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Those we love

by Scarlett Dawn 8/25/2014

written by Scarlett Dawn

We bear the pain of living for years on end
To keep those we love happy
We stay alive and continue breathing within our misery
So our loved ones won’t suffer in our divine demise

Yet there will come a time
When this illness becomes too strong
So strong that the love we have for others
Is lost as the darkness consumes us

That is when we tell our loved ones
Just how much we love them one more time
Yet they can never understand suicide
They all assume we did it out of selfishness

What they don’t realise
Is that we survived life this long […]

8/25/2014 8 comments

Lost of Enjoyment

by fallenstar23 8/24/2014

written by fallenstar23

As I breathe deep and clear, even though you’re there I feel alone. I stand waiting as I’m here wandering capturing the capacity of everyone’s joy and laughter.

Though the key to myself is lost. I can’t live as before, where it was easy to become a friend to someone.

As I open my eyes I’m slowly becoming tortured by the way I feel with myself. How do I stop becoming this way I ask.

One day though it will become better as for all of us.

8/24/2014 2 comments

Look Deeper

by Broken_Soul 8/24/2014

written by Broken_Soul

Many people blame us for not letting them in.they blame us for us being alone.they say how are they suppose to know if we’re sad or happy or mad if we never open up.im tired of hearing it.to all you who dont understand.WE CANT.even if we wanted to.we wouldnt be able to.its not that easy dammit.instead of blaming us for us being alone.why cant they look deeper.if you look close enough…you’ll see so much more.pay attention and you’ll see our true feelings.look deeper and you’ll see…

8/24/2014 0 comment

ants + earthquakes

by trapped_taco 8/24/2014

written by trapped_taco

something so beautiful and puzzling about the quickness in which ants die, when there’s just a bunch all swarming to a tiny bit of mountain dew that’s spilled on the counter, completely indulging in their desire. ants can’t really do much except mate and eat. human activities for ‘fun’ are just our creation… so, when ants give into their desires and slurp mountain dew and piss off humans, are they sinning, or what? do they even know they’re making people mad? or do they just think it’s a gift from above? do ants even think at all? does any thinking that humans do or anything […]

8/24/2014 0 comment

Just lazy

by Lesswill 8/22/2014

written by Lesswill

Wished i could get off the bed right now, but i cant, why? Because i just cant. Its so warm and cozzy here. Wanna join me?

No i cant, i am too busy planning my demise.

Ok no problem, hey! Will you join us at Bob’s place today?

No i cant, cant you see, i just want to kill myself, i just want to jump off a bridge or stick a big fat knife right above my navel, can you help me?

Hell no, what do you want to go about jumping off bridges and sticking knife in you navel for?

I am depressed

you re depressed, i […]

8/22/2014 0 comment

can we find a place to be together

by misanthrope 8/22/2014

written by misanthrope

A place where the suffering people ,like us,can live and try to find understanding and support amongst our own. If I dont go SOMEWHERE,ill die soon.. YES,it seems unwise,I suppose ,to draw all the walking wounded mentally ill and despairing desperate together into one place—,but isn’t the loneliness and pain already unbearable and are not many among us already taking extremely risky and reckless chances to attempt to kill th pain? What if we could make a pilgrimage to our very own monument- a monument to outrage,and sadness,and despair.It would be a monument to express ALL the MANY Reasons we are suicidal and suffering.What if […]

8/22/2014 16 comments

No God – Jesse Gunn

by teardownthewall 8/21/2014

written by teardownthewall

the popes got it wrong
when theres no more ozone
we will see the falacy
with our last breath

we’re all going to hell
with no water to quench the smell
inhaled in a blind hurry
a dead man walking at a feast

and our apologies won’t mean a thing
the childrens eyes will shame every human being
each passive one of us a sentencing
but the law rarely gets you for doing nothing

what we have done
knows no logical bounds
we have spoiled the earth
we gangrape the ground

when our plans got botched
we just stood by and watched
we can not explain away
everyone knew […]

8/21/2014 2 comments

I dream

by thecount 8/21/2014

written by thecount

I have suffered from depression for decades along with addictions etc. In the early 90’s, at my last re-hab
without any warning I began to write poetry. It just came to me. It seemed effortless. Fast forward to Robin Williams suicide, the medias response, such as what did he have to be depressed about? That is such a selfish act, prompted me to jump into the fray. I KNOW what the feeling is like that killing yourself is the only way to stop the unbearable pain. So I posted one of my poems on Facebook. Last night I spoke with my sister, who told me […]

8/21/2014 0 comment

I can feel it coming on

by Engie 8/20/2014

written by Engie

Zopiclone is squirting into my brain. If they find a way to make the taste you find in your mouth at this point less horrible, it would be much appreciated.
My mind is starting to melt like candles, bright glittering, forming pools of liquid, yet a solid.
I was told these can make some people hallucinate if you try to resist the urge to sleep, but it didn’t work for me.
I didn’t mean to make this post so long, but typing the last few paragraphs has been incredibly hard and and glittering sparking birds fly through the sky, they feed off the weak. They […]

8/20/2014 4 comments

everyone here is dead….

by PeelASquid 8/18/2014

written by PeelASquid

So everyone comes here to talk about ending it all….
Many of us are already dead.
You know what I mean.

