Another weekend gone and it most definitly was an up and down one. it started with me wanting to and trying to drink myself to oblivion, literally, I wasn’t goin to stop until I physically couldn’t then keep drinking some more, I ended having a really good night but then I happened to get a txt the next night and it threw me right back into the shit.
I thought things might be looking up but no it is just the same shit and I cant deal with it, my friend pretty much doesn’t want to talk to me because of how depressed I am and I don’t know what to do….
and the nightmare rides on
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Please dont drink your pity, choke out like me jk, whay was the text im a curious insecure moron
Hey wastedlife.
Sorry to here things aren’t going so good for you at the moment. Life tends to do that huh?-get your hopes up then throw it back in your face-
I think I’ve mentioned this on this site before: Life’s like a volcano. (pretty shitty analogyThere are times when things are going alright (dormant period) but then sometimes, there’s this huge explosion and things seem to look really bad and we hit rock bottom. Similarly, during a volcano eruption, the lava and the ash from the eruption destroys people’s homes and the land there. However, the lava and ash and debris actually makes the land more fertile, and better and richer crops grow- but with time.
What I’m trying to say is that if you let yourself be nutured/watered/etc, over time, things will get better, and you’ll be even stronger than before.
@vmy Yea I did see your analogy and it is a very good one, well I liked it, things tend to build up and unless you deal with them they get to a point then just explode but some things you just can’t control…guess you just have to roll with it and take the best of what you can from it..just sucks when all you get dealt are 2’s and 3’s (sorry poker reference there). Fyi volcanoes are one of the reasons why life exists at all
@rogue hmmm tried coking once, not in a serious way at all just to see what it feels like but it happened so whatevs
Hey wasted, once again you & me seem to be in the same boat. I started drinking the other night for the 1st time in ages. It actually felt good for a while. Then something absolutely pointless & random happened, and now my entire life feels like it’s coming apart at the seams. I can usually handle life’s whips (hell, I’ve lived thru much worse)… but like you said…. it’s impossible to deal with the swings back & forth. I can handle torture. I just can’t handle sudden disappointment, just when things start to look up.
Vmy’s volcano is brilliant. I actually saw a live volcano spewing lava in Hawaii once. It was terrible but at the same time you realize half (if not all?) of the Hawaiian islands are the result of volcanos. Beautiful place… when it’s not being consumed in lava & sulfurous fumes, that is….
But yeah, listen to vmy. Things suck real bad right now. But maybe, just maybe, it’s making you stronger, making the land more fertile for another go.
Your poker reference reminded me of that old Steve McQueen movie… jeez forgot the name… Cincinati Kid? …where he was on a roll, but then a bad twist of luck changed the game completely. Good movie if you ever get the chance. And it always helps to divert your mind!