I have been planning to go away permanently for sometime now. I had a practise run and everything is set up.
The way it was determined will not make much sense to anyone. What am I even asking? I don’t know.
They sent me to hospital last Monday. I had not been sleeping I was hearing a lot of commands seeing things in my room. But all this has happened before. I admitted to having attempted to end my life but I have bipolar and bpd and I think that they just see all that as symptoms of my shit.
So the next two days […]
want
I think people are getting tired of me being that fucking sad all the time.
Worst part is that I am too. I hate myself. I hate being sad. I hate feeling stupid. I hate feeling useless. I hate this fucking anxiety.
I don’t want the world having this picture of me anymore. I don’t want them to think that I’m just looking for attention, or that I’m a poor sad broken kid.
But I can’t stop crying. And it’s been almost two years of crying almost every day. I should be dry by now.
And I keep reading about depressed people being unable to […]
I’ve done the therapy. For years now. Off and on. I can’t help but feel like I’m abandoned every time the round of treatment ends. But I know why I am. Because I don’t respond to it. But it looks like I am.
I tell them everything they want to hear. Or what I think they want to hear.
Rate your mood? I’d give it an 8 out of 10 when really it’s never more than a 2.
Take your pills… great but they never do anything.
There was a time when I wanted help.
Not anymore.
I feel tired though I am not busy.
I feel old though I am just 16.
I feel broken.
What does this life really mean?
Sorry for my bad english. I hope I won’t be discriminated. I’ve been feeling depressed for a long time. I can’t find the way out. Telling what I feel to my parents and friends(are we still friends?)Its so difficult and weird. I’ve been telling that I’m lucky, so it is so sorry to express my reaI feeling. I’m sad doesn’t mean I’m not grateful. I have to fake a smile or a laugh to fit in when everyone’s happy. I […]
Everything hurts I want to die I don’t know what to do. I have a mood disorder and there is no cure and god I don’t want to live like this. Treat the symptoms, manage your emotions, improve your quality of life! But there’s nothing that can cure it.
I can’t eat either get it past my lips or I throw it up. I either sleep too much or can’t sleep at all. I haven’t left the house in days and I can’t talk to my family anymore.
Right now I can hear my dad down the hall calling all these therapists to help me. He’s started […]
I want to die but…
I believe I’m a very manipulative person. I have been manipulative with almost everyone I care about in one way or another. I do it to one person all the time without even realizing it. That’s how natural it has become. I don’t want to be this way. It disgusts me that I attempt to control the ones I love. Not gonna state any reasons because there’s no justification. I’ve been trying hard to work on it, but all I’m doing is second-guessing myself. I feel like no matter what I say it’s solely to benefit myself. We’re all selfish, and it’s healthy to an […]
I have been cutting for 13 years.
I want to die i have a date
I feel like he woyld be better off if i wasnt in his life. I raise him on my own. I have no help. I cant pick myself up anymore. I dont want him around me because i hate that im always fucking misreable and dont want him picking up on it. Nothing makes me happy im always putting on that fake fucking smile for everything abd everyone. I love my little one so much he is my world that is why i put on that fake smile everyday but i feel […]
is it okey to feel like you dont belong to this earth?
Is it ok to not love your kids?
Is it ok to want to leave your family?
Is it ok to feel like it is your wife that is the source of the problem?
Is it ok to want to just leave and start fresh somewhere else? Is that possible?
Am i the only one that feel like this?
