Well if you read my last post about 2 months ago, you will know what I was worrying about happening in my life with my girlfriend and college. September 5 th. My girlfriend was in her dorm alone and wanted to do something on a Friday night so she went over to a friend of a friends apartment. She made brownies and watched a movie with this guy. At the time she was completely ignoring me, so I did what probably. any college kid would do. Get drunk. I had drank way more than I should have and ended up climbing over the railing of a 6 story fire escape. At one point I only had one hand on the railing. Somehow some people found me and called the cops. When the officer grabbed my wrist I let go and tried to fall. When he finally had a hold of him I begged him to let me drop the six stories. I was net to the hospital and then spent 3 dad after in a mental hospital. Since then my girlfriend pretty much hates me for what I did. I was hardly depressed before the whole thing happened. But now I don’t think iv ever been so depressed in my life. Being so close to killing myself has kinda scared me away from attempting it. But i guess it has crossed my mind. I don’t think I could ever do that to the people I love.
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You probably should have just dumped her for getting cozy with another dude on the couch instead of you. You’re putting too much of this on you. Have some respect for yourself. When the other person disses you like this, show them the door. I wouldn’t put up with that shit.
I agree with the poster above here BUT I will say this – I believe you will 100% look back in a relatively short space of time, a year maybe, which doesn’t seem relatively short spaced I know, and think there is no way she’d even be worth getting a bit down over, let alone this. You will go, I promise, from reacting passive aggressively like this (aggressive towards yourself to passively make a point to her without actually confronting her) to acting ASSERTIVELY over her and in life in general. It is very hard to do and I struggle myself sometimes. But you will get there.