So much pain, still. effective coping? what coping? I am existing. There is nothing wrong with my life except I can’t seem to let anyone near me. I am afraid they won’t want to be near me, so I avoid making it an option.
Just ditched everyone I knew this last month. Haven’t talked to them, haven’t answered calls or texts, just simply stopped talking to them. They tried the first few weeks and now no one calls anymore.
Wrong choice, of course, but I can’t change the way I feel.
There is that need to be just left alone , i want to reach out to my family and friends yet hell lets face it they all have their own lives to get on with and dont need my crap , so i pull away , moved right across the country to find my own space and i find that the only company that i am able to deal with at the moment is the type of company that you find having a drink with a stranger for a few hours and then going home , in thsi i find no threat or judgement from them and if there is well then to hell with them in the first place as they mean nothing to me , so i keep in existing within this coccoon that i have created for myself , it is my tool for just being here for now …
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I do the same.
Just ditched everyone I knew this last month. Haven’t talked to them, haven’t answered calls or texts, just simply stopped talking to them. They tried the first few weeks and now no one calls anymore.
Wrong choice, of course, but I can’t change the way I feel.
Maybe we’ll get better once day…?
There is that need to be just left alone , i want to reach out to my family and friends yet hell lets face it they all have their own lives to get on with and dont need my crap , so i pull away , moved right across the country to find my own space and i find that the only company that i am able to deal with at the moment is the type of company that you find having a drink with a stranger for a few hours and then going home , in thsi i find no threat or judgement from them and if there is well then to hell with them in the first place as they mean nothing to me , so i keep in existing within this coccoon that i have created for myself , it is my tool for just being here for now …