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countdown to June

by BlueEyes 3/4/2016

written by BlueEyes

Well, I’m still here. I guess that counts for something.

Sitting here watching the snow fall. I’ve got MC on my mind. I think he has today off from work and is home. I know he won’t call, and I won’t bother him. I’m supposed to be working myself.

What’s on my mind is his wedding. It’s on schedule for mid-June and last Sunday my girl friend told me about the elaborate wedding dress his fiancé bought. Considering MC never wanted to get married again after the trauma of his first disastrous marriage, I’m curious as to what his reaction will be when he sees it. I’m still […]

3/4/2016 4 comments

2nd attempt aftermath

by Luxson 8/31/2015

written by Luxson

I’m just so tired at this point that I don’t know what to do with myself. Two days ago during my two best friends wedding to each other I ducked out early, filled my car with all my belongings and was about to drive off and burn it all. I had bought two propane tanks I had intended to rupture, and a jerry can full of premium gasoline (which for some reason seemed funny being that I only buy low-grade) which I had intended to pour on everything including myself. It was going to be a loud painful and grizzly death but that’s how I […]

8/31/2015 4 comments

I see you.

by cephalus 7/31/2015

written by cephalus

This random graffito caught my eye while out for a jaunt tonight.

I think it sums up much perfectly. Were all alone, fighting with tears streaming down our face. But I see you.

(background music for those inclined)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0FqmJy8HzQI

I haven’t posted or commented in a while. (Trips, Birthday, Best friends wedding, another wedding tomorrow…) But I see you. Serendipitous, one of Salt’s songs just started while on random.

Some days I think depression, loneliness won’t get the best of me. Most, other days, I’m not so sure. Is loneliness […]

7/31/2015 3 comments

I don’t want to live anymore

by yorkie2805 4/29/2015

written by yorkie2805

I’m 23 with a 5 & a half year old daughter. I met my fiancée when my daughter turned 1 and I fell head over heals in love with him. We moved quickly & he proposed. A year after proposing he finished with me saying he was unhappy etc. For a year after this we met up every week as there was still so much love there. Eventually after a year of secretly being together, we made it official & became a couple again. In this time he had joined the army (something I’ve always supported him with) and he proposed to me again in […]

4/29/2015 6 comments

my best friend is a jerk

by bnubs1 4/20/2015

written by bnubs1

my best friend has turned into a total jerk lately. he has literally taken the only thing i cared about and then threw it away like it was trash. he’s taken the past two girls I’ve actually liked from me one of them while he was still hooking up with my ex-girlfriend. he’s stopped talking to me completely and still tries to hang out with all our other friends without me. granted we all talk about it behind his back and we all kinda hate him now. i had decided this guy was gonna be my best man at my wedding. we’ve known each other […]

4/20/2015 1 comment

I never had

by IndigoMasquerade 2/27/2015

written by IndigoMasquerade

I never had a sweet 16 birthday, a great 21st birthday, I never got to go prom dress shopping and I wasn’t asked by any guys to go to prom, I never had a bridal shower, or went wedding dress shopping, I didn’t get a romantic proposal or a housewarming party, I don’t get a honeymoon or even a ceremony in a church. I had to wait 8 years with a guy who has abused me in all aspects possible the entire time. I’ve always been in abusive relationships. So after 8 years I finally settled on just going to a courthouse and getting married […]

2/27/2015 4 comments

I am Ill, not Invisible

by cottoncandy 1/30/2015

written by cottoncandy

I have been confined to my house for 3 years and confined to bed for long periods of time due to severe, progressive Rheumatoid Arthritis and Anemia. These are my 2 worst health problems out of 30+ diagnosed chronic illnesses.

If you see me on the very rare occasion at a store, you would assume I am heathy. This is why the term “invisible illness” describes many conditions when visible effects of the illness have yet to appear.

My family finally accepted that I need regular rest, i’m crabby, and i am constantly experiencing pain when I was diagnosed with RA. Now they leave me […]

1/30/2015 1 comment

Well, here I am

by SoItGoes 11/25/2014

written by SoItGoes

Still alive. I was planning on doing it almost a month ago. But then there was my sister’s wedding, and once that passed, I realized the holidays were fast approaching. Then there are my students, too. I teach at a local community college, and I rather like my students. And whether they like me or not, losing a teacher mid-semester is bound to be traumatic.

