Believe it or not.. Im a 12 year old girl.. Yeah. I really hate life.. So i think I should share my story with everyone..
While I was growing up, I always thought my life was perfect.. But as I got older, i started to see things a new way.. I had NEVER EVER gotten abused by my parents.. They both loved me very much.. And then came along my little brother! Anyways, as the years passed, bills were not being payed, mom started to smoke, things not being told, dad leaving, almost getting evicted from our house.. Ive always been told to look after things because I knew that my mom cant do it alone now with my dad gone…So i did, but I would always feel down.. And I feel that I cant express my feelings and I have lots of anger trapped inside me, just waiting to burst out! I only feel safe when im surrounded by my friends.. But i also LOVE my mom soooooo much!! When im at school, I feel so much happier and I feel like a kid…And then at the end of the school day, I almost cry because I just feel like at my house theres alot of negative energy…
Anyways.. I have tried cutting, but im scared.. So one day i just decided to make it happen quick and easy.. It worked, helped, but not for long..
I have also thought about suicide, but In my mind, i dont want to leave this world because I have some people that love me..I dont know. I want another persons view.. Please help..-Emily
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honey your just stressed and overwhelmed and its natural when your 12 and all of that stuff is piling up and everything that you feel like that but no need to cut or kill your self just find some way to relieve stress
Your response really made me feel better 🙂 Thank you soo much
Write it out, art, music, listening or creating your own. It helps to release some anger, or stress. If that doesn’t work, join a gym, take up defense lessons, that way you get to physically hit something without needing to inflict pain onto others. (I’d do that, but my muscles are deteriorating as it is… besides, my Best friend lets me hit him to release some of my own pain, nothing to strong or painful, just the thought of letting it out.)
Don’t cut yourself, please. You will end up addicted to it and you’ll regret it so very much.
Just hang on, try screaming when you’re alone, punch a few things (wooden doors are great to avoid injury, pillows are great to avoid pain altogether).
Find a release valve that does not involve injuring yourself or others.
This will be over soon. You’ll get a job, a boyfriend, and soon you won’t have time to worry about things. You’ll be busy enjoying life.
Have fun.
There’s always someone out there that doesn’t like you. Many of these people would no doubt welcome your demise if you killed yourself. A good reason to live could be that they want you to die, that’s all the reason you need. Why do them any favors?
Oy…at 12, definitely find someone to talk to. When we’re that young we take responsibility for the pains mom and dad are dealing with.
You’re not meant to take it on, nor is anyone at 12 equipped to deal with this kind of thing. You’re meant to be enjoying your life, carefree.
But because you’re feeling the way you do. The above suggestions are great, follow your heart, not your head…nothing makes sense in our heads and it’s confusing, so it’s good you are aware of the people that love you.
When you’re cutting you’re trying to control something you can’t…so find some pillows, and take your hurt, your anger and frustration out on the pillows…let it all out, you’re entitled to your feel everything you do…instead of taking your hurt out on yourself but cutting. You sound too nice to be doing that to yourself. If there is a trusted elder in your community, go and talk to someone-it’s best to not let these things get bottled up in you. It’s ok to express how you feel. Good luck.