thing to say don’t true anyone people are evil they hurt you every chance you get especially when they see that you are down they will just make its worse. Just when I started be living in god again I punched in the face again.

9/30/2015 4 comments

Sunday

by bayareaguy 9/28/2015

written by bayareaguy

All the papers and forms will be signed, witnessed and notarized on Sunday. I’m going to have to decide if I have the courage to go through with jumping. I am sick to my stomach with loneliness today. And I physically ache.

It’s time to cut my losses and move on. Monday I leave for the bridge.

9/28/2015 7 comments

Words have no power to impress the mind without the exquisite horror of their reality

by KH 9/25/2015

written by KH

i liked this quote. I like Edgar Allen Poe. So here it is. It has no reference in particular; I just read some of his work today and it stuck in my mind.

it’s been months since my last post on here – good news I guess. But now I’m back – bad new now, I guess. Everything’s been okay-ish. I was recently re-admitted to hospital for abdominal pains, had another operation and I’m out again, for now anyways. Now, surely, when you’re in hospital, your ‘other half’ shall we say should want to see you, correct? Or at least want to talk to you, if […]

9/25/2015 5 comments

can’t kill myself today

by melodychild 9/25/2015

written by melodychild

i was all excited to at least try to die. didn’t think I’d succeed but hopefully I’d get a better sense on how to do it. But the new washer is being delivered and my dad decided to stay home for it. I’m pretty pissed.

9/25/2015 3 comments

Protected: Untitled (I had at least 100 ideas, but couldn’t choose one)

by Tristeza 9/23/2015

written by Tristeza

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9/23/2015 19 comments

A Letter To My Former Best Friend

by dead 9/23/2015

written by dead

I’ve been thinking about you today. 14 years of you. 14 years filled with endless family tailgating, barbecues, alcohol, weed, and music. We haven’t been the same since I left for college a year ago. You broke me out of my shell, saved me from myself, and were the sister I never had. I know you’ve changed because you have all new friends, our mutual old ones don’t like you much. I can stop blaming myself for the most part. We needed this time apart because I was too dependent on you, I thought people needed you around to hang out with me. It’s not […]

9/23/2015 0 comment

A year ago today, I came back from Texas…

by wndozh8er 9/22/2015

written by wndozh8er

what a horrible year it’s been – the worst year of my life. Just like last year, the leaves will soon turn, than fall off there trees. The snow will come and then the first flowers will rebloom next spring just before the scorching heat of summer….than September 2016 will arrive.

I wonder how 2016 will be for me. Seems like ever year is a cycle that keeps repeating itself as I sit and watch the world go by.

9/22/2015 4 comments

Very Angry

by FeelingFunny 9/21/2015

written by FeelingFunny

What a horrible day. I feel like a complete fuck up. I’ve decided not to eat today just to punish myself. Maybe I will do better tomorrow. Probably not though. I forsee things getting worse.

9/21/2015 0 comment

Alone

by lostwander 9/19/2015

written by lostwander

Thursday night was suppose to be my last night alone. I was suppose to be so excited I wouldn’t be able to sleep. I was suppose to be freaking out all Friday for the moment I got the message to come open my door. Well it didn’t happen. I doubt it will happen today either. I guess I can play with the dogs sometime today before I drink the night away watching SEC.

Is anyone else on here a Military spouse or SOS?

9/19/2015 0 comment

by goingnumb 9/18/2015

written by goingnumb

Tried cocaine today new favorite drug hands down.

9/18/2015 1 comment

Tristeza is Twenty and Three

by dare.poe 9/18/2015

written by dare.poe

Tristeza turns twenty three today. What can I say?

She’s older and wiser.
She’s compassionate.
She’s supportive.
She hurts.
She helped me.
She probably helped you.

Wherever you are, Tristeza, I hope this day is a good one. Know you are loved …as much as federal law will allow. 😉

9/18/2015 28 comments

Day 5

by donttellanyone 9/17/2015

written by donttellanyone

So I am currently pregnant and 5 days ago I called my now ex boyfriend because he hadn’t called me or checked on me in 3 days ? So we had a conversation and he had told me that he had a new girlfriend and that they’d been with each other those 3 days. That really broke me down I couldn’t stop crying and I sat there and thought about how to end it all because I was so hurt ? I never thought this would happen so soon. Just the other day we were talking about how excited we were for our family. Glad […]

9/17/2015 1 comment

Feeling empty and dead inside…

by wndozh8er 9/17/2015

written by wndozh8er

you know, I spoke very prematurely when I came out of the psyche ward. In hindsight, all it did was trigger my desire to make friends. Once they all rejected me, it brought out my Borderline Personality Disorder (which was what I was diagnosed with in the ward). I have attachment and rejection issues. What a load of garbage. I wish they would have just sent me home the next day after my suicide attempt. I wasn’t suicidal a day after my attempt and I’m not suicidal now. If I would have just went home instead of going to the psyche ward, I’d be just […]

9/17/2015 4 comments

please help me please !!!

by Hussain1996 9/16/2015

written by Hussain1996

I have a heart disease since 2012 my life changed since I went to doctor. I love foot ball but he told me that I mustn’t touch a ball anymore or do any sports that exhaust me because I will die so after that I watched my friends do every thing they want except me. I accept that but in 2014 days passes and I cant sleep it was painful my heart very hurting me until now. I completed my high school this year. but my friends hate me they don’t say but they don’t want me to go out with them and when I […]

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9/16/2015 12 comments

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by Tristeza 9/14/2015

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9/14/2015 29 comments

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