i wish could go back and do things over but i cant. its to late to much has happened, no one will help me. i had a chance and already it gets fucked up. if i could go back i would have done it differently, but its to late. god is laughing at me for sure now. i just hope i get to what i need to do before someone else dose they would make me suffer. im almost glad people think i have an std. im afraid to get tested because if i do and people find out i dont and if they get there […]
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I’m tired of punching walls, I’m tired of feeling sad, I’m tired of having an empty burn inside my chest, I’m tired of hearing voices, I’m tired of being surrounded by people who don’t know my name. I’m tired of wanting to end my life every single day. i really wish i wasn’t so tired..
there’s no way that you are stuck on me like you used to be
and we never wade out too far till the skin begins to scar
to disappear without any trace
to open my eyes and see only your face
and to never be away from your side
wish we were so gone
stuck on these and your wide open seas and we never wade out too far till the skin begins to scar
warm lunar pole breezes here will keep us fine again
warm lunar pole breezes to the end
after light when we’re on our own and they slip on by
i had to […]
He vanished
like fog disappears once the sun rises.
He left the world, cause he couldn’t take it anymore.
I wish he could have asked for help,
His wife and 2 boys crying
He was funny
helped with computers
He brought his wife lunch everyday
and dropped his boys off at school
He believed in God
and I hope he made it up in Heaven
He is missed by all down on Earth
Though we wish he didn’t do
what he did and
vanish
I’m going try and fight this one more time – this time I’m not holding back and I will give it my all.
The thought of suicide is still appealing to me, of course it would be after years of a sickening pain that has now left me wondering who I am as a person and how my miserable soul could possibly fit into this world.
But after my last failed attempt I realised that I would not go out without a fight. This life has kicked me down and kept me in the dumps for as long as I can […]
So lets see if I can explain this i have attempted suicide so many times its become like an addiction. But ive always been saved cause ive always gotten afraid and get help after ive done something. I don’t want to live but im afraid to die.i can go half way through with suicide and take the pills i can stand on the bridge but i cant jump and i cant not call for help cause im afraid.
But lately the urge is there again and i have to do it failed attempt or not cause it’s like cutting if you don’t do it the […]
‘i,i wanna go, i just have to, i…i…i gotta rushaway’, she said…i remind her melodrama is only good with soap, and then only to a specific subsection of the public, and then only during the daytime….anyways…. this change that’s been feeling me, it dosent the pain fade, there are only big differences these days, but yet,we only have the same ways to walk away at our disposal=duritz
by cathy arsis
written by cathy arsis
caveats, inherent to their nature and purpose, usu come after, being creatures that covet comfort, but fuck strunk and white (writers know who the fuck these O-muthafuckin-Gs are) but CAVETE*** if I were asked, what are you rebelling against, my bone marrow would diffuse the clichéd and ironic answer,….;”what the fuck you got?’ thru evry poor, every vessel; my body w2ould find itself inclined, not a single fiber exempt, interstitial fluid would provide the bass line….society no longer bothers me, and there is something intrinsicly wrong with that…but i digress….***cavete; the longer thiese linesz proliferate out into the void of the dead that walk among […]
wow…. reading through a few peoples stories i have def found the right site. i had no idea anything like this existed. wish i had found this place sooner.
basically i have been in a living hell for the past 4 years, on a downward spiral is an understatement. short version is probably very familiar to a lot of others here.
a toxic mixture of a bad choice of friends, all kinds of drugs and what i can only describe as “shitty luck” has left me with constant uncontrollable anxiety/panic, painful intrusive memories that i wish i could forget, loss of ALL social function etc etc and […]
Hey guys,
Does any one else wish that they’d die painlessly but then somehow their “soul” can see who truly cared and then hit like a big red reset button so you can be alive again except now you know whom to care for.
i wish i could get hit by a car. if i die then then great but if not i could get a clue to see who actuallly cares. ive had so many fake friends that ive completely gave up on being social. i avoid talking to anyone at all costs. my dad calls me anti social in a joking matter but its true i guess.