As much as I want to kill myself, I feel the need to wait for a better time for the people I’m leaving behind. Everytime I walk across the bridge near my apartment, I fantasize about jumping off. I don’t know […]

11/25/2014 6 comments

Blue Moon Motel

by Deleted.from.society 11/13/2014

written by Deleted.from.society

take me to the blue moon motel
carry me over the threshold
treat me like i am your young bride
together on our wedding night
fuck me in the motel shower
make my makeup run like a porn star
carry me naked to the bed
fawn my hair out when it’s still wet

from the motel window, the signs twinkle and the stars go
i see all the places you’ve taken me and all the places we’ll go together

hold me spoon me and i’ll pretend
in your arms that i am pregnant
with your baby, yeah your baby
your two babies softly sleeping

you’re […]

11/13/2014 3 comments

Don’t know if I can deal with all of this anymore…

by tigerlily96 10/30/2014

written by tigerlily96

I quit my job and moved across the country so that I could afford living without a job while I apply to grad programs. At the same time as studying for the GRE, I got engaged to be married. You’d think it would be a really exciting time in my life, but the same two months I was going to use for improving my GRE score ended up being dedicated to wedding planning. Wedding planning was a nightmare, I felt extremely depressed, and then I would beat myself up for feeling depressed during a time I was supposed to be happy. Oh yeah, I forgot […]

10/30/2014 3 comments

The thing that wasn’t

by peaceinthedark 10/9/2014

written by peaceinthedark

Ten years ago I got married. I married the mother of my first born and felt more optimistic about life than I ever had. I had my family. We had 2 more kids and it was that much better. I worked up to 3 jobs at a time to begin with so my wife could finish school. When she did I became a stay at home dad and went to working just part time. She made great money. With this came her urge to spend it and the infidelity began. Things were rough for a while but then it all got better. Around my 10th […]

10/9/2014 3 comments

Don’t know what to do anymore

by coolmehdown 9/27/2014

written by coolmehdown

Hey everybody, first thing I want to say is thanks for taking the time out of your day to read this.

My name is Chris, I am 16 years old and this is the first time I’ve ever thought about attempting suicide. I feel like I don’t have the balls to do it though. My life has been just horrible the past few years. I just need someone to talk to. Let me tell you my story:

About 10 years ago my sister ran away to get married. I was only 6 years old. My parents, my brother, my cousins, Etc never got to see the wedding. […]

9/27/2014 3 comments

The Future

by icanonlygiveyoume 9/13/2014

written by icanonlygiveyoume

I see myself running around chasing two kids. I see myself laughing on my wedding day. I see myself being happy. I think it’s all attainable. To grow up, be happy and lead a life that makes me smile.

I know that I have many years left. The number of years I have lived is considered small. In people’s eyes I’m considered a child. I don’t find myself mature, but I don’t find myself childish either. Why is age so important? I think of my future. It seems as if I have so much ahead of me, but my mind reminds myself that what I’m thinking […]

9/13/2014 0 comment

my story

by midobarca 8/20/2014

written by midobarca

One day i was thinking to kill myself because i was feeling so bad.

I had a failure love story ,she is engaged now.One day was attending her sister’s wedding then i saw her dancing with her fiance .. i felt so sad 🙁 when i saw them.these days my father was facing problems in his work and his financial situation wasn’t good.I’m a student and i don’t have a job to help him.I felt like a loser in this life i lost my girl and i can’t help my father.I was feeling i’m useless so i had an idea to stop my suffering it was […]

8/20/2014 0 comment

Oh, how plans change

by Durmmy 7/27/2014

written by Durmmy

As this summer toils on, I’m left contemplating how things change in life. I’ve spent the last four months watching my life degrade. Losing people who meant the world to me, losing my job. Watching things that I used to enjoy and even take a bit of pleasure in wither away. But mostly I’ve been thinking about how different I thought this summer would be. Instead of planning my death, right now I was supposed to be planning my wedding. Instead of watching people slip away, I was supposed to be preparing to welcome a child within the next year or so. Now, I find […]

7/27/2014 10 comments

Fuck-Up

by SuicidalProcess 7/13/2014

written by SuicidalProcess

It’s always nice to know that my family unanimously agrees that I’m a world class fuck-up. They expected me to completely and utterly ruin anything and everything for everyone at a wedding, and was completely baffled that everything turned out fine. But they are still dissapointed for a reason they refuse to enlighten me about. What in the holy hell have I ever done wrong? Whatever, it doesn’t matter what I did they’re still going to hate me for who I am regardless of what I do.

7/13/2014 5 comments

One last thing before I go

by Disenchanted7 6/11/2014

written by Disenchanted7

Despite the fact I’m going to be dead within the next few weeks, I still fear what people think of me. If that’s not a sign that my social anxiety would never abate then I don’t know what is. I can’t describe how difficult it is to be around my family now, but it is mental and emotional torture. I’ve got to pick up my brother tomorrow who’s staying for a few days and I’m sure he’s gonna get sick of me and we’ll fall out. I am so scared because I am aware of which situations I become hated and weddings and big social […]

6/11/2014 1 comment