Hey SP,
One shitty years up. Ofc, my year hasnt been as bad as some of yours. But it was pretty bad, and frankly, i dont think 2016, is gonna be any fucking better…
Found the girl of my dreams, she hates me,
Destroyed my hopes of getting a good college,
Lost every inch of talent i have ever had,
And on top of it,
I cant even muster the guts to kill myself.
What i really want to say is,
Sorry mum, dad, i didnt mean to dissappoint you,
Sorry, everyone, i didnt wanna hurt anyone.
Tag:
wanna
I am going to end it these days. I want you to know that no matter what problem you have in your lives it will always be a brighter way. The thing is that in the world are losers and winners. I am a loser, even if have / will have everything this darkness that is inside of me won’t go away. Btw, you are always in control. No matter what happened to you, you are always in control. Don’t be a fucking depressed guy like me and go and live your life at your fullest. Do whatever makes you happy. I am sure that […]
she is someone i like. i don t even really know know her but i already know she s someone i would love..oh..and i d so love her..she is..i don t even know how to describe her…she is the no.1 reason i smile lately. and she doesn t even have a clue on what effect she has on me or how i am using her. she just guesses… maybe it s better this way. i want her in countless ways..and maybe i d dare to want her only for myself. it s so natural to like her. i sometimes want to let her know the […]
Let it go there’s nothing left, underneath the masquerade, death.
by Rotted_Flesh
written by Rotted_Flesh
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8kXx0BilciQ
I tried a thousand times to make you feel it
Like the days when we had first met
But I feel I never moved you
What the fuck how did we forget?And in another life would it be different
Would we do it all again?
And at that would you tell me that you loved me?
All alone why should I pretend?
Gagged and bound
You told me you broke down
And I believed everything
My love for you was logic drowned
Round and round
I came all the way down
To tell you that I’m really here
And I don’t wanna waste my time
Without […]
I told you that you have a real shot. I don’t have to tell you that I’ve changed. I think you’ve already seen it and felt it. I think you know it deep down. You feel that I want nothing from you other than you to out live me by one more day. If he is your best shot at carrying you through to tomorrow than I’m his biggest fan. I’m man enough to admit that we’ll never work out or be the same as we were. Sure, its painful, but seeing hope arise in your eyes even for one more minute is worth a […]
I thought I was okay now. And then I was told by my sister that I really do tend to be negative and say negative things, and then I’m back to wanting to commit suicide again. I just want to die. I just really wanna die.
There is never a month that I do not have suicidal thoughts. And I think God is selfish to not let us choose to die. If there is even a God to begin with.
I said i wasnt gonna come on here but i dont know what the fuck im doing because im going to a dance with a nice boy tonight but im almost crying right now because i think i look fucking stupid and i dont even wanna go to the dance and i have to meet his parents before it so his mom can take pictures and if they analyze me they’ll probably notice my wrists and i dont want them to and this boy deserves someone better who isnt anxious like i am
i am totally alone and lonely .. I have no friends at all have no one to talk to or to see or anything else
I’ve lost all my friends for my boyfriend who had left me .. alone !
today wasn’t any better than the last whole YEAR and a half .! duh.!
I want to do something to be alive but I have nothing in mind
I want to be new when 2016 comes
I want it to be a new year not another copy of 2013 becouse after 2013 all the years was just a worst copies of it .! I want […]
so last night I guess someone smashed in my car windows and stole my wallet. What joy. Just another thing to add to my list of reasons I hate life.
I’m going to nap. I don’t wanna be here.
i wanna die and i’m peeved cause i can’t get myself to kill myself and also i’m peeved cause if i’m dead i won’t be able to appreciate how nice it is to not have to be alive anymore. i just don’t know what’s happening because now dying sounds sketchy but i don’t want to be alive either. IM ANGRY AT EVERYTHING
I don’t know what to do anymore. Each day becomes harder to live through. I keep telling myself to just go through it one hour at a time. How could I do it when I can’t even sit still for an hour?
This stupid sickness is the cause of everything. I wish I could just ask doctors to surgically remove my intestines or something.
It feels like life is putting the joke on me, when I think I’m ready to die, it gives me a couple reasons to live, and when I live through it, it gives me more reasons to die and the cycle goes on.
As […]
I’m 18, and I recently moved out of my parents house. I have three jobs, and I go to college, but I feel like I’m really bad at it. I feel manic, depressed, or anxious at all times, nothing seems real, I’m irritable as all hell, and I get high almost every day now just to get through all the self hate, guilt, and crazy thoughts running through my head at light speed. I don’t even want to die because of a situation I’m in or a person or anything, I just feel like I’m so bad at being alive and my mental illness is […]
I just wanna take a poll and see how old all of you guys are on here . I feel like from what I read a lot of you seem to be older than I . So how old are all of you ?
I really wanna go back to the psych unit because I fucking hate being in the real world because people expect things of me and when im there no one expects anything but for me to be sad and thats really all i can do and i hate people in my school because they dont understand how sensitive i am and i really wanna kill myself just to prove them a fucking point and no one understands me and just kinda laughs at the weird things i do when im trying to be serious and im just done being the only person in the whole […]
Hey
I just read your post about how your friend was mocking you for being too darn sensitive.
I just want you to know that i actually know where youre coming from right now, cus the same stuff happens with me, its just i dont let other people know.
So if you wanna talk about it, i am sure that other people, including me, here on SP would be really glad to help you.
when i say that i’m tired, i don’t just mean that i’m sleepy or strained; i mean i’m overwhelmed and at serious risk of going off the deep end.
i’ve done a bunch of stuff i’m not proud of, and i guess i don’t really wanna focus on that, but needless to say i’ve been in code red for the last two or three days; i’ve called the lifeline, mostly because i don’t know if i have friends who can stay up with me while i feel this way. but i reached out to a few close friends to see if they’ll help out.
…
update, they are […]
sorry for posting again this fast .. but really i wanna talk to anybody about anything i dont care i just wanna talk thats all i want if anyone can and wants to meet me on hangouts this is my mail
somegirl249@gmail.com
I just wanna be in
a better place
a better position
a better person with
better people
better goals
better mindset
I just need everything to be better.
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