I have ‘friends’ who always trying to bring me down. I know they’re a lot smarter than me but they always act like i’m the dumbest. They never compliment over success that i did. They never want any idea from me when we do a group project. I dont know why they’re doing this to me. All I know it starts when they know my first sem result( didnt turn out good). And I’m starting to blame myself – why i’m just stupid. I never want this to happen. Now they barely talk to me. well fuck you bitches
No horny white boy, i do not want to see your penis
no horny white boy i do not want to exchange pictures
Yes horny white boy i do not want anything between us
No that does not mean come closer, be warned i have scissors
No horny white boy that does not mean i am a racist
No horny white boy this is not because your white
Horny white boy i wouldn’t take penis pictures regardless
No horny white boy just because your white does not make you right
I.Feel.Like.Shit! I can never stop feeling like shit. It feel like I was born to feel like shit because it never goes away.Nothing ever takes me away from feeling so down. I got to counseling but it never helps. The only time I feel good is when I am with other people ! When I am alone …..I just think I think about the absolute worst!!!! I can’t stop the thoughts, it’s like I can’t breathe . I consider killing myself almost everyday but I’m Afraid. I just want to get out of this hell of a life. This shitty ass life that I can’t […]
I just want to tell u about me and my life my name is ******* I am 12 and i hate my life . U can Kik just ask :/
So the plan is this. I’m going to keep driving until I don’t know where I am any more. Then I’ll keep driving some more. Then I’ll find a place to park and then the fun can begin because it is at this point that I proceed to get immensely drunk. And if I wake up the next day, then i’ll get more drunk. And so on.
Now if this doesn’t sound like a party worth going to then I don’t know what does. Anybody care to join me?
If you live in (Northern) Ireland then just let me know 😉
Warning – really long and pathetic post
So I still want to kill myself. And every time I think about this, I think about the reasons I shouldn’t, or why I haven’t already. And most of the time I realize I’m just living out of fear of something. Like the possibility of an afterlife. I think I overcame this. And the other major one, which I think I overcame a few months ago, is the idea of my mother mourning me. I’ve never liked it when my mother expressed her love for me (which I think is common for teenagers with low self-esteem – even though I’m […]
“You’re a piece of shit. Put that gun to your head.” My thought processes throughout the day rarely changes.
(Disclaimer I’ve never had the ability to eloquently convey in words my thoughts and opinions. So I’m sorry if this doesn’t make sense, I tend to jump around a lot. I just need an outlet)
I might focus on work or whatever but like a background noise it’s consistently making it’s way ever present. The only reason I don’t kill myself is because of my family, I have the most incredible family in the world. Yet, I’m barely apart of it.
My siblings are all so close but […]
Do you guys have a suicide plan tucked away? Like something you keep in mind in case things go south, even if you’re doing great right now?
Just to clarify I just want to know if you do or not, I don’t want to know any plan details, it’s against the rules.
I don’t really want to die.
I just want to be anyone but me. Do you ever just feel like your life is a montage of mistakes? Like your heart breaks even with the smallest flaw? I don’t want to be so prideful. I don’t want to feel like I should be perfect–not because of the standards of anyone else, because let’s be honest, there are few people that spend enough time thinking about me and what I do to care if I’m perfect or not. No, this need to be perfect comes out of my pride, the arrogant little bastard that tells me I should […]
I have offiicially given up there is no future for me I treat my body like a trash can have no desire to go on no one loves me I don’t love myself so stupid and ugly I never want to see myself agian I am a joke so sick Iv given up I can’t stand no more so miserable I reached my bottom 22 years of unhappiness when’s it going to change never I don’t want it to change I enjoy hurting myself any way possible I am disgusting inside and out there really is nothing good about me I can’t function in every […]
Life is boring , boring life. why movies, games, anime/manga, & fantasy/imagination is better than life / real life / real world / reality ?
life is boring , boring life. why movies , games , anime / manga, & fantasy / imagination is better than life / real life / real world / reality ?
everyday life is the same : wake up, eat, go to school/work, boring, then go back home, eat, then sleep, then repeat again.
but movie / game / anime / manga / comics / books are much more exciting & interesting than this boring life !
for example: like in the world / universe of Harry Potter, Avatar, Lord of the Rings, Narnia, Marvel / Marvels, Avengers, X-Men, Divergent / Insurgent , Star Wars, The […]