January 11th, 2012by kate-256
I don’t want to live anymore, but at the same time I’m just so scared of dying. I’ve never tried to commit suicide before but I have been thinking about it for awhile now. It’s like my whole life is just a one big mistake. Almost every classmate of mine hates me and I don’t even know why, I’ll never be good enough for my parents, it seems like all they want is for me to be perfect but I can’t give them that. I’m failing school and my parents are mad at me for that, they think that I’m not even trying but I am, I am trying just so hard but I just can’t concentrate enough. Lately I feel like this depression of mine is getting bigger by the day. Right now ending my life seems like my best choice, the only things stopping me are my parents and this fear of death, I wish that I wasn’t such a coward. I probably won’t be strong enough to do it today but I don’t think that I can go on like this much longer, I just want all of this pain to stop. One day soon I might just go and commit suicide.