i feel like I am a sim.
Someone is directing me from above, and is having a jolly good time at it. My wants come up, my needs…they ignore them. Instead I jump through hoops, following their torturous whims, all without questioning why…
i wish they knew the cheats for the game. They’d certainly have done “death by flies” to me by now, and we’d both be better off because no one is having fun.
I am 30 female. I having hypertension because of too much stress… always want to cry I need love from my husband but he is changed now before marriage he is totally different he care for me never wants to me to cry but he is the reason for my stress. he didnt like my parents I am living in Australia. he wants that his parents live with us I have no problem but nowdays I need my mother I have small baby but he said that he never wants to my mother come there what should I doand he never wants that I goto […]
Firstly. I need love. I have loads of them, but I don’t feel that people wants it from me… I think I don’t fit their standards. And I’m afraid to approach them. Like you know.. being approached by someone you don’t want to is irritating, and I don’t want them to feel that way. I can’t expressed it. And it’s so hurting me. Seriously though. Guys, do you wait for girls to react?
I need your opinion.. I can’t stand this idleness no more. Please please reply…
If you’re on this website, I genuinely feel for you.
If you’re suicidal, I genuinely feel for you.
I never used to when I first came here, a long time ago now. But I do now.
I know what that pit feels like. It’s very cold, and small and absolutely terrifying. And when you’re in it, that fear is very real. That’s the thing normal people don’t get, the thought of suicide to a suicidal person, 9 times out of 10, is absolutely terrifying.
Pain can’t be measured on a scale.
Suicides can’t be ranked.
A death should never become just another number.
But hell, what do I know? I’m technically still […]
As you get from the title I am new at this, I don’t really know where to begin. Sorry if it’s hard to understand I’ll do my best to keep it simple.
I’m still in highschool. I have been a cutter or “self-harmer” for about a year, though I have been depressed for years before I starting cutting. I tried to commit suicide a while back. I think about trying again everyday, I just don’t have the courage to try again. I’m afraid of what it will do to the people I leave behind. Life my family but most importantly my bestfriend. She knows about everything […]
I have been so close to committing suicide the past couple years and I can’t fight anymore.
I suffer from severe depression, anxiety, and PTSD due to a horribly emotional abusive relationship I was trapped in for almost 2 years. I have anger issues. I have separation anxiety. I am plagued with nightmares.
I do not see a chance of happiness in this world.
I live in the shittiest era of the United States I could have possibly been born in. Jobs are hard to come by, and even if you get one, there’s such a lack of interpersonal relationships anymore. It all relies on your ability to […]
I was manic when we started dating. That’s what the drs say. I had lost weight, was happy, wanted to stay up so late and have sex all the time. I moved In with him. He fell In love with me. Then I crashed. So low I thought of suicide constantly. I’ve never been manic or this low before. I feel as if I’ve created him. I’m not who I was. Gained weight. Ugly. Stupid. I feel so sorry for him. I should move out so he can find a good person for him. I’ve told him that and he says he wants me, […]
Dear WORLD,
I hate my life. i want to die. i hate my family. i dont have friends. i wish to leave this world. i dont want to be here anymore. ive had enough time. give my years to someone who wants them. i dont want to hurt myself anymore unless it is soon followed by death. my heart is hollowed out from the world i was born into. take me away to somewhere far away where birds always sing and the […]
Last night I tried to finish off my life. I’ve always thought about it and the other day I finally made a plan. I left my place and started walking. I began cutting pretty much right away and as I turned down a dark alley is when I took the first Vicodin. I felt it and didn’t like the feeling. I continued walking and cutting and I just started panicking . I finally broke and called my friend. She was going to let me go and I wasn’t going to let that happen. I managed to drag myself back to meet up with them. They […]
Anyone played that game yet?
I wish I had a friend like Chloe, or any friend really seeing as I have none. I’m being totally honest when I say that. I wish I had like a cool psycho friend that would like call me up randomly to chat or say they want to go out and do something with me but no one fucking lives in Adelaide Australia and can drive. It’s sucks. Anywho, anyone who wants to be that friend…
elle.dak@hotmail.com
Everyone lies. People upon people pass us by, fake smiles plastered upon their lips, a reassertion of their so-called happiness as they walk down the rain-spattered streets. Lying is as natural in humans as it is to breathe.
