yesterday was a great day. downtown with everyone for at least eight hours. doing nothing but talking and walking. enjoying the day. but it all changes when night falls. cause i know i have to go home soon. where ill be alone. in a house of people who call themselves my family. walking through the door walking up the stairs to my cold empty room. making me wish id never gone out in the first place. thats not fair. i cant help but to cryas i lay inert in the shower as the scorching hot water burns my skin turning it almost the same hue of that tainted crimson blood that i find so breathtakingly beautiful.
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you’re stronger than that, i know you are.
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I’ve gotten to the point where I try to avoid those emotional highs (going out, having fun, etc.) in fear of the let down that follows. Oh that joy didn’t have to be followed by misery. The higher the high, the lower the low that follows. I wish it didn’t have to be this way.
@ Broken, is your family your blood or foster? anyways here’s my advice:
Turn up your favourite band/music really loud to drain out these thoughts you have. Maybe even talk to your friends on the phone. If your parents complain, fuck them. this is your life. enjoy your youth while you can, cos it goes by sooo fast. im 15 and i can feel the days pass by =/. i hope this message finds you well.
@Broken – Listien to EndTheAgony, what he is trying to say is that you should distract yourself.
Trust me it works, try play a MMORPG or something addicive like the flash game Hex Emipre.
Blood. Iv been doing that but it still sucks. Oh man I remember when I was fifteen. Two years ago. Things havnt changed. My dad told me he was gonna break my neck today. Awesome dad.