I have to wear a bathingsuit/bikini today. I’m insecure about how I look. All I own is a bikini because my bathing suit looks like crap. We’re going to Dorney/water park. I hate how I look.Â
I wish I looked better. I have pink hair (under my blonde) AND I LOOK BAD! My legs and ass are huge. I don’t know how I’m going to go out today and like… take off my shorts. Ew…
I hate it..
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You look fine to me. Hi I’m Liz and I wish I had your body! xD Nice hair too. I’ll be dying my hair pink as well when I go out into the city. Yay! Being a chick is MEGA SWEET! Except that ya have to worry about ur looks more than dudes.
I think you have a really good body. Youre legs arent that big, but some guys like big legs anyway. I know I do.
@Umbra_Artist:Lol. I was just in new york city yesturday (could barely get out because of traffic for the gay pride parade). Thanks though, I like my hair but I’m still insecure. I like when people look at me but at the same time I don’t. And I’m Kaylee; So nice to meet you! lol. As for my body, I’m very insecure about it. You can barely see in the picture that I have about 27 cuts right under my shorts. Not to mention all my scars on my arm and hand. I hate when people see them.. I get ashamed. And then there is my legs and ass! GOD THEY ARE HUGE. I don’t know what to do! I try to diet and exercise but it doesn’t help them.. I’ve thought about stop eating altogether but i love food too much :/ I wish I would get really depressed so my appetite would go kinda.
@isanyonethere: I know.. I still feel like I’m huge though.. I look in the mirror and it just doesn’t look right. but thank you, how are you?
Kaylee you could try Bio-Oil for the scars. That’s what I’m using and the scars seem to be fading.
I don’t like my legs & ass too. I used to be a size 1. But I gained a bit of weight and now I’m exercising like mad to burn the fat. I’m also lifting 20lb weights to build up some muscle! Ooh yeah feel the BURN BABY! ;D
But what I’m most insecure about is my breasts. I gained a cup size too. I just want them to be small again. xD
I think you have a great body. Wish I could have a body like yours and pull off pink hair.
Oh and I like your bikini top. It’s cutee (:
@Umbra_Artist:Lol I WOULD NEVER FIT IN A SIZE 1! I don’t think i ever have! ;3 Size 7 here…. lol. Really? I hate losing my weight cause i have small boobs already. I don’t want them smaller!
@dyingmoon: Thanks (: I’m still very insecure! I wish I was thinnner and could..idk Get guys to look at me without me being the “backup choice” ya know? I like my bikini too x] it has a pink skull on it and the bottoms match.
Ok so I’ve been trying not to say something, but I have to!
Really?!
From what I can c u have nothing, absolutely nothing, to b ashamed of!
Omg n shame on u for not loving ur body! 😉
you have a good body to wear a biki and i dnt say that all the time and not any girl can pull off pink hair but it lokos fine on you:)
Someone’s fishing for compliments. Insecure? You wouldn’t bother showing ppl. Post that photo on a dating site to boost your self esteem instead of a suicide forum.
@Desire:Mind your business; I’m 17 so for 1) I have no place on a suicide forum. And 2) There is nothing wrong with me posting that picture here. There is nothing against it; it’s not nudity and it isn’t me showing suicide. So yup. I told people what was wrong with me so please if you want to be a dick then don’t comment on my posts. Thanks.
@dad:Thanks dad, and sorry I’m in a bad mood and reading comments like Desire’s comment doesn’t help. I’m kindov fed up.
@hailey_baby: Thanks, i miss chatting with you! How are you doing?
@dyingmoon: I <3 my bikini; just doesn't fit right on me I guess. I was stuck wearing it today ): Wish it was a 1Piece I would have felt better! lol.
You are not big!!! You are adorable! I only wish I could have been your size when I was that age. I know what you mean about being insecure though. I am too. I think at one point, every girl goes through it. You have to find the things you do like about yourself and focus on those. Make a list and look at it. I know, it sounds kinda dumb. But my therapist made me do it and it really helped when I needed it. Even if it’s something like ‘your pinky finger,’ put it on the list…. I did!!!
