In about 2 weeks im about to have my spleen removed. It is about 3 times its normal size, crushing my stomach so I barely eat, leaves me in a lot of pain, and makes it hard to get up and go to work. I got pulled over for speeding and based on my appearance, the sherrif made me get out for a sobriety test. I told him I’ve been on perks viks and OC for over a year and take each one depending on the pain level. Also that the illness has left me week and unstable. Throughout my whole life I’ve had big eyes. My friends call me Steve Buscemi. Based on my “Big” eyes, shaking legs, and the fact that I used the car to keep me up, he arrested me for a DUI ( driving unhealthy & ill). Back at the precinct since they saw all the needle marks in my arms from the weekly blood work, and saw I have high blood pressure. My spleen is sucking up my blood and I had 2 pints put in me last month but it’s still thin causing high blood pressure. Even though the first words were “I’m not a dr. kind of like an EMT” his assesment was I’m to “high” prob on heroin to drive. They impounded my fiances car made me sleep on the cold hard concrete floor not paying attention to my health. Wouldn’t even let me take my prednisone. Turns out a cop forged a ticket for my car with an expired registration and inspection. Turns out she forged the second one and since I didnt get it my license was suspended for not paying. She even wrote the wrong street i was on for the second ticket and I asked how I could get 2 tickets on 2 streets at same time, but she changed the time also to 1 hour later. They then went to my job and told my boss and the district manager about me. They told them everything they found in my car while embelishing. instead of saying they found pills in expired bottles with my name on it and plain bottles, they said they had other peoples names on it, also told them they found lots of guns and weapons in my back seat. They are airsoft guns and samauri swords in wood cases I make and sell. I got suspended and probably fired because thats not the employee they want (even though i got promoted 5 times in a year and 1 position away from having my own store). They arent releasing my car, and I dont know if I have a job or health insurance just a few weeks from major life threatening surgery. In 6 months I’m getting married. Between the arrest and all the medical bills, my savings acount is almost down to nothing. for the first time in years, I’m living paycheck to paycheck and I’m not sure when that will stop. sometime very soon I think. I am way to sick and have no car to start looking for a new job now. the surgery will leave me out of work for 3 months, now with no income.
I’ve always been a hard worker working 60 plus hrs a week, always do the right thing, and help as many people as I can. I’m a service manager at firestone and I always discount people as much as I could to help them out. On the same day this all happened a customer of 10 years ago filed a lawsuit against firestone over a price quote from a few months back. He needed an expensive part and I told him to go somewhere else that specializes in it because they are much cheaper, and they were. Now he is suing because that one price quote (which he didnt even buy from us) was so high he thinks we ripped him off for 10 yrs and filed a lawsuit.
With how hard everything is coming down on me Im starting to belive it’s fate. I’m a very smart guy who is great at building strategies to move my business forward. I actually believe now that fate wants me to start teaching the American law system a lesson. Not every one they encounter is a criminal, and being deathly ill is not a sign of being under the influance. Just one day completely destroyed my life career, relationship, finances, and everything else I spent my whole life working towards all because 1 cops wants to be a hero. Me killing myself want help anything but me helping to bring down the people who destroyed my life in 1 day (including useless law suit) and teaching them all a lesson will be worth it. There is something wrong with this country if 1 cop can destroy someones whole life just by pushing a few buttons. Why cant it work the other way? He’s not going to loose ounce of sleep from destroying my life, and will probably even get promoted. Why should I go out like that. Why shouldn’t I have the right to cause him to loose sleep. And why do people feel the need to sue over everything and anything. I got t-boned from someone going through a red light and broke several bones and tore my rotator cuff keeping me out of work for 2 years and gave me life long damage to 1 of my arms and i only got $8,000. why do unhappy people get so much more. I’m very upset right now, does that mean if i sue the sherriff I’ll get my millions? or do I have to start blowing up buildings to get my point across? fact is, I’ll probably just bleed to death on the table anyway so what do I have to loose. Just a chance to make a point.