you know, i envy people with cancer. Listen i understand its terrible, and what im saying sounds ridiculous. But for the people on this page just imagine for a second. I hate myself, i hate everyone and im pretty sure everyone hates me. I’m so angry, so depressed, so stressed, so sick of everything. If i had cancer, that saves me having to commit suicide. Having to to find a gun, so the suicide is painless as possible. If i had cancer, I could sit, play video games, read books, watch soccer, football basketball without a fuck to give. Cause i know my life is […]
it’s my first time that i write personal things about me in a site or a blog. of course the identity is unknown so it’s okay. there’s so many things i want to talk about ..that i feel deep down.. i wish my heart could speak for me.. cause sometimes words doesn’t describe the true feelings of a person.. but at less it gives you the opportunity to express yourself a little bit.. long time ago words used to make feel better.. expressing myself i mean but unfortunately not anymore ..maybe a little bit like i said.. but i feel like this pain is growing.. […]
As a political and social philosopher, I developed many ideas over the years – education and prison reform for example, which I may talk about later, among many other ideas. What I want to share with you all today is my vision on bioethics and how my ideas should be turned into federal law.
My ideology on bioethics has been inspired by secular humanism, suffering abolition, emerging technologies, futurology, and above all, choice! Let me give you some examples of what I believe should be turned into law.
1. Euthanasia for the terminally ill or severely handicapped should be a constitutional right.
2. Euthanasia for the mentally ill […]
I want to die. Can i please just die i’ve been suicidal since i was 11 and i just want to die i’ve tried to commit suicide before but i was unseccesful i wish my brother hadn’t walked in. If he didn’t then all my pain would be gone.
Deter from the missionary target
Only because I’m running out of words
I’m not trying to go
Are you going to make sweet love, like the Moon
That I won’t wish, was mine
Vague and I don’t know what you’re saying
Are you going to do it, too, or what
Do what or do what
Are you going to do it, too
I wish that I were, a Mr. Mime
Blue Marvel, I called to you
Let me die or let me lose
Die, like the wind
Let me feel even if the cold
Because if then what are you waiting for
I’ll kept if I could
From the rope
I used to be a number one
Like I was, Washington
All alone like still no-one knows
Embracing the truth
Down, so ever down
Grime and the muck
I guess if I’m on my own, now
Do not wish for to find, but be the way
For me
Like the pain of singularity
The child of the pity and of the piety
Humility
Diffidence
To Undead, if you leave
I reckon, the cycle went along.
Here I go. Wish me luck. Wish me destiny actually. No such thing as luck. Driving for the border. I have no insurance and my plates arent registered nor do I have my E-test. But, you only live once. YOLO! My journey begins!
the way i feel has no words. i live day in and day put of not being wanted by anyone. i am a burden to everyone i speak with. i annoy people. there’s something very off about who i am. why am i so strange?
i just want someone to listen to me. ive been used by others for disgusting factors. people tire of me easily
i bring bad luck to whomever im with
im just devastating as a person.
nobody at 18 years old should feel like me. i wish i was normal i wish i didn’t want to die. i wish someone cared. i wish […]
To those who got a harsh day tday, i jus ran out of energy tday so i did nth, no hurting myslf, humans need sm rest i guess, suiciding got bored..?
i hope all of u are still fine frm a day like that, momentarily, of course i still do wish nth bad happen later
goodnight.
(well, jus enjoy one or only one good night for the coming suffocating day..)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lbgdCzGfFt4
today we finished bringing all of my stuff back to my old room where i grew up, in my parents’ house. for two years i tried escaping this place, and six months ago i succeeded. then depression took hold of me once again, and now i’m back here. crushed between these four walls i’m hurt. i can’t handle the bureaucracy ending the contract of my old place. i am tired. i am broken. it feels like the world is slipping through my fingers. i need a quiet place to put my head for a while and forget about everything, and the old house isn’t […]