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The missing Zzz

  October 15th, 2018 by Atintofgreen

Anyone awake?

I can’t sleep.

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12:51am

  October 15th, 2018 by cohw77

its late, and nothing bad happened today, and im thinking about how im going to kill myself.

im not even crying anymore, just thinking. weighing the options. what method will leave my body a mangled corpse versus a peaceful one, where i should go to make sure its not my brother who finds me, what ways will have the best likelihood of successfully ending my life and where i would be able to get the supplies for those methods.

im not looking for advice, it’s just strange and lonely to feel so clinical about something that should probably make me upset. it doesnt anymore.

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  October 14th, 2018 by Tellmewhy

I’m sure that even after l die it won’t be much better than this life.
My life is boring, l wish l had more adventurous life.

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Falling

  October 14th, 2018 by muir

Never thought about falling off a bridge until recently. I pretty much hate heights. It crossed my mind recently and now I am having a hard time not thinking about it. Weird, right?

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What do you carry in your soul?

  October 14th, 2018 by Stable as Uranium

I carry in my soul an unmitigated blackness darker than that of a thousand collapsed suns swiveling precipitously in voiden abjection at the edge of the furthest galaxy forsaken by man..!

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before I die

  October 14th, 2018 by Stable as Uranium

I’m not gonna bother telling you my story but is anyone here from the southeastern/central Wisconsin area? The reason I’m asking is because I figured that I should at least try sex once before I die. Due to multiple factors, including the reason(s) why I want to kill myself, along with self worth, connecting with a very limited amount of people, and autism, I haven’t done it yet. I dunno, I’ve tried dating sites and no one really responds to messages. I get hits due to being good looking but since you have to pay to get your messages read, meh… I’m extremely selective when …

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. . . tribal. . .

  October 14th, 2018 by Once

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WHY IS LIFE SO CRUEL

  October 14th, 2018 by Nike66

I got kicked out of high school when i was 13 and got moved around from shithole school to shithole school all of them being really far away  never getting a chance to make friends. I am 16 and only have 1 friend it has been like this for 4 painful years. Earlier this year it got so bad i stole a car disabled the airbags took off the seat belt and crashed it foot to the floor into a house what should i do?

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2018-10-14

  October 14th, 2018 by spreject

What to do, when you become that guy:
Other people’s “There but for the grace of God, go I”?

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My honest feelings

  October 14th, 2018 by noah5678

I honestly don’t think I’ll ever understand why people want to live so crazy long in this world, like up to age 100. IT JUST MAKES NO SENSE. I literally see no point even living past age 30.

I honestly believe by life will NEVER have meaning. Even if most of my problems went away FOR GOOD; nothing, and I mean NOTHING could EVER make life enjoyable for me.
Like, even when I’m not feeling sad or depressed, life is still never very fun or enjoyable for me. I truly believe that even if I start to feel less miserable one day; nothing will EVER be able …

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PATHETIC

  October 14th, 2018 by PatheticMale

It´s a shame it doesn´t have any accurate translation to my native language. What an extremely powerful, complex word with such profound meaning, so complete on itself. . Language can be so beautiful. A 500 pages book couldn´t describe me and my life better than this one single word.

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  October 14th, 2018 by Tellmewhy

Do you know what can help you? To be yourself around other people.

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Me x my character

  October 14th, 2018 by WITHINtheShadows

What’s the point in insisting being with people and using these chat apps if I hate people? Every message that arrives I boil in anger.

And if I hate people and they make me feel so bad why I am in contact with human beings? In the end is only anger, frustration and depression and I’m always alone.

Too many messages in my smartphone but no one to sit down and have a real chat about sth really nice. So always alone.

Something doesn’t match in my behaviour. I think I’ve been a fraud. I’m deeply antisocial and I built a life where I’ve acted as a sympathetic …

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How I feel about being a US citizen…

  October 13th, 2018 by BehindDeadEyes

This song sums up how I feel about this country, it’s so called values, and the people who hold the real power.

 

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the part of breaking

  October 13th, 2018 by Yikrens

  • childhood myth
  • childhood trauma
  • familiar problems as child
  • over average learning curve
  • lose of interest
  • break of hope
  • suicide ideation
  • complicated relationship
  • suicide attempt #1
  • suicide attempt #2
  • acausal commiseration
  • 2-lined personality
  • very far social network
  • psychosis
  • suicide assumption
  • breakdown of social life
  • runaway
  • theft of data
  • train power line electrocution
  • autism
  • police incident with loss of will for living, skills and unrecoverable state of development, quest or right
  • emigration with challenge to kill me and for gaining sanity in an unknown environment
  • admitted terroristic tendencies
  • death of family member
  • runaway #2
  • runaway #3
  • no labor fitness/field
  • self-harm with drugs
  • suicide attempt #3
  • retirement
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Society’s obsession with living as long a life as possible

  October 13th, 2018 by antithesis

Society’s manic obsession with living as long a life as possible, no matter the quality of that life, is just so absurd.

I feel like my life has run its course and I am ready to go. I have had a privileged life. I worked my dream job. I ate a lot of good food. I went to a lot of nice places. I knew a lot of good people. I had a good-enough time. I was safe and I was secure.

Now I am no longer able to work – I haven’t done so in about 13 years. I am isolated. My health is impaired – …

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What Did I Do?

  October 13th, 2018 by Lifelong Loser

Does anyone else here ask “Why? What did I do to deserve this shitty life?”

I sometimes wish I had murdered or raped or done SOMETHING evil when I was young, just so it would make sense why I have had such a shitty life that, somehow, just keeps getting worse.

Maybe I’m just a shit magnet or life’s toilet.. Maybe someone put a curse on me.

Whatever the hell it is, I definitely don’t deserve it. ESPECIALLY when there are plenty of evil assholes living the high life who are perfectly happy.

Fuck this life… It’s such bullshit.

 

 

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lonely

  October 13th, 2018 by cohw77

this is stupid i know, but does anyone else just feel so stupid lonely? im not even 20 yet so im still really young, i know that i am, but i cant help feeling so lame over this. i have a few friends i guess, but no one that really knows everything. no one has ever had a crush on me, ive never been kissed or gone on a date.
its hard to see my friends dating and breaking up and getting new SO’s when ive never even had one or had anyone vaguely interested in me. it definitely doesn’t help with my belief that im …

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….

  October 13th, 2018 by Unimportant

I’m still in the same bad situation as I was 9 years ago.I have to suffer just because I don’t have the courage to end it all. I want to end my suffering but at the same time,I don’t wanna give these people I live with a reason to party.

Is anybody here forced to live with their uncaring,sadistic parents because of being incapable of taking care of oneself?

 

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For I’ve returned, with less pain

  October 13th, 2018 by Mimo

To have been broken and fed to hounds,

Restiched and tossed once more. I must find my own paths alone.

For I am too broken to be man,

Too heartbroken to feel winds,

Too thought provoken to be alive.

I question whether I should attempt once more, knowing very well that I’ve failed countless of times, but what else am I supposed to Do?

After all that has happened, just forget?

Pretend that it never occurred.

I believe we suffer longer than others,

I understand you want to better yourself, but in doing that it moved me eleven steps back.

I’ll act happy to win you back, maybe that’ll work.

Because with my thoughts invoked in …

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