Let’s look at this in terms of reasons people use to live. You know, all those annoying people who go “Count your blessings!”. Well, here are my blessings. Thanks a whole fucking lot, asshole.
Dad- Strongly dislikes me because I’m constantly disappointing him in that I don’t take good enough care of my health and that I am not smart enough. He loves all my sisters better than me, because there’s already one he loves for being cute, for being smart, responsible, nice, etc. There’s no role left for me, except for the stupid, loud, tagalong. I know he hates me, he just tries to hide it. Not good enough, daddy, not fucking good enough.
Stepmom- Stupid fat ***** who hates me and all of my sisters, except for one, for ruining her stupid fat life. She hates doing anything for me, so I try not to ask her, and she doesn’t care if I don’t ask her,she’ll still list off how much she hates me and all the reasons. She loves her son more than me, obviously, and won’t let me even treat him like a brother or yell at him. She’s a ridiculous ***** who plays favorites and trust me, I am not her favorite at all. I hate her right back.
Stepbrother- Fucking overweight little brother who thinks he’s special coz his parents are still together. He’s a fucking rude brat, I hate him and he’s always fucking being rude to me. I wish he would die too, I wish I could take him with me.
Mom- Fucking annoying. If I’m sad, she’s sadder, if I’m upset about something, her day was worse. I cant even be unhappy. And on those rare occasions when I’m happy, she gets mad at me for being happy. Fuck this, I can’t live with her, I wish she would just leave me alone or get happy. It’s ridiculous.
Sister (21)- Thinks she’s fucking special even tho she’s lazy. She’ll hurt my feelings coz I thought she was my friend, but too bad I guess not, she’s just self-absorbed and hates me, too, probably. I hate this shit. None of my family loves me. They all just disappoint.
Sister (19)- Genius. Stupid fucking know-it-all-selfish-bitchy-genius who my parents love more than me, who cant stand wasting her time on me, I hate it. I wish she would die. She makes my life so much harder.
Sister (17)- Fucking whore. whore. whore. whore. whore. whore. whore.whore. whore whore whorewhorewhorewhorewhorewhoe self-absorbed WHORE. I HATE HER. SHE Expects me to be pretty and happy and fucking WHORISH too. SHE CORRUPTS my fucking family. I REALLY wish she would DIE.
Sister (11)- She hates me. I dont know why, but she’s turning into a stupid whore and she hates me and fine fuck that I hate her too.
School: I’m stupid, and sure I’ve got friends. Nice friends, who Ii like, too bad they dont like me coz I’m disgusting and don’t even belong in their group. Kill me now, I ruin their lives. I’m pathetic and disgusting.
Friends/Social: Yeah, I’m the fucking fatugly annoying one who no one likes. That’s my social life. I dont have a boyfriend because I’m not allowed to date, and even if I were, people wouldnt ask me. I’m disgusting. I disgust myself. I disgust other people. Fuck me. I need to die.
Health: Fat. Diabetic. Don’t take care of it good enough for anyone. maybe I’m doing it so I’ll die faster. Maybe I’ll just overdose on insulin. Good plan.
Anything I missed: YEAH I SUCK. I’m stupid and annoying and no one likes me, period. I deserve to die a pathetic death. I will, I’m sure. There’s nothing else to do when my life is fuckign boring and no one loves me. I’m pointless, going nowhere fast. Kill me.