hello. this is my first post on this website or any kind of forum for this so i don’t really know where to begin. honestly i don’t know what’s wrong with me but i want to kill myself. i don’t even feel like i’m even allowed to feel this way. i’ve had a “good” life and upbringing. I have extremely loving parents but i guess the main problem is with myself. i’ve always had low self esteem and always thought i was too shy and weird. i’ve been in therapy but recently stopped going. i’m on celexa but it’s not helping me at all. i don’t want to leave my house at all or see anyone. i honestly don’t think i’m depressed. i don’t want help because i don’t think it will change my mind. i want to get rid of myself before i cause anyone else problems. i’ve never felt like had true friends that care about me. i feel like if i were to kill myself no one would even care except my family. i feel like i don’t even know myself. i ask myself what would people even say at my funeral? who would even go to my funeral? they’d probably only go because they feel bad for my family. i titled this stupid question because i was going to ask about if anyone ever thought about intentionally giving yourself alcohol poisoning as a method of suicide? i know it’s a stupid question but i know there has to be someone who’s thought of that or maybe attempted? sorry i don’t know if i’m breaking the site’s guidelines by asking but someone please answer
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You’re not alone….strange things are going on in the world, people are feeling all sorts of bizarre symptoms that doctors can not address. Be gentle with yourself. Do not judge how you feel…own it…it’s okay. Keep going, do your best. The only judge in the picture would be you…so simply refrain.
It’s not a stupid question, and I’d encourage you to think much higher of yourself. It’s all good. Good question. Take care. You can’t feel it…just know you’re being watched over…hard to believe I know. You’re doing your best. Be content with that. The rules in life are changing. good luck.