I didn’t cut myself for uhm, about two months. Today I relapsed badly. I also relapsed on purging, something I haven’t done for a long time… I hate myself so much. I’m such a failure. I’m so fat and ugly and a freak. I’m done debating killing myself. I’m going to do it. I’m done living this life. I can’t do it anymore. I have tried for so long to get better, but nothing works. I’m done.