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by Pretend Girl 1/29/2015

written by Pretend Girl

I was encouraged by impefertluck to write tonight.

There are so many people hurting and so much pain. Know you can get through your personal struggle and hurts. It can often seem like you can’t. Feelings lie. Maybe that sounds pretentious. Feelings lead us to conclude things we never would have if the feelings hadn’t been so strong.

I have dealt with my depression for over 20 years. I had counseling but no one listened to me when I talked about the pain of my family life so many years before. So, instead of understanding that the depression came from a situation I had no control over, […]

1/29/2015 3 comments

beautiful, me?

by disposablegrl 1/29/2015

written by disposablegrl

it has been exposed

our secret leaked

the world now knows

there is beauty

in suffering.

I can attest

I’ve seen it too

the artistry

intense

vibrant colors

at our expense.

The tortured soul

a vicious hue

magenta, lavender

and blue.

The colors bleed

impending doom

a tiny whisper….

…soon…

Bruised and battered

masterpieces all

Trying to blend

and to conceal

all the colors we really feel

For it is only us

the chosen few

whom live it

own it

we cherish

abhor it.

The allure in me

the allure in you

we are so lucky

don’t you think

to posses the wondrous beauty

the raw and poignant beauty

of such suffering.

1/29/2015 1 comment

Watching.

by WhereIsTheSilverLining 1/23/2015

written by WhereIsTheSilverLining

It was one of those nights where I was hanging with a large group of friends.

Even though I say friends, i just felt like an outsider looking in, I didnt have much input to give on their conversations. I just wound up sitting there thinking if i wasnt here it would make no difference. The group consisted of my roommates and some more friends ( we were at my house).

One of the friends is debating living with us next year so they spent the night entertaining everyone with stories. Everyone was so happy and lively. When i’m around i have never have good news or […]

1/23/2015 0 comment

Grey Area

by insignificantobserver 1/23/2015

written by insignificantobserver

It’s hard to remember that there is never truly a ‘right way’ of dealing with suicide, whether it’s you or a family member that has attempted. People will always get hurt, there will always be those feelings of shame, pointing fingers, those that will calls us melodramatic and say things that could tighten the noose a day sooner.
So knowing that, why not just buck up and take on that added shame when you reach out? I tell myself. Why am I so afraid of uttering my deepest secrets to the person that I’m expected to do that with?

Because the moment I do, he will […]

1/23/2015 4 comments

cutting makes us happy

by tctc 1/22/2015

written by tctc

Because it’s something that we wanna do, and when we’ve finally done it, it’s like an Achievement Unlocked so yay we feel satisfied.

Yayyyyyyyy

must resist…do…not..cut…must…not…cut…

1/22/2015 0 comment

Eugenics

by todestrieb 1/22/2015

written by todestrieb

For those not familiar with the term, eugenics is a way to improve the human population by eliminating the weak and propagating the strong. Back then when Hitler was in power there were euthanasia centers where individuals with incurable disease as well as mental illness were given a mercy death. For various reasons I am not a supporter of Hitler, however imagine if these centers were to exist today. Many of us could check in to these places to request to be put to sleep. That would be wonderful. Better for us and for the world if we cease to exist.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Eugenics

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Action_T4

1/22/2015 24 comments

Stress and School Projects

by piercetheflower 1/21/2015

written by piercetheflower

Hi there.

Today I am going to be talking about one of the most stressful things in my life, Expressions. I go to an arts school and to emphasize different types of arts they make it mandatory that we do something. My art is singing. There are several different categories of arts, including, but not limited to; music, visual, drama and creative writing.

Expressions is like a big talent show where the whole school, of almost 300 students, participates in a couple months of work. We showcase our talents and present them to the school. If we are good enough, we make it into Best of Expressions.

I […]

1/21/2015 0 comment

Finished Uni and know nothing…What now????

by Lsari 1/20/2015

written by Lsari

So, I know many of us were not able to complete uni/college and some of us are busy in the middle of doing so. Well, I am from a different end of the spectrum and am in a position I never thought any one could be in…I finished my bachelors, in my final year I had a very severe mental break down yet still managed to pass (albeit at the bear minimum).

So whats the problem, you may be wondering? Well, you see…I don’t remember anything from my degree. I literally (I’m not making this up) know nothing. Might as well not have done it. Yep […]

1/20/2015 3 comments

Ms. Gunslinger

by Bisban 1/19/2015

written by Bisban

I’m at the end
The fool, who is it
Tell me, because I don’t know
Evermore, that’s where I come from
Underneath, I want to bring-it, the power
But, I am
And so, I seek the oracle for the spirits
Hanashi, to infinity and beyond
Live-long and prosper
Please, lead us to the path
I’m just a homie, but I ain’t got nobody
I want, the man to be, the home-dog
The one on the boat
Imagine that, Ms. Gunslinger
I got no-one else to sing to, anymore
I’m the lone-stranger, take-it back
My birthright
But I don’t have anybody

1/19/2015 0 comment

Dear God,

by mantra 1/18/2015

written by mantra

You did say that if my right hand caused me to sin, then I should cut it off than to have my whole body thrown in hell. But the thing is, I never said I want to be a part of any of your divine agenda–I never agreed to be born, and to put someone in this nightmare they cant wake up from, is an act of pure evil.

You caused me great pain from the day that I was born, and all I am worth is hell. WHat other unthinkable ways of torture have you thought of throwing at me in the future and in my life […]

1/18/2015 12 comments

knock on wood… right?

by Bri 1/18/2015

written by Bri

So, mood drop. Woo….

