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  August 14th, 2018 by Hulk

What would make you stop wishing for death?

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Not Sure Why I am Doing This

  August 14th, 2018 by HideousBat

I guess I just want to tell someone what’s on my mind without having to deal with people being scared or trying to intervene.

I think about killing myself all the time. I don’t think I ever will, but I wish I would. I have made a few…gestures I guess? I keep hoping that if I dangle my feet in the pool enough times I will take the plunge, but so far no luck. The only ways that I have access to are either really painful, really frightening, really difficult to do correctly or some combination.

I wish I didn’t have to do it. I wish I …

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one year

  August 14th, 2018 by iamdarling

one year on the suicide project.

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I´m ashamed

  August 14th, 2018 by PatheticMale

I´m ashamed to continue to post on this site when I read all these tragic stories of people being abused, raped, suffering with mental illness etc. My problems are just not even comparable to that kinda shit. My life has been the easiest shit ever sofar. Maybe beacause I lack the ambition to make it harder for myself. I never had to learn or even attend school very much to get the same grades as very ambicious but dumb people in my class. But It´s different because they are trying and I´m not. Their grades are their success that they had to work on and …

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sorry mom

  August 14th, 2018 by thisisnothing

my mom told me to go drown about a year ago. the thought stuck in my mind and it really just cant be erased or ignored to the point that i actually conidered it. she doesnt love me. it’s obvious. i’m pointless. pointless to the point of my own mother wanting me dead. i decided to be numb and quiet. a bit recently, she said that if i would kill myself she wouldnt care. she shamed me in front of everyone and cursed at me. i know that i can’t bear this anymore. i tried to get help but she told me that everyone experiences …

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Bye Kat

  August 14th, 2018 by LostKat

I’m holding his knife..

I know I won’t do anything, but I feel really close right now.

I’ve never felt so insignificant in my life.

It could all be over so quick, all this pain, and no one would care.

Fuck!

I want a good life, I really do.

I want a house with a wrap around porch, I want to travel the world, I want to have a daughter, I want to have a life with him.

But I don’t think I’m the kind of person to have those things.

I’m too fucked up.

Too mental.

I’m not smart, I’m not pretty, my friend’s don’t even fucking like me.

I’m worthless.

I have nothing to give …

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Ugh

  August 14th, 2018 by spectralgiraffe

I don’t want to go to court on Thursday. I’m really agitated. I’m one of the victims. I hate this. I don’t want to get into trouble.

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How much longer to suffer

  August 14th, 2018 by lonelywanderer

I usually don’t post much detail but it has gotten to the point of where I have to make a decision.DOCTORS don’t understand,they just want to medicate me hospitalize me (been in plenty) I have attended group therapy programs, which are useless to me. I am actually in one now but that was so my doctor didn’t try to petition me. I have done individual therapy which makes me feel even even worse afterwards.  I have been on hundreds of medications and they don’t work. I even tried ECT. It didn’t work and I ended up in a hospital right after my sessions. These have …

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let me die

  August 13th, 2018 by cock fuckin SUCKER mcgee at yer service

Well,  my narcissistic abuse and conditioning kicked in in the throes of my Benzo addiction and now I’ve pushed away and humiliated myself in front of the person I love the most. Now there’s nothing left.  Take everything.  I said it.  Now you did it.

Now go. There’s nothing left of me to take anymore.  You stole,  defiled,  and raped every nook and cranny of me and now there is no me. Now go.  I just want to be alone. I just want to be alone so I can sleep.  Forever. NO MORE NARCISSISTS!  FOREVER! Freedom,  death,  thank you!

Thank you to everyone who was kind enough …

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Question about gender identity

  August 13th, 2018 by fakehappy

I’m aware some people think this is a myth but I known of many people that struggle with their gender identity.

Personally I really don’t identify as a female but also I don’t have characteristics of a male. Recently I thought perhaps I’m adrogenous. So like both but neither. I think it’s a result of trauma and things in the past but also I just never wanted to be female. I wouldn’t get a sex change either though… anyone know much about this topic?

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The Sky King

  August 13th, 2018 by basefree

Richard Russell stealing the plane and doing a barrel roll with it then dying has really moved me recently. I’m obsessed with him at the moment. RIP Sky King.

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Mama why?

  August 13th, 2018 by Itsyaboy.uhskinnypenis

My dad wanted to abort me when i was a fetus but my mom refused.

Why did you have to go and make that decision mama?

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Wishing I wasn’t so fucked up

  August 13th, 2018 by falling_soup

I recently let my mental health control my college education AGAIN. I thought after the two hospitalizations and the constant risk of being homeless almost 2 years ago I would have learned my lesson. I lost my financial aid, I can’t pay rent because I am shitty at keeping a job. I am going through one of my credit cards going to collections because I fucked up how their payment process worked. I am damaged because I was raped. I have depression and I hate myself for not letting the right people in and the wrong people in. I wish I could just be some …

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I Can’t Stop Loving You

  August 13th, 2018 by UnderRavensWing

Today is the day my best friend died from cancer years ago. I really miss her and want to join her. Why do I have to live separately from her? I feel so lonely without her.
“They say that time heals a broken heart but time has stood still since we’ve been apart.” Perfect quote to describe how I feel.

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ARE YOU OK?

  August 13th, 2018 by wearehannahbaker

You know who you are. Come forward. I miss you.

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Silly girl

  August 13th, 2018 by imjustapoorgirlnobodylovesme

Why do I still think he’ll change? Ever since I was a little girl I knew my father had a rough personality, but while I was growing up, it just got worse. You know.. he’s just like his father but the only difference is that my father doesn’t come home drunk anymore, he stopped because of his girlfriend.

My parents are divorced, and I live with my mom but the thing is, I come and visit my father every summer for about 3-4 weeks. Due to that, my father comes to the city to visit me when he can, ha-ha visit “me”, actually that’s just a …

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  August 13th, 2018 by EnslavedByShadows

https://youtu.be/4N1MZC6-K8M

God this hits me right in the feels…. Give me some of your hard hitting songs ..

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MY LAST POST…… PLZ READ.

  August 13th, 2018 by Ihatemylifelikeahater

Idk what’s the best way to express my feelings towards everyone that i love or hate which is so annoying and obnoxious.

Hiding behind a mask of happiness while I’m inside hurting and suffocating.

I just realized that life doesn’t go as u wish.
Not every moment in your life has to be sunshine and rainbows

Why I’m blaming everyone for my own mistakes like i did those i can’t lie about it.
Not anymore.

Is it bullying, cyberbullying, selfshaming, sexual assault, maybe just hate.

I killed myself by myself.

Maybe i was far away from GOD.
Why would god answer my prayers if i didn’t …

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You + Kat

  August 13th, 2018 by LostKat

I want to do something drastic, but I’m scared. I don’t know what I would do if I did it.

I want to go live back at home, just to clear my head. I live with my boyfriend and we… haven’t been working.

I love him so much, it scares me. Sometimes.. he scares me. I feel like I can’t speak up.

He always somehow makes it my fault. Why is it never yours or ours?

It’s supposed to be us against the world! Where did you go?!

Why did you have to be unfaithful? Why? I know I was sick.. I know I am still sick, but don’t you …

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