Hi.. you know my other posts, yeah, them…. well they are  not true, i lie. I do this because i have a sick twisted demented little mind for a bi-sexaul 11 year old boy. Yes, you did read it right, I am 100% Bi-sexual, don’t like it?? Yeah well neither do I. I hate my sexuality. You know deathbug, well it’s funny really because we are so alike, we made sick twisted lying stories that made you fall bad for us, so i would again like to say sorry to all of the people on this site, especially U.N Owen and Holly. I don’t know […]
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Love this ugly little world we’ve created. Â The only purpose is to screw, eat, sleep, get drunk, get high, and go to work. Â I was lied to. Â I grew up looking at both grandparents, paternal and fraternal–genuinely in love with each other and marriages that lasted over 60 years each. Â I thought I could have that. Can’t anymore. Â You’ve completely sicked up sex so much, it’s nothing but pointless empty monkey humping. Â No love, no respect, no dignity. Â It’s a sick public farce. Â And it’s all about party party party. Â Empty. Â Pointless. Â I’m supposed to fill up 60 to 80 of that mindless garbage?
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I lied.
I told them to be happy when
I’m most certainly not.
I told them things get better when
I doubt that they ever will.
I told them to always have hope when
I’ve lost all of mine.
I told them everyone’s beautiful when
I feel ugly all the time.
I told them to always stay strong when
I’m slowly breaking as days go by.
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My life is so miserable because my parents are separated and my mom and dad doesn’t care about me anymore…. and I am so ugly that my classmates always laugh at my face and nobody wants to befriend with me because im ugly.I dont have friends and i am very poor and everybody hates me because im too shy to befriend with them and they always tease me and embarass me infront of my classmates.When i look at the mirror i always cry because im so ugly that nobody wants to be with me even my parents laugh at may face, im an outcast.I always […]
Everyday is a struggle to stay alive. My best friend lives miles away from me since I moved because my mom got married to somebody she knew for 3 weeks. I’ve always been made fun of for being ugly. Even if I don’t talk to anyone I get made fun of. I have always moved around. I’ve had one boyfriend that I really loved armed about. He dumped me in eight grade. I want to die after everything. I don’t have support from my mom because she hates me. Legit. My dad doesn’t speak to me. I’m so alone. I have no one to talk […]
I’m screwed up and I’m broken and I don’t know how or why I came to be like this. Nothing horrible has ever happened to me and from the outside, I have a perfect life.
But somehow, I am not normal. I am steadily going completely insane and nobody has noticed, because I keep it from them. I hide my craziness because I shouldn’t have it. I don’t deserve it.
It doesn’t make logical sense for me to feel this way, but still I know that I’m screwed up. Completely and utterly fucked up and insane.
I’m too many contradictions. I don’t make sense. I can’t even explain […]
While I write this i fear of the pain i will cause with this simple action,
But i will confess the true. I have been trying to kill myself for a few
months now. I was learning electrons to make my own defibrillator and will be able to fine all my research under Research on Defibrillations. (Tomboy notes) After a month or two upon finding out that this will not work, I tried to overdose on aspirin. When i didn’t die i did some more research and found out that the mortality rate for an aspirin overdose of more than 300 mg/kg is less than […]
My parents say I want to call attention. That the way I dress demands attention. That I embarrassed them. I don’t try to. I just can’t be myself. I see myself In the mirror and all I see is a fat lard. I hate my skin tone, my eyes, my hair, my body! I hate it all! So I try to make it better! I try to hide my fat body under layers of clothes. I hide my face under make up! I hide my ugly untamed frizzy shit colored hair under dye. I change how I look! And only when I change it I […]
This is weird for me because I’ve never done anything like this, but this seems like the only thing I have to run to. I want to kill myself, plain and simple. I’m tired of living. I feel worthless and like a waste of space. I hate everything about me. I’m a selfish person and I only care about myself. I hurt everyone around me with my unhappiness. I’m seeing a therapist for anxiety but it doesn’t seem like its working because the pain always come back. I’m so sick of feeling dead inside. Everyday I think of suicide but I don’t have the guts. […]
What i love:
I hate school
I hate that i am failing
I hate myself
I hate that i am ugly
I hate that i am fat
I hate that no one cares
I hate that i am alone
I hate that my mom is here but not
I hate that only now my dad wants me
I hate that i am on meds
I hate that i cant be happy
I hate that i feel excludedÂ
I hate that my family does not try harder to get me
I hate that things will never changeÂ
What i love:
I love cutting
I love the thought of suicide
So i cut the other day ; over 100 hundred of them. My ex was bothering me and making fun of me calling me fat and ugly apologized and i didn’t believe him. His exact words were “go ahead cut urself i dont care cut ur arm of for all i care” i cried and did it. They are healing but i have never done something like what i did. It hurt really bad i almost passed out. My mom knows and thank god she isn’t mad. But yeah that’s all i really have to say.