8/18/2014 14 comments

sleep, as was

by heliumhood 8/17/2014

written by heliumhood

Even in sleep my mind is filled with thoughts that all come back to the same finality.

As I have been unable to work for almost 2 years, the old grey matter hasn’t been getting much of a work out, say for the odd long walk with my dog’s. There are some times several days where the 3 of us just stay in our own little ‘nest’, only surfacing about 20 minutes before my other half arrives home, and painting on that smile that says everything is ok.

Then it’s a few cans of lager, my sleeping meds, and a few blessed hours of rest. This time […]

8/17/2014 2 comments

out here …

by yagharek 8/16/2014

written by yagharek

All of us here with our suicidal ideations and intentions (this post is not addressed to the wannabe saviours, bless their sweet souls) – I lurk and read, and i write and comment rather little, but I am here every day nonetheless. And the impression I’m getting is that, despite the fact that we are all weak in one way or another, some people discuss suicide from a position of strength and some from absolute vulnerability. The strong ones display vulnerability, but the vulnerable ones do not display strength. I’m not going to name names; I’m not even going to tell you which of those I imagine […]

8/16/2014 7 comments

A Bitter End

by Broken_Soul 8/16/2014

written by Broken_Soul

For those like me there truly is no rest for the weary.But at the same time if your like me you simply cannot just end your life.not that I dont want to.its that I cant.being alone for all this time has shaped me.in my eyes I must be independant and not rely on anyone else.I must do things the right way the first time or not at all.discipline comes into action if I show weakness.I become so angry with myself for making even small mistakes it intoxicating.I have too much pride you could say.like this for example…I would rather die than be caught off guard.I […]

8/16/2014 0 comment

I suppose it’s time…

by nozmoking 8/15/2014

written by nozmoking

I’ve been away from the site for a couple of weeks and I have to weigh in on Robin Williams. Nobody seems to understand how personal pain can be so great to drive a person to destroy themselves in such a violent and agonizing way. Think for a moment (if you haven’t) how horrible it would be to hang from the neck using a leather belt – not “hang” as they do in a calculating way to snap the neck but to hang, suffocating in violent pain until you pass out – maybe more than once.

I write this not to be morbid in any way but […]

8/15/2014 3 comments

i feel like i have been through so much

by pinkclouds 8/15/2014

written by pinkclouds

i swear i have been through so much in my 21 years of age, any other person would’ve killed themselves.. im not there yet. but there isn’t a time that i don’t think about it. im at the point where its so hard for me to hold anything in. i just wanna cry and get away from everyone. everyone always ends up hurting me anyways. lol. im just looking for love.. Arent we all tho? isnt that the only thing that kills us. we all crave it and need it. and every time i find it, it turns to shit. its like every time its […]

8/15/2014 0 comment

I feel that life is ultimately pointless.

by bornfordying123 8/15/2014

written by bornfordying123

I really do, i feel humans invent these fake ‘gods’ to make us feel like there is some point to it all. Its like that line in that Dylan song ‘All along the watchtower’ : ‘some of us here feel that life is but a joke’ its like ever since i heard that line many years ago i feel it resonate with me.
Its like who cares ‘who’ you are, how much money you make, how much you impress other people at the end of our existence what does it all matter anyway. Who cares if you indulge in certain unhealthy activities, life is short just […]

8/15/2014 2 comments

Lights and the Forest

by DarkWoods 8/14/2014

written by DarkWoods

You normal people do not know how it feels to be different.

It’s like being lost in a dark forest, surrounded by a heavy fog. You sometimes see lights casted behind the fog, but only barely. You tried to follow the lights, but even if it is leading you to walk in circle, you could only keep on walking.

No one hear you scream. No one hear you cry.

You thought you have reached the end. In fact it is only more darkness.

You normal people sometimes give us positive feedback, give us hope, but most of the time you found us strange, weird.

I am confused. I don’t know […]

8/14/2014 2 comments

In the end

by CreepySilence 8/14/2014

written by CreepySilence

Let’s say heaven and hell were real, would hell be a place on earth? All of this hate, anger fueled by lust, greed, power. If we were really the way “god” wanted us to be, then what is god? Is he hate? Anger? Lustful? Greedy? Or is he just puppeteer who get’s a hard on when he cuts one of the strings from the marionette? What if after we die, we keep on being reincarnated, to live this hateful torturous life for all eternity? There never really is an “end”, even when we live, we’re not really living.

8/14/2014 2 comments

Suicide Guilt

by Disenchanted7 8/13/2014

written by Disenchanted7

I realise things will never get better for me. I’m a an ugly retard with no personality or talent and I have chronic mental health problems (borderline personality disorder, social anxiety). This life is futile, I’m a moron and there is no point to my existence. But how can I end it when there are people who love me and vice-versa? My aunt adopted me after my mum died and she spent years, $1000s, and energy treating me as her own despite my differences and what I put her through. I think it would tear her apart. But what’s the alternative? If I stay here […]

8/13/2014 16 comments

But… What happens next?

by Banjo 8/13/2014

written by Banjo

Tryed the rope around my neck and slowly go Down in knees. Just to try how it feels. Im scared for What happens next? I get dizzy and then stand up again. How long Will it take to be unconsious? Im not from US so sorry for Any spelling mistakes.

8/13/2014 1 comment

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