I don’t know what it is, but there’s this weird feeling in my chest. It’s painful. But no like physically painful, just painful. I don’t know what to do anymore. I am afraid to die, but I don’t have help. There is no way I can ever get better. Well, I don’t know how to start. It’s never been this bad before. Never. And it’s like I wanted to come back to school, because i thought it was going to be easier, but it’s not. I can’t be at home. I can’t be at school. I don’t have anywhere to go. I’m lost.
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Hi,my name is George,im 23 and i will die soon.
I’ve been wanting for a while now to find a forum where i can share my story,i guess everybody that wants to die wants to share his story.
I’ve been battling with depression for almost 4 years now,and i’ve been planing for a while now how to die,i just want this life to be over,i feel i suffered enough and i just can’t take it anymore..the pain..the loneliness..the dissapointments,but most of all not having anyone to ask for help..having someone i can explain that im suffering and i need help.
I dont have much of a family,i’ve had […]
My name is Lyndsay & this is my experience in hell on earth.
I’m 20 years old, female, college student.
The craziest year of my life started August of 2011… Right around my birthday…. It seems like my birthday is a celebration of the worst times in my life. It’s like oh joy but not why you might think.
I was attending college and living at home with my mom and little brother. I had known that my mom had an addiction to pills all of my childhood. This has caused more problems than you can imagine (example seeing her go through withdraws and throwing […]
wells, idk what to call today, good or bad? its a cross. yeah but more lows then highs unfortunately. i have a weird feeling to cut, i cant, gotta be strong. its been 3 weeks why break? idk i thought i was doing so well. i was wrong. i fake it too well. now here i am falling apart. im becoming me. and its showing. my wall is tearing down. im becoming uncovered. idk what i want, god im crazy. im so messed up. im losin it. ugh why? me? ugh. sad? lonely? happy? together? mad? slow? fast? nice? a *****? idk what i am. […]
I’m sick of this feeling.
I have just watched one of my favorite shows that has just come back on after almost half a year.
I love this show so much that all week i look forward to it.
But after it is finished i always feel so upset and sad. Like after the peak of ecstasy i feel this horrible indifference coming down.
All i want to do is cut. It’s like i can’t wait for it!
Such a weird feeling.
Fuck.
Here I am. I’m told I’m great. Good looking. Smart. Kind. Talented. I do many things. Have loving parents. Have loving friends. Have people who care. Even with all of these things, I’m stuck. It’s like an endless circle. I’m sad and angry, then numb. I feel numb so much of the time…I…I’m not even sure what I feel anymore. I mistook my content with my gay friend’s compliments to me, as a love for him. I’m a straight male. I know this because I’ve tried to have relationships with other guys. It was never right…it never felt right. I never kissed a guy, because […]
Recently I met a girl at College and we got on really well. A couple weeks passed and I felt like we were getting closer. She moaned about her ex a lot but I thought that was quite normal for girls to do that? She’s the first girl I’ve really spoken to for about 3 years and certainly the first I’ve had feelings for for a very long time. I actually felt alive again. We speak a lot outside of college and text a lot as well. I planned on asking her to do something socially tomorrow at college. It was a weird feeling…. Kind […]