I have it all planned it: take the whole bottle of pills, my depakote , tylenol, klonopin, benadryl, mix with a little alcohol and off to the woods I go with a bag to place over my head….that way no will find me until its over with. I will finally get away from myself. You see people may have hurt me and abused me but in the end it was all me I have hurt myself too much and I am done. I cant handle my diseases the meds dont work and I am a horrible person for the way I act. I lock myself up in my room to not deal with people (including my daughter) I lost my husband because of my suicidal tendencies and while I dont want to hurt my boyfriend in the end I will just drive him away anyways. So now all I have to do is get my daughter with her father and get my affairs in order and I will be gone from this hell I call my reality…
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Your daughter will miss you a lot.
she already misses me as i lock myself up. I dont let her in. I dont want anyone in. I just want out of my body and life. I want it gone.
I wish you luck then.
ty should be done in a week
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Why did you have your daughter in the first place then? You can’t even take care of yourself so why inflict misery on another human being by borning her? You have to be responsible for your own action. Imagine your little girl crying for her mother and when she grows up everybody has a mother except her.
thats not very helpful and 6 years ago when I had her I was fine mostly. but when your husband abuses you and your parents blame you for it yeah takes it away. then he leaves you while you are in a hospital over the phone for some slut and when you think maybe you can recover then he is going to take your daughter away anyways so it doesnt matter. everyone hates me and wants me to die anyway. My dad told me to go in the woods and do it and he is a freaking cop!! so yes I want to die no I dont want my daughter in pain but I dont want her to grow up with a mom like me.
You are with your boyfriend now and your husband is the past. Is he still abusing you? How so? As for your father, I really doubt if he is mentally stable. No one with a sane state of mind will ever tell you to commit suicide. Why don’t you start over with your boyfriend?
I was trying to start over but my husband uses my bipolar against me his mother is our boss and he totaled my car ( it was in his name) and was drunk and got away with it. I just cant make the thoughts stop and I cant trust anyone to help me because all they will do in the end is leave me because I am horrible. When I first tried to kill myself they said they were gonna be there for me..yeah really there when while locked up my husband decides to run around with a new woman and introduce her to my child and even have that **** sleep in my house while I was away. Its no wonder I want to die. My husband will call me up saying I need to move out of my house (it was ours rented but he left) so he can have it he says I am worthless and he hates me. I just want it to end and of course everyone at work sees the scars on my arms and just looks at me with pity they know i tried to kill myself 3xs now just never did it right. This time i will. I will get it right.
Seems that you want to die mainly bcoz of what your husband did to you. The house is rented, right? Leave this house to live somewhere else. Why do you allow his words and deeds to hurt you this much? He has become your ex now (if not in legal terms)
Why and how do you need help from others in real life?
we are still legally married and I cant move, but the suicide started before he left. I just dont want to live anymore its too much the voices and mood swings and constantly trying new meds to try to make it stop but the meds make me worse. Instead of leveling me out they put me in a mixed state and then I start cutting myself to make the voices shut up….so I have only one solution left death