im always awake. idk yesterday it got really pissed and upset because i started to think about how fuked society is. i do this quite often but there was something about last night. i took my thought process to a whole new level and i didnt like it. why do i always have to question evverything to the point where i cant take it anymore. its driving me insane
Same here. It was really bad when I was your age. I would send things in my room flying in my fits of rage. I’d be screaming and smashing everything up except my mp3. But I did destroy my art one time. 🙁 Wish I didn’t do that.
How’s it going now? Do u still feel the same? You can vent out your thoughts in a post.
i just wanna fucking die. im always lonely people dont talk to me not even my cousins who used to be my everything until one night i tried to talk to them about was was wrong they labeld me as a suicidal atheist. they said its ok anna we still love you. little did i know they would stop talking to me. they all took a trip to greece and i was left alone. its not fair. i cant help the way i am.
Sorry to hear that.
I stopped being lonely a long time ago. -_- I think.
Just so you know my cousins stopped talking to me too about ten years ago. I’ve even become distant with all my relatives. But it doesn’t bother me at all. They weren’t my type of people anyway.
Living is painful. Loneliness too. It’s nothing but darkness. Wanna flashlight? lol
And don’t let the label “suicidal atheist” get to you. Trust me it’s not just you who gets called that.
idk…i go on fb and i sit there and grow envious of the lives they live. carefree with not a worry in the world. i sit there and cry as i stare at my screen because they dont even look at me. it hurts so much i just hold my stomach. and then i start to hate myself for letting it get me when they dont look at me.
You don’t have to hate yourself. I was like that too. I’ve been there.
Shit you just made me cry. 🙁 Don’t feel bad about those kinds of things. There’ll be lots more people out there who’ll gladly be your friend and see just how good a person you really are, including me. 🙂 Cheer up.
and lately iv been getting worse and worse. i havnt picked my guitar or my sketch pad up in a month. i dont really write anymore. im just slowly giving up on everything
Don’t give up yet. I know I’m not giving up.
How about you go see a counselor, somebody, a psychiatrist. Taking pills for your depression won’t be so bad.
i tried to kill myself on may 1 2010. i took 8 pills that i was supposed to only take in every 2 hours. i overdosed. i was freking out crying and screaming cause i wanted to die so bad. my ex (the reason why im so fucked up) called my cousin and she came and took all my pills. when my mom found out she called me yelling saying why are you acting like this i said i hated my life. she told me to grow up and stop acting like this you just want attention theres nothing wrong with you. you dont have the balss to kill yourself. my mom didnt care. she was afraid ppl would find out and talk bad about the family. fuck the family
Whoa, you attempted?! For a chick you do have balls!
About your ex don’t beat yourself up over one dude. Then again I don’t know anything about having a bf. Was he good to you? Are you still hung up over him and why?
he was amazing. he was the kind of guy that was hard to believe existed. he was just like me. forced to conform to the preconceived notions of what society wants him to be so he does the complete opposite he was me in guy form. exactly. he wasnt that good looking but i didnt care. it was long distance. i missed hin so much i ended it and we promised to remain friends. but it hurt to much cause we still loved eachother. one day he flippped telling me to kill myself go to hell you ***** i never loved you and its all my fault. i still love a person who hates me
Hard to believe that such a perfect guy could say those things to you.
But yeah, guys can suck. Guys can be so goddamn confusing. They can also play with our hearts if we choose to let them. Well hey at least you’re feeling the love. I never experianced that with any man before. =p
Oh that’s cool. btw I’ve never had a gf too. I’m a solitary girl.
Probably why I never liked a dude in my town is because I’m especially attracted to Japanese dudes. So cute. 🙂
Who’s your preferences?
Ooh that is hot =P
I like mine tall, pale-skinned and mysterious. And of course the size of their manhood matters to me too. Gotta be big but not too big! lol
Are you a virgin? I am and proud to be one too. ^_^
As a virgin do you ever wonder if it’ll hurt when- you know when he penetrates your womanhood? I worry about that alot since I like impressive shafts. Am I making you uncomfortable?
Well it’s nice to talk about these kinds of stuff rather than dwelling on dark thoughts and thinking about depression all the time.
Being extremely curious here now don’t get weirded out but have you ever seen your ex naked?
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Hello Broken. You’re still awake? What’s got you feeling miserable?
im always awake. idk yesterday it got really pissed and upset because i started to think about how fuked society is. i do this quite often but there was something about last night. i took my thought process to a whole new level and i didnt like it. why do i always have to question evverything to the point where i cant take it anymore. its driving me insane
Same here. It was really bad when I was your age. I would send things in my room flying in my fits of rage. I’d be screaming and smashing everything up except my mp3. But I did destroy my art one time. 🙁 Wish I didn’t do that.
