Today I have a lot of tings i have got to get done,but i dont have the energy to do anything. I’ve been walking around my house doing nothing. I didn’t eat anything, because nothing sounds good. My mom and step-dad yell at me for not eating, if they understood how i felt they wouldn’t yell at me. My friend thinks I’m tough because I don’t cry in front of people, but I’m not tough, I’m scared to show people my weakness,because every time i do, i get stabbed in the back.  When I do cry i do it in the shower,or in my closet. Every time i think im going to start crying i look away and swallow the pain. I’ve learned how to do that, I can swallow my pain and store it away, my pain is just building up, im waiting for one day in class when someone says something that really hurt, my pain is going to explode and im just going to hurt them, or myself. Anyway, today my feelings are unusual, i feel on edge, tired, but not enough to sleep. Hopefully tomorrow will be better.
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Hey, I’m sorry to hear today you’re not feeling so well.
I don’t usually cry. I cried once when I was about to suicide, a few weeks ago, but I know what it is like to keep the pain inside. It is hard.
Try eating something, even if it doesn’t feel appealing. Grab an apple and munch it down. You’ll feel somewhat better, trust me.
I went almost 2 days without eating and although hunger was barely there (depression can hurt you in many ways), after I forced down a bow of cereal I felt much better physiologically.
Don’t go too long without eating, you’ll only feel worse.
I ate a piece of pizza, and your right i feel better. thank you.
I’m so very glad.
Pizza always makes us feel better, that’s a double whammy.
hope you are still around and hope you are feeling better