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Do you ever feel like a nobody?

by sarah8742 4/12/2015

written by sarah8742

I don’t know what I’m doing with my life….I don’t know anything actually. I spend every minute of everyday trying to make others feel so happy about themselves and cheer them up when really I’m the one that’s needs cheering up…

I guess it all started when I was in 8th grade, and yes, I know that that is a young age to start getting depressed, but that’s what I was…no adult could understand, you all are probably thinking, “you’re so young, you have so much to live for,” or something along the lines of that, but truth is, you don’t understand…there are so many young […]

4/12/2015 11 comments

still here, for now

by worthless_loser 73 4/10/2015

written by worthless_loser 73

I thought last night would be the end, but I still find myself here. I’m so tired of feeling this way but I can’t change it. I still love her every second of every day. Without her there is no point to life. It hurts to breathe knowing I will never see her again. At the same time I can’t get over her leaving me and treating me like I’m nonexistant. She erased me like our 5 1/2 years together didn’t even happen. Or mean anything at all. And her kids did the same. Yet despite all that, I still love them and long to […]

4/10/2015 4 comments

Contemplating suicide

by brokengirll 4/9/2015

written by brokengirll

I am just wandering if I was to overdose on sleeping pills would I die quickly or would I end up throwing up the pills or something worse? And will it hurt to overdose on pills.

4/9/2015 12 comments

After All

by RogerRabbit10210622 4/8/2015

written by RogerRabbit10210622

I guess the only thing holding me back is the curious fear I have of whats next. Is there a heaven like all our grandparents say? Or is there just black nothing? Will I linger and watch the aftermath, because that just might be worse. To watch all the ones I love suffer…. but at the same time living is a burden to them. I don’t know….what do you guys think happens when we are set free?

4/8/2015 4 comments

Here’s the plan…

by vaughn124 4/7/2015

written by vaughn124

I’m a teenage drop out, nobody cares about me. I feel horrible and trapped and I’ve been here before, it gets better for awhile, but will always get worse. I’m sick of it, I just rather not exist.

My seasonal job will open soon, I’ll get my money for my method, and I will be good to go.

4/7/2015 3 comments

Sticked

by NoBuddy 4/2/2015

written by NoBuddy

Why was I born,why do I have to experience a lifetime of hell, before I say it I know there are people who are a worse than me. But I don’t know.!

4/2/2015 0 comment

whats the difference

by schizophrenia 222 3/30/2015

written by schizophrenia 222

What’s the difference with someone saying and being suicidal to someone who just says what the fuck I want to not endure no more pain and just does it. Like thank fuck I can vent because I’m soo suicidal. I’m in the not care stage can’t see any way out and time will just make me worse and worse and worse until I can’t cry become emotionless and not feel or care for anything. Fuck society just fuck society. When I had a psychotic break I swore at a police officer well actually i called him a pedofile but i was mentally deranged out of […]

3/30/2015 5 comments

Ran out of options

by lookingtoendit 3/29/2015

written by lookingtoendit

I got dependent on benzos through sheer stupidity (lots of anxiety that I could have handled without meds). Was very careful in the beginning about using them, but it escalated as stresses got worse. Now I can barely leave the house, haven’t worked for 3 months and don’t stand a chance of going back. I can barely sleep. I’ve tried tapering the benzos and getting off of it, but haven’t had much success or enough supply, The doctors are not supportive.

I do have a will to live, but with not being able to go back to work, borrow money or medical support to get off […]

3/29/2015 3 comments

Spring Break is almost here

by majesticwalrus 3/26/2015

written by majesticwalrus

Just one more day before I can stop worrying about school for a full week. I’m going to go visit some family, which is weird considering the fact that my relationships with them are….strained (for lack of a better word) at the best, and potentially homicidal at the worst. You may think I’m exaggerating, but my brother has attempted to kill me on several occasions. Pretty much the only reason I’m going is to visit my youngest sister, the only family member I have that I really consider family. Seeing everyone else is going to suck, though. I’m just trading the stress of school for […]

3/26/2015 1 comment

The Gift To Go

by wndozh8er 3/20/2015

written by wndozh8er

As a 31 year old male, I have suffered all my life in one way or another. I have never been happy and things just seem getting worse. I am not one of those manic guys ether. I been wanting to die since 2007, I just haven’t found a method yet. I tried to help myself and get help but realized that my brain is wired in such a way that ill probably be miserable until i die. It’s like i’m a square trying to fit inside a circle. I am also ugly so the social rejection hurts. What boggles my mind is – why do humans minimize the […]

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3/20/2015 6 comments

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what happened?

by an_old_child 3/15/2015

written by an_old_child

i used to be a very happy child. i’m still always smiling almost all the time but it’s a fake smile covering my true feelings. this life means nothing to me. and one of the reasons that i hate myself is that my feelings are easily changed so i cannot be sure about what i really feel.

why are we here? isn’t this a bit strange for you? what does life mean? what if i wasn’t born at all? there MUST be some reasons for being here!

i feel i’m in prison. i don’t like to be here. and sometimes i suspect that other people are not real […]

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3/15/2015 6 comments

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Spare me the ‘confidence’ boosts

by daikirai 3/14/2015

written by daikirai

one day left. Its quite nice being so numb, i no longer think so much and no longer care about how it may affect her and everyone else. without her even being near me i can tell how hurt she is, i wish she would just let go, it would be so much easier…..people always say it’ll get better, well it never did it just got worse and even now people say it but they still don’t realise for some it never gets better, it just gets worse. I wonder whats after…..death, is it worse then this? Or better then this?

