i see myself as a realist. the glass is full to me half with liquid and half with vapor; but it’s all water. i will never tell anyone that it gets better. the older i get, the harder everything is. i do think it is worth getting out of bed each day, even if i’m not working. i live for fleating moments of happiness. it’s always something simple. i take joy in nature. just a 5 minute walk can change my mood. but in general, my heart is half full of hate & half with love. i am good at hiding the hate, but after 3 years @ starbucks i could no longer smile @ the customers. i was actualy fired for not smiling. thank God Kmart does not care if i smile. if i still have a job at Kmart in febuary,then it may be a permanint position. just know that if you see me smiling at Kmart it’s a mask to hide the hate.
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Im sorry to hear about your unhappiness. Me I share some of your issues. I have too found out that life does seem to get harder as you get older. Especially with the world being in the state that it is in now. It used to be so much easier to find jobs or to create a job for yourself and make money.
Now its not so easy. It can hard to just find a crappy job these days and everything is more expensive. I truly feel like the quality of life on the planet has gone downhill since I was a child. I don’t know why so many people have so many kids and bring them into this world the way it is. I think the world is overpopulated and people should cut down on the number of children they have.
Well I hope things work out for you and that things get better for you
Just a mask to hide the hate…hmm…most of the smiles pointed at me whether at KMart or on the street are merely masks.