My nephew punched my little brother -like they always play around, and my brother punched back – again, as they always play.

But this time my nephew was being whiny because his mom is here. And she’s starting shit, woo!

I’m so close, to fucking stabbing her. I’m sick of this shit, so fucking sick… She calls us bad people?

She was outside yelling at my brother about how we ALWAYS abuse her children, and her daughter was sitting at the table with my dad and I LAUGHING HER ASS OFF

“I think she’s got it backwards,” her daughter told us. “She’s the one who beats […]

1/18/2015 0 comment

One-Day From The Under

by Bisban 1/16/2015

written by Bisban

I finished the message that I will send to a person
I’ve only spoken to her once, I found her through an article
She wrote about living off-grid in Nebraska
The ground shakes, I will send it today and hope, for the spirit
I will send her my short-summary that took me three-days to write
I asked her for her oracle for the order
Liz, don’t take my words personally if even anything, I was just busting
To the tune that I will hope to one-day sing to, from vast-eon-ago
Every-time, every-time, celestial, when I take a hit, the Earth trembles harder
If I make-it, […]

1/16/2015 2 comments

Rise above this

by danno 1/15/2015

written by danno

Like all of us here, ive spent more than enuff time swimming in a pool of self imposed agony, I realize its all an illusion inside my head. Ultimately ive decided to LET GO. And realize we all are dying whether we want to or not. I guess suffering is nessesary in order to see the truth. It became easier when i just stopped caring.

1/15/2015 2 comments

HeHeHe, Fuck this place

by jizmhead 1/13/2015

written by jizmhead

The more I think about it the more I say Fuck this world! Sure there is much beauty on this planet but then it is vivaciously obscured by the undignified injustices that occur daily as they have been for centuries. The greed, governmental corruption, theft, intentional misleading by our elected officials just so that they can fulfill their own agendas and Fuck the next guy; have greatly distorted my perceptions of the beautiful life that is painted for us as children!!! I guess that’s called “reality.” The beauty of this planet is one thing (another existence that we as humans are slowly destroying as well) […]

1/13/2015 1 comment

What’s the point?

by HighlySensitive 1/12/2015

written by HighlySensitive

What’s the point of life? All you do is struggle and live, and eventually die. Why do we study hard? What’s the point of living if you don’t want to? I feel like life is a cruel joke thrust upon us even when we don’t want to live. Everyone suffers, for no reason at all. It is completely pointless. Life sucks and it always has. There is no point at all to it.

1/12/2015 1 comment

I can’t possibly go on after this betrayal

by mynameisLuca 1/9/2015

written by mynameisLuca

Life has been on the skids for some time, but I always gave what mother called”good face”. I had a name, a good reputation, a person people asked advice or leaned on for support. Recently my significant other and i were arguing, (been living together for 10 years). She decided to try some Tough Love and kick me out. She hoped this would shock me into listening to her, and doing what she wanted, and then I would be told I could stay. She called my elderly father, who drove over and proceeded to convince him I was mentally ill and had emotional problems. Meanwhile […]

1/9/2015 5 comments

Fight

by Bella 1/9/2015

written by Bella

Do any of you fight? Fight anxiety? Fight the late night thrashes? Fight the any time thrashes? Fight dragging your nails across your skin? Fight the thoughts of suicide? Fight those voices that tell you you’re worthless? Or do you let it sink in…

Deep, deep down…

Down where even your soul believes you’re worthless. That you’re not fit for this world. That you’re just full of bull shit. That you’re so sick and twisted, that there is no point.

Some of you have been fighting. Fighting until you’re beautiful little mind can’t even breathe anymore. It’s clustered. It’s tired. It just want to quit even though it’s […]

1/9/2015 3 comments

Abandonment

by Voidt 1/8/2015

written by Voidt

Despair is repressed, only for a short-while, It cannot be hidden for too long. People start seeing it. It eagerly reveals its existence, like a child wanting to reveal his talents, in a school- play. Just like a play, despair is viewed as “fictitious”; in they’re mind, it’s only in your mind. Some believe it’s the lack of gratitude and love you show towards ’em; some, simply, enjoy your despair, it makes them feel better. In either case, their ego is the window in which, they view your despair. All this happens, as if they’ve never felt sad; as if they suddenly developed a relative […]

1/8/2015 1 comment

Hate.

by CandyCoatedCyanide 1/8/2015

written by CandyCoatedCyanide

Hate is what we possess there is no other way scapegoats got us no where captured as the lies within us we’re trapped nothing in between us go on, come closer follow my soft spoken voice, I dare you I can almost hear you breathing in silence your heart beats touched by the cruel chill of your presence I’m burning, fading into dust of ashes blowing in the wind you’ve ripped me apart covered with pale white shrouds being deprived of your absence has ordered my withdraw I am no longer searching left alone lifeless goodbye my love, I hate you.

1/8/2015 0 comment

Are you still out there, rea3366?

by Lost2many 1/8/2015

written by Lost2many

If you’re still out there, check your post from 12-12-14 for a comment from wth_ami that he added on 12-31-14. You and I seem to be “in the same place” and his comment applies to us both. I hope you are still with us, and just haven’t been posting. Its strange that I don’t care what happens to me, but after all you have apparently done for your family and country, I think your death would be a tragic waste. If anyone else has had contact with rea3366 can you post some info?

1/8/2015 1 comment

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