she told me to buy a notepad. a special one. i bought one that’s green because that’s my favorite color. then she told me to make a list of things that make me feel good, for times i can’t think straight and all i can think about is killing myself. i started writing.
listening to music.
reading a book.
writing.
smoking (cigarettes).
having sex.
taking the dog for a walk.
she told me to add new things every time i come up with ones. it does help sometimes. sometimes not. sometimes i’m so depressed i forget i have this notepad. it’s taking all of me.
anyway, thought you might like the idea. it can be helpful at times.
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Nice idea. I will use it.
Thank you very much.
Ps. Like greenness very much too… it is a color of grass, and the summer. It’s when I’m less depressed.
When I was in the hospital that was one of the exercises we did. It didn’t help me personally, but my depression doesn’t stem from typical reasons. But, it did work for the majority who were in the hospital with me, and I do think it’s a good technique, just not for some.
It’s good that you’ve found something that helps, even if just for the slightest, ease your suicidal tendencies. I don’t know if you’ve shared your story yet or not, but I recommend you should. It’s obviously up to you and only you, but the majority of those on SP are very welcoming and caring for our fellow members and will try in any way to help whether it be from just saying hi to giving in depth advice. Again, up to you, but it helps.
Its a good idea to do that. Keep a log of the blesssigs that you have
count your blessings. be thankful too, because no matter how bd you ight think you have it
there are many who have it much worse
nice post
If I had a green notebook I’d put in it horse racing, beer, cigarettes, girls with tattoos or maybe one in particular, music too but I struggle after that. Do things that you like, be around people you like and who care for you then you can’t go wrong. That’s the trouble with the internet, most people you meet online are likely to make things worse for you.
good luck.
Great idea. Thank you for sharing.