I’ve never been the type to ask for help. I am a very independent person, who likes to do everything on my own.
I cry out for help in my own way. But no one is lisenting. My brother usualy hears the crys but he’s been working a lot lately. My mom just seems to ignore them. She just seems to care more about her friends then her own daughter.
I know she can’t be stupid. I’m falling back into my same ruotine. I never eat. And when I do I get sick right after. I sleep A LOT. I don’t only sleep cuz I’m coming down from some drug I sleep cuz it’s the only way I can get away from my worries. Even then it doesn’t always work.
There’s a lot behind why I feel like this. But I really don’t want to get into it. I just hate how when one thing brings me down everything else just seems to fall right back on me.
I keep thinking how I’m home alone i could over dose and no one would be here for hours to find me. Sometimes suicide sounds like the only thing, the only one who will lisentn, and I know suicide will always be there for me
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it’s not as bad as you think.
i worry a lot just like you…
When i jot down the positive side and negative side of ”suicide”
it comes out, nothing positive left
people will sad, even i will be sad if i die now,
because i dont have any chance to create new possibilities in the future
we only have one chance to live on earth.
you know how many people want to live but they don’t even have a chance because they’re in an environment that don’t allow them to exist, but we should be thankful that we can see the sunshine, drink water, even using the computers…etc. think about what you already have. plan a new life for yourself, it is never too late.
I’m listening. I’d love to talk to you and be there, no lie. I’m not sure exactly what you’re going through but I’ll tell you I can relate to feeling like suicide is the only thing they’re from you. I won’t try to talk you out of it if that’s what you really want to do but if you just want someone to talk too I’m here, anytime I don’t mind at all. Don’t hesitate to email me please.
email: harber_a@yahoo.com
***I apologize for my spelling, I meant “there for you.”
I know that having suicide as an option is a very relieving thing on days when things seem hopeless but its not the “only” thing there for you. Your brother seems like someone who cares about you a lot and wants to help you but he cant if your not here. And days when he cant be there id be honored to stand-in. choffelder1029@hotmail.com if theres ever no one, or anytime at all if you want for that matter