Why does it feel like my life is a horrible joke? One big fat joke. That is all I will ever be. I hate this alot. I have little to no friends. School life was a big mess from start to finish. It seems like when ever I am noticed in this world its only to be laughed at. I have not much to say since I have never done this but maybe someone will understand me? I have bad social problems, fat, ugly and no friends and I have an even personal problem that few understand. I feel no matter what I do its wrong and I cant do anything right. I dont see whats so special about life. But then again i dont have one…I feel so horrible each day but then again I brought this on myself right?! I dont know God brought me here so it cant be all my fault. I wished only that this life hurries up and ends so one day maybe I wont be a joke anymore? Not like anyone would miss me. The only one who truly loves me is my grandmother. Well I dont got the guts to end my life tonight or tomorrow or even ever, But I pray that when the time comes I will be forgotten and the joke will end.
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Life can most definitely feel like a cruel joke, leaving one to wonder what is wrong with them. Nothing is wrong with you, there maybe other reasons why you are feeling like you do. Like depression and bipolar type disorders can alter your thinking pattern, making things seem bigger, or more personal than they.
Hang in there and if you would liek to talk more… myworldmyplanet
Much Love and Blessings,
Dani
This is the jungle, kiddo, and not the paradise and sunshine the school system shoved up your butt. We’re in for a wild ride, unless you leave early. Appearances are everything in this place, and nothing really more. Either you live with that reality, or pass away. There will be another to replace you as long as there are drunken women with wide legs. Count on it. Sorry to tell you that.
That Jason kid doesn’t know what the hell he’s talking about. DON’T listen to him. life is a wonderful thing. all you need to do is enjoy it. many people feel the same as you. trust me, it will all be fine. talk with people that have your same feelings and likes/dislikes.
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Actually Jason is right. The sugarcoating people like galvin are the reason why people are disappointed with life because they say things like “life is beautiful” and shit. LIFE IS PAIN. Accept it and move on. By embracing your pain,each day it will feel less and less. You need to be stronger to survive in this world. But all of this is meaningless if you can’t find any passion or drive in life, that’s something different and probably where you are. Mix Pain with existential angst and a lack of direction = suicide.
Search within, what do you want? Keep “Life” out of it, get some professional help and talk things through, you will be amazed what you can achieve..what do you have to lose?
Jason and volaju are on the right track, but even when you’ve accomplished something (I have a great career that I’m very good at) if you have no one to love and nothing to look forward to life is not worth living. Other people really do not care about you – it’s their selfishness that makes them want to keep you around. If they had any idea of the pain and uselessness we fell, they would just let us do what we need to do…
I’m not gonna be like everyone else and tell you ” oh you gotta live” or ” there alot of people worse cases then you” cus you know that already but your case is probable just as bad to you as their case there. I wont say ” oh, your probable deppressed and needa go on meds cus if your sick of your life then there has to be something wrong with you” People think life is really important, that you HAVE to live it, and if you don’t then theirs obviously something wrong with you. thats not true. it’s your life. This is it, there is no second chances. You might be thinking ” I didn’t ask for this” The way you live your life is clearly up to you, you wanna know why? cause its yours. no one can write it and no one can choose it, you can go anywhere or do anything, just be prepared for the consiquences. Pain is annoying to deal with because its just soo, annoying, day in and day out thinking “would it be better if I wasn’t around, why am i here? why am i still here…” but sometimes you just have to forget your in pain, think your not like everyone else, you can handle it because your strong. I mean why would you write a forum about it? that must of took guts. But what you want to do with your life is up to you, even if people write forums presuading you, it doesn’t nessasarly mean it would work, it most cases it prob wont because you’ll think “they don’t understand” To end something that never begin, well then you need to begin it now. You still have a road to travel, just start a new path and dont follow the one written. recreate it, begin a new you. But then again, this is your life, what you do with it is your choice, just whatever choice you make… don’t regret it. There is no turning back. and who knows, you might miss sometihng really good ahead.
Hey, people can be cruel. You aren’t doing anything wrong. Ignore the jerks out there…they’re only mean because they have no lives and nothing better to do. I’m also sure you have more than what you think you have. And I promise people would miss you if you were gone. I am currently in high school and I see alot of people who think the same way as you do. They’re all wrong though; a lot of people care its just hard to realize that for yourself sometimes.
Jason, don’t be broken. Keep on going. Your appearances doesn’t matter, it does your strength and spirit, determination and the will to do great things. Be like Frederick Douglass and end prejudice. People can be cruel because they’ve been badly influenced, and made to think if he’ll suffer everyone does so. Be great and standout. I’ve been through hard times and I’m happy now (even though not that happy). Life is fate, so don’t back out. People SHALL miss you when you’re gone. For example, I’m sure your teacher will miss you, or your secret admirer who doesn’t have the courage. Don’t turn back, you might be one step away from the High Heavens. I believe you can do it, just like me. I’ve been through hard times since I was 8 years old and I’m 19 now.