This is my first post on this site and I just want to start off saying that I am 17 years old. I am just here because I can’t understand exactly how your pain is but I can tell you how mine was/is and how I got through it. There is people out there that when you tell them that you have been thinking about suicide they say, Oh I know how you feel. No you don’t…
The first thoughts of suicide came when I was around 13 or 14 years old.
Through all of the people that I have known, having it be Real Life friends, Xbox Live friends, or family they had helped me through a lot of the problems I had/have been facing in my life. Xbox Live friends more than others helped me through about 20%, Real Life friends 25%, and family around 55%. Now the fact that the family one is so big is because the sole person that helped me through this was my nephew. I didn’t tell anyone in my entire family that I had been feeling this way, and with my nephew I didn’t have to tell him.
I was 14 years old when he was born, October 16. I didn’t know that he was going to become such a tremendous factor in my life but he did, and he potentially saved my life. He didn’t have to talk to me and tell me that everything was going to be okay. When I would hangout with him and had to leave, his cry for me to stay was the thing that showed me that I couldn’t do it because I have to see this little kid tomorrow, and I don’t want to have to put my family into the position that they would have to tell him that when he asks, where is bean? they wouldn’t have to to say he went home or he is with his friends. Then when he drops the, We’ll see him tomorrow? They wouldn’t have to say no.
I am aware that I am rambling on, but this is for all the people out there that want to commit suicide, the people that don’t think that they have an impact on any single persons life. I didn’t think I wanted to live either until I found someone that was worth living for.
Thank You for reading and I hope that this will change your mind. 🙂