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Why SP?

March 28th, 2017by Chip

Why do I want to die, to take my own life? Frustration, disgust, mistrust, anger, regret, apathy. Anger is a big one. Regrets, fueled by anger, fueled by mistrust,  maybe I can make a coherent thought, probably not. I’m a better commenter than a poster. When the subject becomes me, I become fearful. I hide. I don’t want attention. I sat in the back of the class, the back of the bus, if the room has a back, you’ll find me there. Please don’t come join me. I don’t make connections with humans. I find the life I’m supposed to be living blase, dull, run-of-the-mill, …

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Life.

March 27th, 2017by _lost._.one_

You’re beautiful, quit this nonsense, turn your chin to the sky, and smile. Be proud of your existence, be proud of who you are. There’s no one like you, near or far. Look at the clouds and breath, fall down, get back up. I love you. Eternally I will love you, love your soul, love for a being of immense beauty. Like every other soul, you are constantly challenged and torn apart. Souls heal though, but not through physically inflicted pain. Look to the moon, for it has all of the answers; the seer of all. In the moon’s brightness you will see yourself, and …

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Love and Hickeys

March 27th, 2017by _lost._.one_

He said he loved me. Said he would never leave me or let me down, never. He treated me right. He treated me nice. Called me his princess, I didn’t think twice. Hands crept upon me, lips locked. Said he loved me. Marked me with bites and bruises, hickeys exposed. Now I have these marks of love and all they do is remind me who you once were. Said you would never leave, but after those hickeys you turned your back. Love and hickeys, are pain and sick to me.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

(not true)   🙂

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It’s Happening

March 27th, 2017by braiNsane

It’s now

It’s then

It’s timee.
swimming in it. I’m drowning, fighting for
Air.

I want to have a say

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A tidbit

March 27th, 2017by velveteennightingale

Too depressed to concentrate on anything today.  Going to go cut now.  I don’t think I can go on normally anymore.  I wish I had someone to tell!  Sorry rambling I know-I know I always say the same thing over and over again.  Ugh.

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I still love her

March 27th, 2017by kamidaka

It has been more than a month. I sometimes check her twitter, I’m sorry I can’t help it.

We’re so different, so so different. Her world is so different from mine. I feel the crack on the floor separating us more and more. She’s so far away from me in every sense.

And yet I still love her so much. Would it be better to forget her before I die or take this huge feeling to my grave?

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Feel

March 27th, 2017by Fallingstar

I want to do so much with my life, to travel, love, create, and light up a room. To be that person, the only everyone wants to befriend. I want that fiery passion in my chest that never dies… But at the same time I don’t. I just want to lay here and let this dark cloud consume me so I don’t have to feel any more.

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bye

March 27th, 2017by ignorance will prevail

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I’m back guys…

March 27th, 2017by Ashley

I’ve been really happy, since about October 2015. That’s when I met my love….but he got arrested a month ago. Honestly, what he’s being charged for, I don’t think he really did it. And if he did, then I think it was just a stupid moment in his life. When I heard the news I wanted to die. I didn’t want to deal with it. I’m in college, have a job(for now, only for 2 more weeks), but love with my mother. And I’m only 17(18 in July). I had finally fixed everything in my life, or most everything. He made, and still makes, me …

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How it could/would have been very different

March 27th, 2017by Waldschläfer

This thought enters my head from time to time, and I thought it worth sharing. It’s not a regret, not something I dwell on, but just something I have learned to observe and accept as the kind of recurring thought that the noisy human mind produces every now and then … debris from a lifetime of suffering.

Some of you know that I’m a sort of “spiritual seeker” (no words are precise, when it comes to spirituality) who looks outside of conventional human existence for meaning. My gospel is so prevalent on this site that you couldn’t miss it if you tried your hardest….

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Hey.

March 27th, 2017by suicideisnotachoice

Hey. Bad day today. Haven’t gotten up. Anyone else having a bad day? (Probably 99% of you)

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It Would Seem I’ve Become a Ghost

March 27th, 2017by thehusk

The problem with cutting yourself off from society and attempting to opt out of the system is this: sooner or later, you will need someone to speak for you. Someone to confirm that you are in fact you, and not some impostor. And suddenly, things get horribly complicated, and you have to start admitting to complete strangers that you have none of the required markers of normalcy or adulthood.

No, I don’t have a driving license. Driving makes me anxious, and I can’t afford to run a car anyway. No utility bills, as all I purchase is food and other retail items. I haven’t been employed in a …

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March 27th, 2017by Flower

I don’t wanna live but I don’t wanna die either …thats life..pointless….

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I bought some time

March 27th, 2017by kamidaka

I bought some time, a month or so, maybe a bit more. That’s ok, hopefully it’ll be enough to finish the story.

I feel kinda guilty thought, this time it actually costs money.

They’re paying for the lies they want to believe, I guess.

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What’s your version of hell?

March 27th, 2017by eternaldarkness

If there’s such a thing as hell, what would be your version of hell?
-You’re an anorexic but you’re put in a room full of food and forced to eat and eat and eat…
-You’re afraid of spiders but there’s a million spiders crawling all over you…
-You hate children but you’re put in a giant room with a ton of crying, loud, annoying, snotty babies
-Being stuck on hold with customer service forever and ever, “press 1 for…press 2 for…” looping forever until you’ve been driven insane

These are just examples. What’s your version of hell?

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Bad way to die

March 27th, 2017by eternaldarkness

What’s a bad way to die? Having a fucking heart attack or brain aneurysm when trying to deal with customer service. I swear, I must’ve burst a couple of blood vessels somewhere this morning. All I wanted to fucking do was buy ONE lousy gift card on ebay, and every time it went to paypal, it wouldn’t let me pay. It kept asking me to verify, and every single time I verify, it tells me I’m verified, then when I go to pay, it makes me verify all over again. After 10x of that, it completely locks me out of …

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Heroin

March 27th, 2017by scottflorida

I told my story before but it’s been a week and I am still here. I am a chronic pain sufferer who has been married 27 years. My wife has just admitted to an affair and feelings for this person. It is mainly because I lost everything, my company, our lifestyle etc etc year ago and I have never recovered due to several spinal surgeries. The ache in my heart is so overwhelming, I continue to push her away due to my depression. I cannot live without her, both emotionally and financially. I dont want to miss my sons wedding in October, grandchildren and growing …

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March 27th, 2017by Chip

 “Pain, pain, go away!”, the hearts you crush exclaim today.

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Take flight

March 27th, 2017by braiNsane

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