Worst school day ever. I hate my life so much its not even funny. God why are you punishing me? What did i do wrong? I beileve in you but it seems you hate me. Why do people make fun of me. I got stares from people and they just point and laugh. AM I THAT UGLY? Did i look the wrong directions? Nothing but tears today. Nothing but sympthy. My friends said to forget about it or ignore them but thats not working at all i cant do it. Everyday its the same thing. Like i said i am weak. i cant do this anymore. I have given up on everything. Im just going to drown so then dont have to worry about me anymore. I havent even talk to them or even breath the same air as them, but i can hear them and it hurts. Like i said im just going to drown.
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Highschool is a horrible place. Even for the people that are popular. I was popular. People wanted to be my friend, they wanted to date me….But even I was horribly lonesome and pathetic inside. You have to focus on what’s inside. If you dissapear, they win. I’m there. I never had confidence. I was always nice to people but was always treated badly. I’m older now..It does get better. I’m in my 20’s they say it gets better in your 30’s keep your chin up. What you have is you. When you get out of there. you will find your place..and struggle..but someday it will all make sense.
Please don’t do this. There are kind people out there.
I hate school too. I don’t think you’ve done anything wrong. It’s tough when you hear people talking shit about you- it really hurts- but your friends are kind of right. Ignore them. That’s the best thing to do, Better yet, confront them (appropriately of course). You don’t deserve to be treated like that- you deserve to live.
I’m a 15 year old girl. For some time, a went to a catholic private all girls school. The girls there were so bitchy it was amazing. They would do the exact same thing you described. I ended up holing up in sick bay but then I realized how many people felt like that. It wasn’t just me. It helps to know you’re not the only one- so many other people feel just like you.
I tend to have very low self-esteem. Sometimes, I would just assume when people were laughing and pointing, that they were laughing at me. Do you think you could also be going through that?
You also mentioned you had friends. Here’s a good idea: give them compliments. It will make you feel great and empowered and better still, they will return them. It’s a great way to get some self esteem. I thunk you’re very lucky to have friends.
As for the god thing- I’m raised catholic but not practicing. I believe in a higher being though not necessarily the catholic god. Saying that, I think whoevers up there doesnt mean to wrong you. Think of it as an obstacle they devised for you to overcome. Once you overcome it, you will have become stronger and learned something. Maybe that’s their objective. Who knows?
I think you should give it time. Learning takes time- learning o overcome these people takes time.
Hope this helped.
i have a challenge for you…
everyday devote 1 hour of your day to not do anything. just sit on your couch or your bed or whatever and just listen. dont play music dont play with your phone or computer just sit there. dont talk and try not to even think about anything. just listen and let God speak to you. dont pray, read a bible or anything for this one hour. just listen…