I don’t know where to begin. I’m 25. And I’m scared honestly. I know the tears that runs down face, is pain. And I feel like I can’t go through it anymore. This life of mines is something I don’t want to go through anymore. I’ve dealt with so much throughout my life, I feel like, I just can’t do it anymore.
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If Love is the problem
You just need to find a new love
If Money is the problem
You just have to make more money
If Other people is the problem
You just have to find new people to hang out with
If past mistake is the problem
You just have to disregard it
If Sadness is the problem
You just need to be happy
So all these problems have alternative solution. It might not be easy but there are possiblity, however slim, to fix these situations.
There’re examples of people who find love again even at old age
There’re examples of people who have nothing […]
Is it weird that I want to die? I don’t really know if it is. For about a year I’ve been debating my life. Do you want to die or do you not? I do want to die. I want to die because I am socially awkward. I want to die because I have no future. I want to die because then the pain would be over. But I don’t want to die because then the pain would be over. Is it weird that I enjoy crying every night, that I enjoy my heart aching every second, that I want to die. I am full […]
Probably one of the saddest moments in my life. On the way back home from school, one of my sisters got a phone call that my other sister intentionally swallowed a handful of pills. I was not told if she was alive or not. Bus stopped and I reached my door. Opened the door, and everybody was acting like nothing happened, my sister looked sad, but that was all. I didn’t want to ask what or why she did it, because I didn’t want her to suffer any more as it would be torture to bring back up the topic. I felt helpless. My sisters […]
Life is always balanced out like a scale. Take this, if I was a billionaire, sure I could buy everything I want. But if I was a billionaire, I wouldn’t be able to walk on the street normally like everyone else. I would also have to worry about my, and my family’s protection. I would have all that I want physically, but it would be a prison emotionally. PS. This is probably what Robin Williams felt. I would rather be average.
I want to die but I can’t. I still have people that need me to make money, too many people that need me to live. I’m not selfish enough to leave them with nothing. I don’t want them to suffer and die with me. I just want to die alone. So I have to live for them but it’s only the hollow shell of a life I’ve never really lived.
I’m still very young. I know this. At the age of 21 I should not be this hateful, this cynical, this forlorn, this lonely. But I am. I suppose I’ve always been unhappy. I’ve always been […]
I always considered Robin Williams an “original” comedian. Simply meaning he was one of the comedians I saw mostly in the movies I watched growing up. (Jim Carrey, Ben Stiller, Adam Sandler, etc.) I always admired these men and have actually hoped to meet them.
I remember being so depressed, and so lost in my life, mind, body, and soul. I had been thinking of death.. actually HOPING for death. I would imagine things and imagine the peace I would probably feel. Around this time I watched What Dreams May Come, and it gave me a better understanding of suicide (even if it is a fictional story) and surprisingly […]
Most days I want to end it. I don’t have a plan. I don’t dwell on a way out. I just want it all to end.
When I was 12 (I’m 30 now) I first thought about suicide. It seemed romantic. Maybe I’d come back as a ghost – if a somehow fashioned a guillotine then I’d haunt my house like Marie Antoinette. Maybe I’d get to meet god, the real god. As irrational as it sounds, I was curious about death – what was it like on the other side? IS there an other side? That being said, I was also looking for a way out. I […]
All The Oscars,money and fame couldnt stop depression from attacking you!depression just doesnt attack poor people only,it can attack anyone.He wasnt born with depression,but has been battling it for years,HE WAS A COMEDIAN!!made people laugh all the time,and yet depp down he wasnt happy.goes to show that we can smile and shake hands around people,while dying inside.63years,and he did it!he mustve been contemplating it for months or whatever,becoz we all want to do it,but keep holdin on,faith,or whatever.shit is real!
he can finally find peace.R.I.P ROBIN WILLIAMS
Call it mercy, call it hope call it however you want to, but, i decided to become an organ donor before the end so the fact that i dont want this body nor this life can help others live and enjoy their lives to the best, also because of this resolution poison is no longer an alternative, just can’t seem to find the rigth way to get out, im collapsing, every second i crumble more and more, im traped in this barless pprision thats my body, i just cant get out, i want to sleep forever to never wake again, i must put an end […]
If I can’t live a happy life, then I don’t want to live at all. I’m miserable, I don’t know how much longer I can wait to he happy.
I’ve had a few good days. Better than before. The thoughts are still there. Who knows. I’ll just keep going for now. It’s strange to pretend this side doesn’t exist. Maybe this will go away eventually. I don’t want to think about it any more… Just feel better. Circumstances are changing…. For better or worse, we will see.
I want to disappear but the only thing that stops me from doing it is my love from my family and friends because i don’t want to see them crying because of me.
I almost got what i want(nice circle of friends, loving family, money) but still, i want to disappear. I commit suicide once and that’s the dumbest thing i ever did because all of us have our time but me, i’m rushing it.
When i’m alone, i want to commit suicide. But the things that are always sinking in my mind are “How about your family? How about your friends? Are you crazy?” Yes i […]
Hello Everyone!
This is my first post on this site and I just want to start off saying that I am 17 years old. I am just here because I can’t understand exactly how your pain is but I can tell you how mine was/is and how I got through it. There is people out there that when you tell them that you have been thinking about suicide they say, Oh I know how you feel. No you don’t…
The first thoughts of suicide came when I was around 13 or 14 years old.
Through all of the people that I have known, having it be Real Life […]
of the unknown and feel soo tired. i dont wanna get hurt, i want to be safe, i want to do it, i just need some time, i need a good building.
Tonight is the night. Im going to be in heaven. People have really showed me they dont care. So here it is no more bull shit. Im done with everyone. My boyfriend doesn’t act as id he cares no more. So here is to him. I loved yiu more than anything and you didn’t realize it. I didn’t want to break up and I no we didn’t but even if you didn’t care you could have acted like it. I no im not much.and every girl has trust issue. Especially when you give them a reason. I have them but I’ve tried my best to […]
I just mess everything up for myself, I don’t know why I cant just make the right choices for once in my life. I’m clinging on to an ex, hooking up telling him I love him still that I want him to be happy even if it isn’t with me. But I havent let go I can’t and I don’t understand why he won’t let go either. I over think it and wonder if maybe because this time I’m suppose to be strong enough on my own to let go. But I can’t just thinking about it rips me up from the inside out. But […]
that is tired of getting that same shit in the face by people who just got what do i know have a boyfrend who broke up with them and then they start saying their life sucks and no one knows pain evry day i fucking go with a preesure in my eyes like i am going to cry i have lost so must family got bulied beaten and forced to do stuff i dont want i now i just dont know. im in hell cant get out of hell but i can lay down and give people an step more to get out.
I wonder how many of you on here actually went through with it, part of me doesn’t want to, the thought, the idea of just not existing, used to haunt me. But maybe it’s because part of me always knew I wasn’t supposed to exist in the first place. I was a mistake, and not just to my parents, but to the universe. I have nothing to offer except making other peoples lives as miserable as mine. Every time I’ve ever tried, at anything, I have failed. And those closest to me laugh about it. They laugh when I hurt, that has to mean something, […]
Okay, so this is in reference to this thread: http://suicideproject.org/2014/08/a-big-hug-to-you-guys-and-a-suggestion/
A lot of people I talked to expressed their willingness to enter such a place, where they could actually forget about the pain, even for a moment. But there was one guy who expressed his reservations over this (and quite valid I’m afraid). You could simply read the comments in the above linked thread and let us know what you think?
By default, any topic in this category would also be visible on the homepage to everyone, irrespective of whether they’re interested to look into this or not. They could feel while everyone else is happy, they’re not. […]