As for the scars… I have them too. Make a story up…. Mine, is more of a true story with a twist. I’m a skydiver. And I had an accident a few years ago where I actually did get some bad cuts… Now while those scars have disappeared and the only ones left are the ones I have put on myself from cutting, people don’t need to know that! I told them it’s from my accident. And they buy it. Tell them you went mountain biking and had an accident. Anything!
The pink hair- I love! I put pink and blue highlights in my hair and I absolutely love it. I can’t imagine it any other way. I find myself expressive that way… And with my tattoos. And some people stare. And guess what…. I say go for it! Stare away!!
Like I said earlier though, you need to concentrate on things you like about you. Then guys will look at you and not as a backup choice. You don’t have to be the skinniest girl for that. I am a size 10-12. Most of my friends are 2 to 6 tops. But guess what? I get hit on and date more than any of them combined. Know why? Because I am confident and fun and flirty. I don’t show that I am insecure like my friends and that’s what guys go for. You have to believe in yourself and like yourself first. It’s not easy, I know, but make that list!!! Look at it and pick one thing a day and keep that in mind. It does work, I promise.
@jumper731: Thanks, that “pep talk” actually helped. I really should make a list like that. I actually think I will right now. And really? I almost did blue but I changed my mind at the last minute; and as for the scars, that’s really cool. I would make up a story but all I really can say is “cat scratch” Because what would make so many clean cut scars like that… :/ I don’t know, I feel difficult and I’m just lost. I don’t know what’s even going on. ):.
I told my wife my arm happened while doing some tree work.
As for a list bout what u like bout ur bod, I could come w/ a hundred things for u in no time, QT! 😉
I have body image issues as well, but that probably comes from being almost 300 lbs (they tell me I carry it well, though)! I always wonder how other people perceive how I look, but I’m fairly comfortable w/ myself as long as I can keep my shirt on. I keep telling myself I’m going to loose weight, but it’s so hard to eat right. Maybe, someday.
i agree you look beautiful why would you want to change anything?
@backtrackinlife = if you really someone to talk to about things im here for you = hit my up when you’re on 🙂
I honestly don’t think people want to see a photo like yours when they want to DIE. You probably made someone feel even worse by making them feel even fatter because you’re so small. There you are dressing up all cute and colorful out to have FUN at a water park.. getting compliments when there are people here in a much deeper depression who can’t even function. No, I’m not fat or jealous.. I’M ANNOYED. I’ll post what I want to post, and I never attacked you in any horrible way. I’m just giving you advice.
I’m done..
@Desire: Thanks. If you’re annoyed keep it to yourself; No one who commented on my post had a problem with the picture other than you. Like I said there is nothing wrong with me posting that picture. So please mind your own business. It’s not something they wouldn’t see on facebook;myspace;photobucket;etc. It’s a blog and it is not nudity, etc. It’s my post and I can include what I would like in it. Sorry if you got annoyed; but there is seriously nothing wrong with my post. If you have a problem with it then report it or something. I’m allowed to post what I would like on here. We’re all here for one reason. We either want to kill ourselves or are here to help others who want to. I in fact want to kill myself. In no spot on this blog does it say I can’t post the post that i did. So please just stop commenting on my post. I don’t enjoy it. Thanks.
@ wishyouwerehere: I have all my life heard that I was too fat (boyfriends mostly), that I have many flaws, that I’m not good enough. I try to break out of that but I easily fall back into it. I’m dealing with personal things lately and I feel like I’m just not good enough. (currently going to trauma counseling and seeing a psychiatrist)… sigh
@dad: I’m okay with myself when I can keep long pants and a baggy shirt on but I hear from people that I shouldn’t dress like that so I try to break out of that shell. I also have social issues. Lol, you do carry it well from what I can see on facebook. Thanks for the compliments too!
@ backtrackinlife – listen sweety, dont you ever listen to what people tell you or what comes out of their mouths – to me they’re just a bunch of idiots that are insecure about themselves – from the pic that you’ve posted i dont see an ounce of fat on you and your legs are smooth and beautiful – dont ever let anyone or anything take away what you are or what you have – you are special in your own way and that is something that should be cherished… 🙂