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a sick state of mind

by evildandelions 1/2/2016

written by evildandelions

This morning I woke up crying and in physical pain from grief. There’s too much in my mind to write about it all, can’t even form a coherent organization to it all.

But the sick thing is, I woke up wondering if I should take the pills now or go to a thrift store that has 50% sale on saturday. So, basically, I want to buy clothing and then attempt to hurt or kill myself (unlikely, sadly, although maybe if I added vicodin to the mix- klonopin and vicodin are contraindicated) .

I spoke to my ex yesterday. It was good in ways, to know that she misses […]

1/2/2016 4 comments

My Husbands’ Suicide

by forever2004 12/31/2015

written by forever2004

It’s been 9months since my husband took his life. I’m broken, shattered, unable to move on. I go through the motions of living but I still feel it was yesterday when I found him lifeless. I think about leaving everyday. I am hopeless and helpless, I have no one to talk to or anybody that can understand how this feels. Maybe today is the day I need to leave this realm…

12/31/2015 20 comments

Yes, I feel like sh*t

by disgusting 12/29/2015

written by disgusting

Yes, I feel like shit and I should be allowed to feel like shit.

So, on Christmas day, I went out to eat with the guy that I like at a Chinese buffet. He’s getting his life together pretty well, he’s gotten a car from a friend and had a job off the record. He had to go afterwards though because he is popular and has tons of people in his life. I saw something on his page from the person he’s renting from, which is a girl who likes him (and is dating someone else but here in Chicago everyone has a dozen boyfriends or […]

12/29/2015 4 comments

I was doing so well…..

by run rabbit run 12/29/2015

written by run rabbit run

and then she agreed to talk to me, like she did yesterday…..

and same as yesterday…..Nothing….

cant win for losing…..

and I was doing so much better…..

12/29/2015 15 comments

Goodmorning SP People

by nicole123 12/29/2015

written by nicole123

I woke up and played my spotify and this song came on. It reminds me of my self. It’s about building up a relationship only to break it down with your craziness. I can’t have relationships with people because they can’t really help me, and i’m way too bipolar.

The last relationship i had with a guy was the best i ever had. We met at a concert on the beach on Labor Day weekend. I fell in love with every little thing he did. He was a musician so we always made music together. And traveled. He had such great life lessons and morals. I […]

12/29/2015 2 comments

Maybe it was God’s plan all along

by Lost2many 12/25/2015

written by Lost2many

I haven’t been here or posted for 11 months. Since then, I’ve been taking different anti-depressants, and seeing a therapist. Sometimes they just don’t help, but I knew I had to stay to take care of my oldest cat. I know how ridiculous it sounds, and I know there are are people with far worse things to deal with this Christmas night. My plan was always based on my old guy’s death being the initiating event, but in addition, this summer I suddenly lost a younger car to cancer, and then, after adopting a kitten that melted my heart, I had to euthanize her 12 […]

12/25/2015 22 comments

Protected: I hate myself.

by daitya1989 12/23/2015

written by daitya1989

There is no excerpt because this is a protected post.

12/23/2015 8 comments

Relapse

by SugarPlum 12/22/2015

written by SugarPlum

I don’t know what I’m doing anymore. I keep searching for my purpose and for something…anything that can make me forget everything. Sometimes like a couple of days ago, yesterday, today… I wish there was a little pill that can erase all my memories. I want to wake up a new and different person and see life and see the world with a different perspective because i can’t do it on my own. I’m more than damaged, I’m half dead.

12/22/2015 4 comments

Lonely

by evildandelions 12/21/2015

written by evildandelions

My friend that was visiting left yesterday. Now I’m alone and I don’t know how to adjust. I feel like my ex-fiance is supposed to be here, with me- I miss our life. It feels unreal. It feels empty. I used to have someone I could share everything with. Now I’m just alone; there’s nobody to care about me like she did/does, to be there to comfort me every time I cry, to share even the mundane parts of life.

I don’t think I’ve ever felt such painful sadness despite being depressed for a decade and other painful events. Of course, maybe that’s just proximity bias. […]

12/21/2015 0 comment

The Nobody; Yesterday, Today, Tomorrow

by Hance_Soelow 12/18/2015

written by Hance_Soelow

There is something liberating about accepting being a nobody.

I have been bullied, belittled, and abused as a child in both my school and in my family. For the longest of times, I have done my best to improve my reputation and status in society in response to these actions. However, I have failed time and time again. After numerous short lived careers, huge heart aches, and personal failures, I have come to the realization that, indeed maybe they were all correct before. Maybe indeed I am a nobody.

If it is truth, then all my past failures, misfortunes, and regrets can be rationally, logically, and justifiably explained […]

12/18/2015 7 comments

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