So why am I constantly paralyzed by my secrets? Why am I haunted by the constant weight of the extent of my depression. There is not a single night that passes that I could not feel the cold claws of guilt eat me up. The air turns to fire in my lungs, suffocating me, burning out the life from right inside. The hands that hold me near and […]
Alice wants to know why everyone wants to know who alice is! alice does not want to be constantly harassed and dogged! Alice does not wish to be accused of being a stalker when it is the other person who seems to be stalking alice! constantly popping into alices posts and discussions to subjugate alice to scrutiny for being alice! Alice is just alice! there is nothing more to tell! alice just wants to be left alone to tell stories and aquire new friends! alice does not want to get anxiety from this site! alice became alice to escape the anxiety and social constructs she […]
I’m nearly 30 years old. I’m in a long-term relationship with a live-in partner. We live in an apartment in a house. I work from home and because of this I basically work 24/7. My partner works as a delivery man but only works about 5 hours a day. His hand is broken from punching a wall when he was angry. He uses his broken hand as his newest excuse to be lazy.
There’s a lot of resentment. He spends most of his money on marijuana. This is a daily occurrence. Any attempt to discuss this issue is met with fighting, me being to blame […]
So, I need help. I don’t know why I live anymore. My dad has been abusing me and bullying me since forever. Whenever I get picked up from him on weekends he just abuses me and calls me a failure. And compares me to everyone else as if I am not good. Now my best friend that I thought we shared everything in common with supposably thinks I’m lying because he boyfriend lied to her about something and of course girls choose their boyfriends. And the thing is she told me to change. And now she ended the friendship with me. By growing up I […]
I’m just a typical girl who wants to be loved by a family because I never have a chance to feel that on my own family. I’ve tried too much times to killed myself but still I’m alive. Still not happy and still nobody cares about my existance. You don’t need to have a broken family to feel like incomplete your whole life I, myself was as example of it. I might have both parents but they don’t care for me a little bit. I need to work on my own to have the things that I needed. How I wished to have some parents […]
Standing on the shoreline looking out, all I see are blood red seas. The sun doesn’t shine here, so the sky is grey. The land doesn’t want me, so it makes it hard to live. Nature wants me dead. That’s why we all die anyways, it’s natural. But I have survived. Year after year I remain, but it’s just a flash of time anyway. Haha, this is such senseless shit. I’m bored and wish I were more intoxicated than I am
Mom had decided to divorce dad right after my sister was born. Didn’t do it, went back and had me, that’s when the fights began. Okay, decided to enter schizophrenia and Dad was too desperate to see the future believing life was so much fun. At 27, with a painless method at hand, I realise they are both being held by their children from dying. So we never had parents. I feel like I’m holding them alive at gunpoint, not fair, since they’re vehemently against it, they don’t even want me to earn, although my not having a job adds to it. So since my […]
A fried of mine was kind enough to model for a set of photos that I done when I first started college. She fit the concept perfectly.
She had never felt so free
Had never been more alive
On that day she began to see
How it felt to live her own life
She didn’t plan to take this road
But now she’s here all alone
She isn’t lonely and hasn’t lost hope
She just wants a friend and a chance to grow
When her […]
Looking for like minded people. I have dreamed of suicide since I was a teen. I made a couple feeble attempts as a teen but didn’t have the courage to pull it off. Now I’m a mother and I couldn’t put my child through the suffering of losing his only parent. I truly believe if I wasn’t a mother I wouldn’t be here. If anything ever happens to my son I would die soon after. He wants to go in the Army.. And I would never wish anything to happen to my boy but.. I can’t think of that. I love him more than anything. […]
I hate this unborn thing. I wish I could get rid of it but the father wants it. Im too far along to get a pill abortion. Most people I know are excited about the thing. I dont feel any connection to it. I HATE it. Im not ready for a leech Im never going to love. I wish it would hurry up and die so I can get back to my life or death or whatever Im looking for. I hate you leech. I will never learn to love you. I HATE YOU!
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