Collapse.

“Why the fuck did I even work so hard if it was just going to end like this anyway?”

Because your ticket to the future is always blank.

You can change your life around. It’s not impossible. Yeah, it’s hard and you’ve probably been through tons of hard times and you always seem to get through them but only to find yourself in another hard time. And you have to fight to get passed that one too.

But life is full of ups and downs. Goods and bads. And we fight because we are human.

“My support groups have banished me, my love life is non existent, and I am alone 90% of the time.”
Everyone has a point where they feel alone or no one loves them. And then, one day, they meet someone nice. Someone good for them. They may feel like it will never come, but it usually does. You just have to wait AND work to make it happen. I know you don’t have to energy to make it happen, but you can try. Just start by taking small steps. There are women / men everywhere. Just start a small conversation. Men / Women are all humans and have a basic instint to find a mate. You never know if the next person you meet will be your person of destiny.

“What the hell is the point in going forward anymore?”

Because forward is where opportunities and a different life are. They aren’t in the present. You feel like crap and feel depressed and just so empty and devoid of emotion, but that’s right now. You can’t see the future. That’s why you move forward. Because in the future is where better things might be. And they’re more likely to be there if you take steps to move yourself toward such a future.

Right now feels like crap. The future has endless possibilities. (Even if you don’t feel like it does).

This isn’t meant to sound harsh, but rather motivational. I know it’s hard to feel motivated and muster up the energy to do these things but I recommend pinpointing what you don’t like about your current life and then taking steps to change it.

Don’t have a love life? Get on a dating website or just chat up people outside.
Don’t like your job? Look for a new one. Begin writing a resume.
Tired of feeling alone? Get involved in a volunteer group in your community or just chat up a stranger.

Things won’t magically change on their own. You’ve got to start making steps to change them. I know it’s really crazy hard to do that when you barely have energy to get out of bed, but if you look hard you can find it somewhere inside of you.

I know how you feel.

I’ve had that “hit with a ton of bricks” moment before. Last year I lost my job, after devoting 4 years with lots of overtime to my company. They didn’t renew my contract for a really dumb reason. All because I didn’t inform the right person about a rather personal life choice. However they said it DID affect the company’s image. Although I told the people at the company, they told me I didn’t need to tell anyone else because it was personal. And it was.

And a few months later, one of the higher ups comes and says they can’t keep me because I didn’t tell HIM.

It was tough because I had just moved into a nicer apartment with my wife. And now being unemployed, we could barely afford the rent.
At the same time I was having a lot of health issues. I had severe headaches and the doctors finally did a scan. And it showed a big dark area right in the middle of my head. The doctors looked really scared. They told me to wait a few months and come back because it “might” be congenital and not cancer. (Thankfully it did turn out to be congenital and not cancer).

But I was super depressed. I knew it would be hard to get another job since I don’t live in my home country and I am not fluent in the local language. I wanted to give up so much. I was tired of fighting and getting dragged down.

But I knew there must be a way to make things work. I thought about it lot.

I knew that I was good at my job and was successful at my last company. I had the best sales and highest customer satisfaction out of all my co-workers.

I decided to start my own business. It wasn’t easy. I had no start up money and couldn’t get a loan because I am not a citizen here. I made everything on my own. My “business” is just me. But clients come because I know what I am doing and I have a good reputation.

Now, it’s really busy, and it’s hard. My salary is half of what it was. But I’m getting back on my feet. I’m getting the hang of it. Things are going faster. I’m getting better at it and in 6 months I haven’t lost a single client. I’m really proud of that.

You CAN do it. It just takes time and perseverance to climb over those tough times. But with a lot of thought and planning you can move forward. Even if you have to do it alone.

Trust me, there are days where I am so depressed I don’t want to work. But I know if I don’t, things will just get worse. I have no boss to push me to work. I must push myself.
You have to push yourself to accomplish what you want to do.
It’s nice if we have support – someone to push us. But sometimes we don’t and in the end we must take the helm because we can’t always rely on others. Becoming self sufficient is key.

Just start with baby steps and keep up the momentum. Don’t stop. And if something shitty happens, deal with it when it happens. If it knocks you down (and it usually will) get up and keep pushing forward. Because that’s where better things are.

But the only one who can move you forward is you.