I feel worthless, like all of what I once was has disappeared..
I was clever, creative, pretty, and a good person but now I feel like I am useless at everything (so I am reminded) and just a smudge on the world that must be erased. I didn’t think I deserved all of this but it has come..
I miss my old self…the old self that I can vaguely remember.
I have kept all my emotions and darkest secrets to myself, but now all those emotions and secrets are weighing me down one at a time being placed onto my back, I honestly just want to die, no one is like me. I am not popular and perfect anymore, I am now a social outcast, a freak that needs to die for the good of everyone else.
I am planning this Friday at 12:40 to kill myself in the girls bathroom at school. I want all the people who have put me down in life to feel the guilt I have felt for years just for being there.
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Hey I’m a 20 year old girl and I had a horrible time in high school too. I don’t want you to harm yourself, because those kids have no sense of guilt or empathy, hence them putting you through hell everyday. If you want to talk, lemme know.
i know how that feels i felt that for years that i dint deserved this life or hell but ya i am in high school to so i know exacly what you mean and i am hear if you wanna talk to (hug)
there’s been a study that found that those who strive for perfection have a greater risk at dying prematurely. Thus the real perfections is our imperfections. High school will pass soon enough, and college will open the doors to freedom. I was always the social outcast, and I tried multiple times during my terrible run in high school to permanently leave. but please just wait until you experience freedom, in life. if it’s not what you wanted, then make your decision. at least try everything once.