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I couldn’t do it!

June 22nd, 2017by cecilia108100

I have gone through my day in a haze, tears spilling down every once in a while when I would think about my mother and the distress she would experience in my absence. It know it would hurt her the most. I had an appointment to go to early in the day, and in the car, I contemplated life. I would see a group of friends chattering in a bubbly state, an old man petting his dog, a couple going out to dinner, a woman jogging to get in shape, two man talking by a bar, a woman behind a desk working, etc. and in …

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I just want to die

June 22nd, 2017by Shesnotlikethis

Whats the point of all this really , we’ll all be dead soon anyway. Everyday I make goals , act superior to all the hate and pain and the drugs, smoking , drinking and hide and do them all . I can’t stand this hopeless feeling. I WANT TO DIE , not exsit , disappear. I keep telling myself that everyone feels this way , I’m not alone in this awful sinking feel of dreading the morning sun , the reminder that I have to breath one more breathe in this cursied life. And its not even a bad life I have people who love …

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Pointless

June 22nd, 2017by ffsokaythen

I recently somehow ended up out of a relationship with a guy I really love. I’ve managed to come out of some clouds recently, and I can see the things I couldn’t see before. The things I did that I didn’t know I was doing b/c of my anxiety and depression. It’s too late, though. Everyday, I have been crying. He either doesn’t contact me or it’s very sparse. I just want so badly to tell him all the things I have learned about myself and the relationship since we broke up. I feel like everything I have wanted, I didn’t accomplish and everything I …

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Don’t you feel devastated when

June 22nd, 2017by wanttodie2

People just ignore you because you are not attractive and give attention to the beauty ones?

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…..darkness

June 22nd, 2017by Fractured Mind

I am laying here, in the darkness…feeling in a way that I have not felt in a very very long time….sheer utter panic, terror, and this deep sinking feeling of a void so vast and deep, that it can only tear me apart one molecule at a time.

If I could do my method right now, I would…. I honestly would…no hesitation no nothing…. just slip it on and be gone…

Only, I am waiting for one last piece of it to arrive…. *sighs*

I hate this feeling, I hate what it does to me…

I’m laying in the dark, telling myself, just don’t breathe….just don’t breathe…. …

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I need someone..

June 22nd, 2017by duringmydarkestdays

……..

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Don’t give up!

June 22nd, 2017by suicidaldreamer

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IF….

June 22nd, 2017by Fractured Mind

If you were to die today, what would you miss and why?

Me….music….that’s about all….everything else is just a darker shade of gray.

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He Means Well

June 22nd, 2017by AnnieBear

One of my coworkers has really taken it upon himself to encourage me to live life more. Asking me how I am, about my love life, giving me advice and compliments. I appreciated it at first, I still do I guess, but its getting on my nerves…

Hes “triggering” me. Jesus. So much that i went to the bathroom on my break and cried last week. And ive relapsed to crying every day since. Why? Because of the awful reminder that im lonely.

I had lulled myself into a state of “okness” by smoking weed off work. Like, all the time. Originally I intended to …

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All over a Gal

June 22nd, 2017by ThatCrazygug

Like any story worth telling this is all about a gal. We were in every single class together for a while and I really learned to love her. We text virtually 24/7 but we never see each other real life. I miss her and I really need her. Now why would one girl make you post on a suicide forum, well because she really is all I have anymore. I was once that annoyingly  happy guy who had everything he wanted but I lost it all. All grandparents all died on me, my father has dementia and can’t even remember my name anymore, I moved …

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Already failed once

June 22nd, 2017by thiihfdtvjot

Six years ago I had tried to end my life. I swallowed shards of glass only to end up nearly dying and being hospitalized from going into septic shock. I was so angry my attempt failed and ended up just skating through all the treatment I had to complete, just like everything else in my life. I don’t see the point in being alive anymore. I feel it’s useless being here, and to be quite honest I feel I shouldn’t even be here since my attempt failed. By the days and months that go on I feel like this time here on earth is useless …

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Thoughts/opinions

June 22nd, 2017by Fractured Mind

On H2S ?