My19 year old life hasn’t exactly been as “great” as it is right now. This is extremely long, but I’ve finally found a place where I can just let it all out. Thank you to those who read it.
It all started with being raped for 7 years of my life. I didn’t know what was happening or why it had to be a secret. But eventually with age I figured it out. I spent a good chunk of my life afraid. Afraid to be alone with any boys and afraid to get close to them too. I found out that I was chosen because I was “pretty”. […]
I am not fat..im a boxer..i just love to eat. I am not ugly..i just dont like tons of makeup. I dont crave attention..i just want somebody..anybody to care.
I AM depressed. I AM lonely. I AM alone. I AM suicidal..why cant you people just help me with my real problems?
Why Am I Tall? , Why Am I Sad? Daddy Why Are You Mad? Mom Will You Ever Undertsand? Why Cant I Fit A Size Two? Why Does It Look Like I Belong At The “Zoo” Why Am I Stupid? WHY AM I STILL LIVING ?????? Why Do I Search For Love? Kisses And Hugs? Why Am I Always Teased ? Why Am I Ugly Fat And Teased?? 🙁
I say that im fine but im going insane. I tell people that I feel good but im in a lot of pain. I say its nothing but its really a lot. I say im okay but really im not….How can you understand me when I can’t understand myself? you tell me everythings gonna be okay. how do you know that??? i want to end this all. the person i love…the one i fell for now hates me. i cant carry on living. the purpose in life is to find your happiness. ive never found mine. EVER. im covered in scars from shoulder to wrist […]
almost every week i get called ugly either once or twice. im a very nice person, i just dont know why people call me such mean names. today this boy really hurt my feelings, he said “your ugly if i called you cute id be lying…” but this same boy keeps asking me to have sex with him and asked me out twice! i know he doesn’t think im attractive but.. that broke my heart and it was in front of the entire class… middle school was hell, my “friend” posted my picture on facebook next to monkeys and ET and EVERYONE commented on it […]
No one knows how badly I wish I could be normal. I wish I didn’t have trouble with bullies. I wish everyone treated me the way I treat them. I am a very nice girl, probably the nicest you’ll ever meet. But all people see is someone who is different. Someone who sticks out because they aren’t skinny. I’m intelligent. A straight A student. I am nice to everyone, even people who bully me. I put others before myself and I hide my pain behind a smile. And these are the thoughts I have:
Just one more cut. It’s not like anyone notices.
If I died, who […]
I am 12, almost 13. I wish i could have a normal, happy life. I just got out of an eating disorder treatment center, like 2 weeks ago. I still have to go back there for family therapy and doctors appointments and today, after i did my vitals(peeing in a cup and being weighed) they found something in my urine that was the first sign of starvation. And they said my weight has been dropping. I hate my life. I hate the way i look, i am so fat and ugly. I want to be skinny. I want to go to school online. I want […]
The thoughts are comming back again stronger than ever. I’ve been crying more and more lately. I didnt even go to school today because im thinking about doing it. I just dont see the point of living anymore. Things are getting worse for me. Im just tired of everyone being so mean to me for no reason. Last week this boy cussed me out on facebook for no reason! Then yesterday he said i look like a man, and that im ugly. I haven’t done nothing to him at all. I don’t understand. And i cant even go in the cafeteria without everyone talking about […]
I sit here hating myself for being myself. I try everyday to live to be happy, but nothing ever works. The realization of the fact that the one person you love so much will never love you back torments me and leaves me unable to move. I pray for the torment to end.
He says I don’t try enough and he gets mad at me. But I know not what to do. I do what anyone deeply in love does when they are hurt by the one they love…I cry. I cry a river that turns into an ocean. My bloody tears mean nothing anymore because […]