How’s it going now? Do u still feel the same? You can vent out your thoughts in a post.
i just wanna fucking die. im always lonely people dont talk to me not even my cousins who used to be my everything until one night i tried to talk to them about was was wrong they labeld me as a suicidal atheist. they said its ok anna we still love you. little did i know they would stop talking to me. they all took a trip to greece and i was left alone. its not fair. i cant help the way i am.
Sorry to hear that.
I stopped being lonely a long time ago. -_- I think.
Just so you know my cousins stopped talking to me too about ten years ago. I’ve even become distant with all my relatives. But it doesn’t bother me at all. They weren’t my type of people anyway.
Living is painful. Loneliness too. It’s nothing but darkness. Wanna flashlight? lol
And don’t let the label “suicidal atheist” get to you. Trust me it’s not just you who gets called that.
yea i know. they arent my type of people either. but it still sucks even though i hate the materialistic people theyve grown to be.
Do you still care about them?
idk…i go on fb and i sit there and grow envious of the lives they live. carefree with not a worry in the world. i sit there and cry as i stare at my screen because they dont even look at me. it hurts so much i just hold my stomach. and then i start to hate myself for letting it get me when they dont look at me.
You don’t have to hate yourself. I was like that too. I’ve been there.
Shit you just made me cry. 🙁 Don’t feel bad about those kinds of things. There’ll be lots more people out there who’ll gladly be your friend and see just how good a person you really are, including me. 🙂 Cheer up.
i know…i get over it for a while but it all comes back ten times worse
Yeah that part sucks the most.
and lately iv been getting worse and worse. i havnt picked my guitar or my sketch pad up in a month. i dont really write anymore. im just slowly giving up on everything
Don’t give up yet. I know I’m not giving up.
How about you go see a counselor, somebody, a psychiatrist. Taking pills for your depression won’t be so bad.
i tried to kill myself on may 1 2010. i took 8 pills that i was supposed to only take in every 2 hours. i overdosed. i was freking out crying and screaming cause i wanted to die so bad. my ex (the reason why im so fucked up) called my cousin and she came and took all my pills. when my mom found out she called me yelling saying why are you acting like this i said i hated my life. she told me to grow up and stop acting like this you just want attention theres nothing wrong with you. you dont have the balss to kill yourself. my mom didnt care. she was afraid ppl would find out and talk bad about the family. fuck the family
Whoa, you attempted?! For a chick you do have balls!
About your ex don’t beat yourself up over one dude. Then again I don’t know anything about having a bf. Was he good to you? Are you still hung up over him and why?
he was amazing. he was the kind of guy that was hard to believe existed. he was just like me. forced to conform to the preconceived notions of what society wants him to be so he does the complete opposite he was me in guy form. exactly. he wasnt that good looking but i didnt care. it was long distance. i missed hin so much i ended it and we promised to remain friends. but it hurt to much cause we still loved eachother. one day he flippped telling me to kill myself go to hell you ***** i never loved you and its all my fault. i still love a person who hates me
Hard to believe that such a perfect guy could say those things to you.
But yeah, guys can suck. Guys can be so goddamn confusing. They can also play with our hearts if we choose to let them. Well hey at least you’re feeling the love. I never experianced that with any man before. =p
iv also experienced it with a girl but im not bisexual im like bicurious
Oh that’s cool. btw I’ve never had a gf too. I’m a solitary girl.
Probably why I never liked a dude in my town is because I’m especially attracted to Japanese dudes. So cute. 🙂
Who’s your preferences?
tall skinny awkward weird ones with piercings. lip rrings make me melt
Ooh that is hot =P
I like mine tall, pale-skinned and mysterious. And of course the size of their manhood matters to me too. Gotta be big but not too big! lol
Are you a virgin? I am and proud to be one too. ^_^
yes yes i am
As a virgin do you ever wonder if it’ll hurt when- you know when he penetrates your womanhood? I worry about that alot since I like impressive shafts. Am I making you uncomfortable?
not at all and yes all the time. i dont really get uncomfortable. im usually the one doing it to other people
Well it’s nice to talk about these kinds of stuff rather than dwelling on dark thoughts and thinking about depression all the time.
Being extremely curious here now don’t get weirded out but have you ever seen your ex naked?
the girl not the guy
whoa how’d that happen? did u like what u saw? sooo sorry another weird question
i spent the night with her. and i dont really care about that stuff
Good 4 u! 😀 Broken I’ve gotta log out now. Later. Have a good night’s sleep.