I already have my nice painless method in place but was reading up on it and curious on others thoughts and comments.

If done correctly within as little as three breaths can instant kill. Bam!!! All done.

I am adding this to the mix for people who would like to read further, not that one, cannot google shit and whatnot.

https://chemm.nlm.nih.gov/chemicalsuicide.htm

and for further reference:

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I was done lol

June 22nd, 2017by CARLOSPEJUAN

I think I’ve been done since 3rd grade for some reason at that point I lost interest in life. Well I was trying to write this note I got cut off and then I came to that realization.

One day in third grade I just went from happy, to possessed and suicidal. I made a song, I want to die (that’s literally all it said). Started cutting with scissors, which is why I find cutting to be innate in some and not just a trend. This was before emo had its big come out and people started cutting to be part of something.

Eventually my mother yelled …

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How do I deal with Loneliness?

June 22nd, 2017by cecilia108100

This morning I woke up, and woke my phone to check the notifications, there was not one. No one cares about me. I Feel So Lonely.

I came to this new school a couple months back, I was the new girl and some people did talk to me in the beginning but that soon faded out. No one ever asked to hang out. I distracted myself by hanging out with people from out of town, but these “freinds” just used me, now I have no one.

I am 16, my life shouldn’t be so dark, but it is and I feel like I’m suffocating.

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Dream

June 22nd, 2017by Diem S. Sky

I dreamt of the girl I love. I dreamt she had changed. In my dream, I was in the middle of a huge party which also doubled as a business meeting. I was trying to be a social butterfly, going around and talking to many people. There was a young man in my dream too, a couple years younger then me…perhaps 18 or 19…who I was kind of flirting with. We made out at one point. He was kind of like my older self, a boxer who thought he was above other martial arts, who believed in nothing but himself. A narcissist.

Everyone was waiting in …

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And the world goes to shit even further

June 22nd, 2017by Fractured Mind

https://www.google.com/amp/www.mirror.co.uk/news/technology-science/death-pact-suicide-helpers-facing-249237.amp

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Peace in pain

June 22nd, 2017by Broken_Masterpiece

Today I find peace, in the pain in the loneliness. Yes I live my life normally and smile everyday. I still participate in the community and seem normal. But inside I am broken. And those close to me, who knows most of what I go through don’t notice. I withdraw, I become quiet. And they let me slip away so easily. It used to stress me. But I just don’t care anymore. It is ok. It is all ok. I have found peace in the most unlikely place. Slowly poisoning and the feeling of it gives peace

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John Donne

June 22nd, 2017by Clebbus

Death, be not proud, though some have called thee
Mighty and dreadful, for thou art not so;
For those whom thou think’st thou dost overthrow
Die not, poor Death, nor yet canst thou kill me.
From rest and sleep, which but thy pictures be,
Much pleasure; then from thee much more must flow,
And soonest our best men with thee do go,
Rest of their bones, and soul’s delivery.
Thou art slave to fate, chance, kings, and desperate men,
And dost with poison, war, and sickness dwell,
And poppy or charms can make us sleep as well
And better than thy stroke; why swell’st thou then?
One short sleep past, we wake eternally
And death shall be no

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What gives me relief of my anxiety and stress

June 22nd, 2017by ClairDeLune

is the thought of tying a noose around my neck. I don’t mean actually going to the store, buying a rope, and doing it. There are reasons why I don’t want that, at least at the moment. When I am alone and get anxiety over a bad memory or something happening in my future, I just close my eyes, imagine the rope around my neck, and it puts me at ease with whatever I am thinking about. “What bad can happen if I have that option!”

Is that weird?

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Could Party Drug Ketamine Be a Treatment for Depression?

Could Party Drug Ketamine Be a Treatment for Depression?

June 22nd, 2017by SeeSmith

Special K, a Vietnam-era anesthetic favored by ravers looking for an intense high, is being given another chance – this time as legitimate medication.

http://www.rollingstone.com/culture/features/ketamine-future-of-depression-treatment-w488998

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