So I wrote a post, actually my first post on this site entitled “Wasted Life”. It was pretty much about the story of me and my ex-girlfriend and the effect its had on my life for the last twenty years. It was a story that I felt I needed to share with somebody…anybody to show the extent that one person can have on your life when you focus all your love on them and no one else. I received some good comments from others on there when I posted it, and today I received a few other comments, which surprised me since I didn’t think […]
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I had a friend named Mikhail Belakov. He called me, asking me this question: What is there worth living for? He continued to say that he honestly didn’t see any purpose. He left a suicide note for his parents and older brother, and hung himself. I was informed of this by Mrs. Belakova, who told me the next day. He was only 15 years old.
I am incredibly suicidal and am ready to end my life with an impulsive moment…. but I find myself commenting on other people’s posts about not giving up and to keep fighting. Am I a hypocrite? Perhaps I am so conditioned to think that my life is not worth anything but other’s lives are worth the effort.
Theres no way out.. I just want to cut until my veins have no more blood to let out.. I want to stand on that chair and end it.. Who cares if anyone misses me.. I want it to be over. The pain, the suffering.. I’m crying just writing this. This maybe my last post.. I need it to end. I need a way out of this. Life isn’t worth living anymore. It never was worth it. I can’t think of the last time I was actually happy.. What is being happy feel like? Because I don’t know anymore.. So this is it.. goodbye
My ex boyfriend raped me coming close to 2 years ago.
I haven’t told the police because its just so complicated as i was still going out with him after it happened
Now, i just don’t know if its worth going to the police for.. anyone help?
Listen if you’re still in school, it’s fair to say you’re going to have your fair share of heart ache and heart breaks. Your boyfriend or girlfriend who left you is not worth your life though. Just trust me. You’re young and will probably have several loves when you’re a teenager or young adult. It’s just part of being young, innocent and maybe a touch immature. And I don’t mean that in a bad way. The break up will feel like the worst thing you’ve ever felt before. You’ll feel like there will never be another person who you will love, or who will love […]
i constantly tell people not to hurt themselves or that their beautiful or worth something but yet i tell myself the complete opposite going through so much crap and yet i give hope to people but cant give it to myself. i could tell someone a million reasons why they shouldn’t kill themselves or hurt themselves but when i try and think of even one reason to stay here i cant. why is that?
This is just not worth it. It never has been. I wish I would’ve been aborted. Then I wouldn’t be feeling so hopeless all the time. More abortions everyone!!!!!! I am the proud father of two abortions, and those two decisions were probably the best choices I ever made. It would be nothing but selfish of me to have a child. I am miserable which means my kid would probably be too. Experts say that 50% of your happiness level comes from your parents. If there was an abortion clinic for 34 year olds to abort themselves, I would make an appointment ASAP!
Why am I still here? I have everything prepared for my death. I have a miserable life and I don’t want to improve anything because I have absolutely no strength to do so and I hate life anyway. I believe that good moments aren’t worth living for. And it’s not worth to live as me especially. I’m damaged to the point where nothing can make me happy. So, what the hell am I waiting for. Is it just fear of the unknown? Is it just because I can’t imagine not being able to observe life anymore, or what will they do with my body, or […]
You spend your whole life trying to please people, but in the end the person you need to be pleasing is yourself. With me its different I try to make people happy and I try to please everyone and I know I cant please everyone but I try. My whole life I have felt like I am not worth it I have been told by people that I was just a mistake and that I am not worth it and that I should just go die. Well guess what they got into my head all the time I stayed strong for my family and I […]
and I thought it is worth sharing. Never heard of Samuel Barber before, but I won’t forget the name now that I have listened to this beauty.
Everyone’s moving on without me, into a world I don’t understand -sophie kinsella
Broke is a relative term, like sister, cousin, or Uncle Sam -jarod kintz
Most people who think they’re happy are really just stupid –Tok Kitt
“Dead, but not allowed to die. Alive, but as good as dead.” ? Suzanne Collins
Perhaps depression is caused by asking oneself too many unanswerable questions.
I’m too much of a coward to kill myself. And too much of a coward to live
Sometimes you just gotta hope for the hope of having hope some day.” ? Jeffery Thompson
“Maybe you think life is not worth living, but is death […]
Hey I’ve not posted in almost 6 weeks i thought things was getting better but i was joking myself way would they I just cart see things every getting to where its a life worth living and fighting for
New piece that Shakinbakin and I put together. I wanted to give him something that he could really sink his teeth into so I wrote a progressive-themed piece for him to play with. It’s sort of a new style of writing for me, for that reason, but I think it turned out well – mostly thanks the Shake’s incredible jamming out on the track, tbh.
Like normal, the poem is posted below for anyone who wants to read along.
>inb4 extend a metaphor much?
Orbit
A fresh sun dawns on the face of a new son
The opening refrain of a song as yet unsung
A race that’s not […]
–If you are in a system you are not a free man( unless you are powerful, rich, influential)
–If you are out of system and living alone you don’t have a life( because life is real when shared)
–A human is not worth living if he don’t have a life
–Only action a human can do to get freedom is suicide
Take everything in stride and try to enjoy everything for what it is. I understand it’s easier said than done. But take that risk of believing and never giving up anything that’s worth it.Things will run their course and just remember when things get bad from darkness comes light and most importantly always remain yourself never lose sight of you.
For starters, I’m amber. Despite what it was like growing up, I was generally a happy kid. I had my grandpa to thank for that. My family and I lived with him until I was about 10. I was very close to him. My parents didn’t pay much attention to me because of my older sister and twin younger brother and sister they had to worry about. My grandpa was always there for me, he defended me and stopped my dad from beating me. Three years ago he passed away and for three years, I haven’t been the same.
All I want is to be […]
Just another day of fighting with my fiancee. God, I CAN’T wait to find employment and move out of here. I have to. It’s so miserable knowing that I’m a 25 year old who will never be married as long as I’m with him. He’s verbally and physically abusive, and never sorry about it. He controls everything and takes so much from me. When his plans fall through, it’s my fault, or anyone else’s but his. He literally believes that he is God, and should actually be locked up in a psych ward. The amount of times that I should have called the cops on […]
I haven’t posted in a while so thought I’d give an update for anyone who’s interested.
Also, I’m hoping it might give some people a bit of hope? Who knows.
Last time I posted I was literally at the point of ending it all. I’d already tried once but passed out; I’d been taken in by the police on a separate occasion and things were getting messy. I just wanted things over. There didn’t seem to be any other way that made sense. I had one last visit with my psych and they upped my meds. They told me they were putting me into day hospital. […]
if you believe planet earth is not spherical it is flat like a table then you are true
if you believe all Indian mythical gods created this planet it is also true
if you believe you are depressed that is also true
Each group of individuals has some believes and those are true
if you believe life is beautiful and worth giving a shot you are true
if you believe life is a ***** and planet earth is no more place of good people that also true
question is what is real fact?
if all people know the fact that ” human life is pointless and they all living as if they […]