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islandexotik, please submit this to the NY Times. I’m completely serious. You’ve summed up so many things that are wrong with the system, things that lead to the breakdown & ruin of ordinary good people, turning this whole society cancerous. I don’t think I’ve ever read a more fitting epitaph for America.
I completely agree with Scooby.
Something need to be Done for this injustices, or you can opt to just stay silent…but you probably won’t feel any peace for doing the latter, because you do KNOW deep in ur heart something truly needs to be done.
Consider this:
– You write to NYTimes, at least there’s a 50-50 chance that it will spark a Change, a warning, a debate, an eye-opener for many, and even perhaps spark one, two people who might also have similar injustice experiences, and snowballing into a collaborative protests.
The more you submit these injustice stories, obviously the bigger the chances for YOU to do something meaningful, to be part of the damn CHANGE u wish to see happening.
– You don’t write or do anything, and just lament, cry, whine that it is unfair etc,.then your cries probably would only go into the air…and disappear there.
The reality is: this is Real world, and for Real changes to happen, we must do something Real as well.
The choice is always yours,.
but please consider this carefully.
Don’t be overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good
(Be the Light for the darkness) – Romans 12:21
my suggestion, bring to every news media you can, newspaper, live journal, myspace, facebook, news broadcast, radio, anything and everything to say, “LOOK! this is WRONG! and needs to be changed!” everyone would jump on it if they have the chance, the key is getting it out there. sooner or later, that cop will have to not only apologize for his doing, but would even have to pay back for everything he/she has taken from you, and more than likely, you can be on disability for the rest of your life.
islandexotik,
they drive you into this.
Superficially yes.
The fact is you are driven by yourself into that. And they just played a part.
Two years ago, I wouldn’t have thought to visit pathetic site like this, mere all losers.
Not until I’ve also become a loser.
Our clocks are set with different alarm times.
Time to remind us to pay dues for the past, a report time to task, if serious enough to require attention, alarms may even keep ringing in a series.
Some get it done, but many even die to ignore the ringing without knowing the cause.
It’s your own due, you yourself to settle.
And I can help, but only can preping you up.
The first and foremost thing is to kill pain.
From your words, that soft in tone, your spleen may not be so infected, otherwise you’ll be hot in temper.
I think your spleen is mostly ballooning with water, then would be easy.
And the spleen’s function is to secrete hormones and to immunize and to regulate the digestive system.
Here’s some reflective points related to the various system.
There you’ll feel pain, the bigger the pain, the more serious.
At those points, use the tip of your thumb to squeeze, and press, then release. And until the pain subsides.
If your fingers are too weak, use the blunt end of pencil.
Since your spleen is in trouble, your left leg will be most reflective to it. But work on the other leg too.
Now to expel the water from the spleen,
Sit. At the inside of your left upper leg, about 5 fingers width from the knee, at 45° from the top, squeeze with your left thumb, you’ll feel pain.
To expel water through the kidney,
use an elastic bouncing ball, or golf ball, or blunt corner of table.
Under the foot, 3 fingers width down the stem of the 2nd toe, where the depression is.
While you sit, step on the ball against this point, step and release, step and release.
Where which foot feels the greater pain, that side of the kidney is needing more to attention.
To expel water from the bladder,
cross your foot to the other leg, at the side of the sole, down from the big toe to the middle of the sole, press there,
squeeze and press, then release.
The best is to stand up, bend down with straighten legs to touch the toes.
Another good combination point for you.
inside lower leg, 4 fingers width up the big round bone, at the in-side of the bone. If painful there, press to subside.
If it works well for you, you may even try Chinese herbs and consider if to withdraw from the surgery.
Pressing pressure points is like acupunture.
Body system is like a gutter, you flush the debris clean with water as acupunture does, but the exit end still have to be channeled through herbs to break down and dismiss.
Dear islandexotik:
Have you and your fiance considered getting a lawyer? A lawyer could help you with your police problem and your work problem.