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3/14/2015 1 comment

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which is worse?

by brokkengirl 3/11/2015

written by brokkengirl

the question i seem to keep coming back to as I try to survive another day imprisoned in my mind, body, house, bed. most days in too much pain physically or emotionally to function but have continued to fight my deepest desires and desperation at times because of ‘family’ even though I rarely see them as I try to spare them of me. literally the only comfort I have is knowing they dont see my pain, and I dont burden them.I cant accept being broken once was just emotionally but now chronic pain has taken my only ability to contribute to community and family or […]

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3/11/2015 1 comment

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The Meds Stopped Working

by Naomi Saegusa 3/8/2015

written by Naomi Saegusa

my medication stopped working, and i’m feeling suicidal again, i’ve had a problem with cutting for years now, but its gotten alot worse recently, does anybody have any good coping skills that aren’t, that read a book, draw a picture, love yourself, therapist crap?

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3/8/2015 4 comments

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Hello all

by Second Winter 3/3/2015

written by Second Winter

I have been visiting this site for a couple months now, never registering and just using it as a tool to feel relatable to someone..anyone anymore. Though I didn’t post, I came to know a lot of the regulars through their posts and took solace vicariously, as the problems others listed with depression mimicked mine. Anyway…

The depression I’ve spun into has become worse. I had a long term relationship (7 years) end and a lot of it was my fault. I had everything I wanted once and I squandered it. To make matters worse, booze and drugs had become my outlet to cope. This would […]

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3/3/2015 2 comments

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Alone.

by lezbehonest94 3/2/2015

written by lezbehonest94

I’ve never felt this alone. Day by day I get worse. I don’t no if I should admit myself. Or what. I no I can’t handle being the way I am. I’m not afraid of death it seems quite peaceful. I don’t want my family to find me . last night I took a lot of sleep aid enough to trank a horse.. Unfortunately I woke up this morning , yes. I was angry so angry. So I was determine to find something I wouldn’t wake up from.. And nothing. SSomeone just please give me some advice… Please..

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3/2/2015 11 comments

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This is me

by fittinginhurts99 3/2/2015

written by fittinginhurts99

I am just going to kinda summaries my life I started hating myself very young I had nobody and when I did they would leave me because I was never good enough for anybody then I met a boy and thought I loved him but he ended up just using me and then now he tears me down even more than the rest of the people I now self harm constantly even though I’ve don’t it for a long time it has gotten worse and right now I feel everyone would be better without me

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3/2/2015 1 comment

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I’m done.

by hellblau 2/26/2015

written by hellblau

I’m getting to the top, I can’t resist too much, I hate being alive, I have so many fucking problems, I’m close to turn 21 and I think I have not lived what I wanted to live by this age, My health has never been worse, I think I’m getting into a very serious eating disorder, I’m starting to harm myself again, I’m starting to hate myself even more and hate everything around me, I feel fed up, tired, sad, and so fucking weak all the time. I try to communicate with my family, but I barely see them and that makes everything even harder, […]

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2/26/2015 3 comments

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She betrayed me

by Lovebug4142 2/26/2015

written by Lovebug4142

So today my cousin told me that my mentor told her dad ALL the things I told her, IN CONFIDENCE. So that includes me taking pain pills, me cutting myself, me being molested when I was little. All the stuff that’s going on in my home life. She had no right! I am so sad/angry/upset, I don’t know what to feel right now. I told her I had trust issues because other teachers/mentors have betrayed me in the past, and she told me it was between me and her. And then she does this! And what makes it worse was I saw her today and […]

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2/26/2015 2 comments

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What’s next?

by comomequieranllamar 2/23/2015

written by comomequieranllamar

I don’t want to kill myself. I really don’t. I just don’t know how to live anymore.
I feel emotionally exhausted, and I don’t see any way to get out of this situation.
I’ve experienced the suicide of a family member recently, and I don’t want my family to go through that again. So I won’t do it. But this decision makes me feel even worse. It’s like I don’t even have the choice to end all this suffering.
I’m living with my severely depressed mother, and I do also take care of her business, which is worthless because it doesn’t make money enough to […]

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2/23/2015 4 comments

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