In some ways having Asperger’s has similar types of symptoms to being bipolar! When I get to do something that I really enjoy, I get very manic and my whole world lights up! It’s also known as getting to enjoy my special interests that are associated with having Aspergers Syndrome and my special interests are trains! When I go through the usual blah shit, I just wish that I could die! When I have to do things that I don’t want to do, everything turns to shit! I am feeling extremely manic because I will do some traveling in the […]
Hello to all out there who are reading this. I have decided to post here my last thoughts. I had hoped things would get better, maybe even easier given time and space, but I unfortunately grow increasingly tired and weary of this world and path that I have found myself walking down. I guess I should write this all in a note for my loved ones to see, but I dont want them to see this side of me. I do not intend on leaving a note at all. I know what I plan to do is going to hurt many people, but why must […]
Losing my mind with this solitary life. People say they care. If they cared then where the fuck are they? I’ve been abandoned by everyone I called a friend. Another day trapped in this world. Another day of dreaming for an exit.
I just don’t know how things got this way. Everything is so fucked up.
Based on the situations in my live revolving around uncontrollable emotional issues that not only affect me, but affect my job, and most importantly the family and loved ones around me, it is best that I not participate anymore in this thing called ‘life’. I have a condition that causes myself, co-workers, and others around me to feel uncomfortable. Some reduce their discomfort by using denial, belittlement and minimization of the seriousness of me and my situation. Life is not enjoyable when you are mentally ill, constantly nervous and in some type of head pain, extremely depressed, hopeless, and feel worthless to myself and […]
Based on the situations in my live revolving around uncontrollable emotional issues that not only affect me, but affect my job, and most importantly the family and loved ones around me, it is best that I not participate anymore in this thing called ‘life’. I have a condition that causes myself, co-workers, and others around me to feel uncomfortable. Some reduce their discomfort by using denial, belittlement and minimization of the seriousness of me and my situation. Life is not enjoyable when you are mentally ill, constantly nervous and in some type of head pain, extremely depressed, hopeless, and feel worthless to myself and […]
I’m sick of living in a world where it feels like it doesn’t even matter if i’m here.
No one would miss me, no one would fucking care.
I’m invisible. Why can’t anyone see how sad i am.
Why doesn’t anyone care enough to look past my pitiful smile.
Because no one fucking cares.
I just want to run away to a place where no one knows me. Then i can be alone without feeling that no one loves me.
It’s like i’m living a world where I’ve already been forgotten.
I’m tired of feeling invisible.
I’m tired of feeling like a ghost.
How about giving me Liberty BY giving me Death?
No matter how “free” your country is, the laws of nature in of itself is oppressive. There cannot be true freedom unless suffering is abolished though technological advancements. Unless all diseases, both mentally and physically are cured, biological immortality, a post scarcity society, and suffering abolition becomes a reality, nature will oppress us like Hitler oppressed the Jews and the law of entropy will be our executioner.
Many people want to live in this modern world. They get high on there own dopamine receptors or there belief in some invisible sky god that they convinced has a plan […]
I wonder what happens if people live in a unified country.
If there wasn’t any civilization?
why we’re not satisfied?
when We can live?
This Questions are vain and silly
I think I’m a crazy
With me, hearing comedy doesn’t make my pain go away, but it makes me feel a lot better, temporarily! This is the late great George Carlin talking about suicide:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qS1o4YcWGZs
I prefer comedy than hearing all this touchy feely shit that’s popular these days! Most of it is so pretentious and phony. George Carlin was honest! George Carlin doesn’t just talk about suicide, but he brings up autoerotic asphyxia before all is said and done! Why did George Carlin have to croak when there are so very few decent people left in this world?
So many people forgot about Wendy O Williams. I didn’t! Wendy, it’s so sad that you had to take your life. I can’t blame you! This world is controlled by such evil assholes! Someday I will get to leave this stupid world and join you:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XuQLyDv7uO4
Most people in this world are such phony, pretentious back stabbing fucking scum, I look to people like Beavis and Butthead for hope and inspiration! Beavis and Butthead ain’t perfect, but at least they are honest! Not only that, they are sleazy and they are funny! There are only a few decent people in this world. A few. Very few! […]
I am ashamed to live in this generation. I am ashamed to like in the U.S. I am ashamed to live in this world.
