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venting

by helloiamdepressive 8/19/2013

written by helloiamdepressive

just venting again.. anyways.. so I just recently broke up w my gf.. it wasn’t that long of a relationship.. but it was love, and something i haven’t felt in like.. more than 5 years..

of course i fucked it up.. cuz i went all psycho on her like i did all of my ex gf’s who of course dumped me because of the same reason.. so here I am.. always caught up in my negativity.. and because of it I haven’t even finished school yet..

I look at all my other friends and my sister’s boyfriend.. they’ve got jobs, friends, and gf’s.. i can barely […]

8/19/2013 0 comment

The Family

by sleeplessinSTL 7/31/2013

written by sleeplessinSTL

I think what I need to do is just get away from my family for a while. We are truly messed up and dysfunctional. It’s like my adoptive parents go out of their way to get kids with disorders and mental problems. Maybe they really are kind heartedÂ people and try to help kids like that…. but what do I know? All I can say for sure is that on our house alone we have a kleptomaniac with anxiety, an addict with depression and a shitload of other shit, a girl who has a sailors mouth(who I personally think is a sociopath…seriously), and two other normal […]

7/31/2013 8 comments

If you really knew me?

by MaKaylaRose25 7/8/2013

written by MaKaylaRose25

If you really knew me you would know that I was happy. I was surrounded by happiness and laughter. Now I just want to wither away. Everybody who I was close to drifted apart from me and look at me like I’m psycho. If you really knew me you would know that I’m hurting physically and emotionally, I feel numb. Numb is really an understatement but that’s the only way of describing it. If you really knew me you would check my limbs for cuts periodically, Nobody cares enough to do that though. If you really knew me you would know I’m breaking down and […]

7/8/2013 0 comment

The end…

by JustKeepDreaming 6/15/2013

written by JustKeepDreaming

By this time, like I said previously, my life literally felt as if it was crumbling to pieces.
Ever since that one night, my mother’s “friend” had made a habit of having some sort of sexual activity or sex in itself every night, my mother being “oblivious”.
That summer though, my father decided to move back to my end of the country with his fiancÃ© and her son. I was not that thrilled about it.
For two years, nothing really changed. We had a routine developed and everything was once again as stable as it could be. We moved a few times but that’s it. […]

6/15/2013 2 comments

Failure

by gtcc 2/23/2013

written by gtcc

i can’t even begin to recount the times i’ve tried to kill myself – i started in 2nd grade – i’ve been married nearly 20 years – 4 children –

i’ve been hospitalized twice – once as an adult 2 years a go

i’m not diagnosed as personality disorder – but as i’ve read about it – i’m pretty sure i am – but this total break didn’t come until a family member did the most treacherous betrayal deed that could be done –

i never grieved the horrid act against me – but my child –

that was 6 years a go – and for me – it […]

2/23/2013 2 comments

I have friends! (But not really)

by ptallo 2/19/2013

written by ptallo

But really I don’t!I wish I did, and people tell me they are, and it seems that people want to talk to me, but I am alone. See I wanted to tell you, I have no friends! I live my life, and I know people, and those people talk to me, But they don’t care.What they care about is their ego, or their agenda. They don’t care about me or my problems.

There is this one girl. Who I like very much, and who I can sometimes confide in.

But I am that guy. That guy who is her friend. She doesn’t want to confide in me.

But […]

2/19/2013 1 comment

Spam

by Ithuriel 1/5/2013

written by Ithuriel

Sometimes life can get pretty exhausting. And yes, that is an understatement. My stack of homework pushed aside for the moment, I try to relax.

The only light in my room is my lamp from my desk, which creates a low yellow glow. The only sounds are the hum of my computer, the typing of the keys, and my cat cleaning herself. In this quiet environment, she can be a racket. Especially when she purrs. I normally bring her with me when I need the comfort. I just want to feel wanted tonight, even if it’s only coming fromÂ a cat.

Her purr sounds like kernels popping, vibrating […]

1/5/2013 4 comments

‘Personal expectations’ with no shepherd

by NotComplete 5/13/2012

written by NotComplete

Sorry for my bad English, I’m Dutch/French (I’m a 18 years old, school dropout). I hope this all makes somewhat sense…

I was seen as a child prodigy when I was child (learned myself read at a young age and I went directly to second year of primary school), but everything went bad in secundary school.Â I feel totally useless. I have nothing to live for. The expectations that society has, the expectations I have of myself. The reality that doesn’t fit the expectations. My apathy towards humans, towards my family. I have no friends, I never needed friends, neither have I desired to have friends. I […]

5/13/2012 7 comments

Last few moments

by bloody_tears 3/5/2012

written by bloody_tears

It is truly hard to say.
But today has become the day.
Swearing to be more.
All to hear your every adore..
I do not want to be adored..
I’d much rather be ignored.
My hate envelopes me.
My blood it falls for only thee.
I once said I’d die without you.
But I never asked what you would do.
Ive sharpened my knife and said my good word.
Though it may never be heard.
Hardly can one accept my means to an end but..
It’s so much easier to bleed by the cut.
I once screamed to your face and begged for your love.

3/5/2012 0 comment

All these things will one day swallow whole..

by alautox 2/26/2012

written by alautox

Everything humanity has achieved will one day be forgotten, that day might not come for billions of years but everything will end, everything will be destroyed… celebrities that some say will never be forgotten will be forgotten by time. What is it exactly that humanity has trying to achieve? because I would much rather be a caveman then live in the world we live in today.. fucked up is an understatement.

Even if I do commit suicide and ”hurt” my loved ones, the fact is that those ”loved ones” will eventually die too.. nothing lasts for ever… and I quite like that fact.

2/26/2012 5 comments

Part 2

by christina-- 2/22/2012

written by christina--

I just feel I’m not worthy of living.

People who live should want to live. They should be happy and should want to accomplish things.

Ive posted about my lists before, that was not really a success. (understatement)

Since Im very chaotic, sigh, I lost my original lists. Which lead to a panic attack caus I cant stand losing things. So I made new ones. And it bothers me really much that I dont know what exactly was on the original lists.. but anyway I’ll just add the things I forgot now later.

I thought I could maybe share the lists this time.

Reasons to die:

I am selfish;
I am ugly. […]

2/22/2012 5 comments

Quick.

by Alexis 4/24/2009

written by Alexis

I will make this quick because I’m preparing to die any minute. I’ve become so fed up with the world—with all the people who said they’d be there for me when I needed them. I’ve fought with depression for years and its finally got the better of me. I sit here writing this feeling myself drift in and out of consciousness after taking 12 Oxycodon pills and slitting my wrist and I’m kind of upset I’m getting blood all over my keyboard. The love of my life doesn’t love me, isn’t that a pity party everyone goes through? Only I’m not sure people truly understand […]

4/24/2009 6 comments