It’s disgusting. Women or men murdering their childern for their own selfish needs. Teenagers getting pregnant just to give the child to their mother to take care of while they go out and party. Grown men attacking teenaged boys and girls because they don’t like the way they dress. Grown women with fucking kids acting like a goddamn child that doesn’t get their way. Or these outrageous standards that most women put for men, or vise-versa.
Teachers raping or molesting their students. Teachers and/or […]
I’ve meet a lot of people, everyone with a different story to tell. Some are sad, some are happy, some are amazing. Then, is my own story, and I know I’m pathetic with my suicide mind in a world were not only me but everybody have problems, the thing is that I fall too easy. Still, I don’t wanna comfort myself with those cliche words, i just wanna die in this pathetic world were no body will remember me. But more pathetic I am thinking […]
Hey, I don’t care what you’ve done, what you’ve failed, or why you browse this website. I don’t know why you’re hurting, why you’re hollow, why you’re crumbling, why you’re going to snap out of this fake world.
Have a good day. Haha, that’s an empty phrase. I know a lot of you aren’t having good days. A lot of you can’t remember what a good day exactly is. World’s in grey-scale, numb, dull ache.
You people are wonderful and strong. I’ll probably never meet you guys, but I wish you the best. Love from a random troubled stranger on a random computer in a random world.
Yay, end of […]
Just tired of being alone whilst in a world full of hostile strangers
Tried to integrate every day but now tired of trying
In fact getting really tired again
Last time I was this tired woke up in A & E
I am wondering if there is a link between Asperger’s and autoerotic asphyxia? Considering that AEA is not talked about nearly often enough, it is difficult and frustrating to come up with a determination? I get a feeling that a high percentage of people who have died from AEA had Asperger’s or were on the autism spectrum? Based on their profile, they were creative and had rather high IQs.
Even though a lot of people who are into AEA have Asperger’s, there are very few people with Asperger’s who are into AEA, however many people with Asperger’s feel awkward in social situations, have a difficult time […]
My treacherous mind lives in the hope of a new world while outside I become an insensitive monster.
The part of me that still feels shout in agony locked in a world full of bullshit waiting for the moment when we both get free. The moment of my death.
Humanity cannot be happy. The developed countries have higher suicide rates, possibly because humans have not adapted to life in the first world. For example, people chop down trees so they can wipe their asses. Surely, one would think that there would be consequences. First world countries have toilets filled with water, where there are other countries that are dry and impoverished. Many countries are rubbish, and other countries are busy making technologies that help destroy the planet just the same. The best way to be happy is to be an ignoramus, and even then, stupid people often tend to be emotional and violent.
I never haven’t had a chance to tell very many people about this, but I am into something which is known as autoerotic asphyxia and it is not easy to talk about this and unlike other people who claim to be into this claim that it gives them a “high” and they don’t really want to die, but I think that’s bullshit and they are lying! With me, when I get hit with this intense desire, I don’t just want to experience a “high”, but I actually want to hang myself! Also, I want to be totally nude when I hang myself and then I […]
Every Tuesday I sit in a therapy office and get told that as long as I take my medicine and think of all the positives I will be, “okay.” Dr. Herr looked at me one day and asked me something I’ve never really thought about before and it completely shattered me..”when were you last happy, when have you felt ‘normal’?”…The last time I woke up and wasn’t terrified to get out of bed and wasn’t so nervous about life tumbling down around me that I had a panic attack, was when I was locked up in a Psych ward. I tried to drown myself in […]
I’m posting this to help anyone here that reads it. I’ve been taking a folic acid supplement along with a zinc supplement and it’s really helped. Folic acid helps in the production of neurotransmitters which I’m sure anyone who’s on here knows that these are the chemicals in your brain that regulate mood. I hope that I have helped at least 1 person on this board.
Now, all that being said, I still believe that the feeling of mental stability that most “normal” people feel is merely meant to placate them and further the idea that this world is real. As I get older I suspect […]